I am stronger than I thought!

Thanks all 4 ur kind words and support 🙂

Yesterday we went 2 my bf's mates 4 a barbeque, it did not rain until 6ish so we did not need our umbrellas luckily lol!

Then last nite me and my bf went out just the 2 of us, 4 the 1st time in a long while. We went 2 watch the Batman film, which was brilliant. Then we went for some dinner, no hangover this morning just a few drinks last nite but it was a really gr8 evening. I am still feeling really positive at the moment.... And I'm realising how many fun things I missed out on by sitting in front of a machine. Can't change the past tho but I can change the future and make a better life 4 me and my family 🙂

So I am determined that I will stay gamble free this time...... no more wasted time!

Hope everyone's having a gr8 wknd x

aww Charlotte,

That sounds like a really nice day you had. So you did like Batman then i told you that it would be good :). I went with my wife to see Ted yesterday was really good and i am the same the amount of time and money we have spent wasting on stupid fruit machines at least we can realise that and use it as ammo to stop ourselves when urges come along to threaten us.

There are so many benefits to not gambling did you read flaggs comments on his diary today he makes a very good point 🙂

Take care Charlotte and together we will beat that 90 day challenge along with everyone else on that list. Glad you had a good weekend x

Kind Regards

Ricky 🙂

Hey Char,

Thank you for your post and for welcoming me back.

This is such a tough journey for all of us and sometimes things get out of hand and perhaps I over-reacted.

I just want us all to get on with our recovery and to help each other through the tough times.

Thanks again and glad to see you are staying strong xx

Char post please. If you have gone to bed I will read and reply in the morning. I will be up until at least 12.

Charl are you ok hun. I saw your post if you want you can have my email address let me know and I will post it to you. I am here to support you and here for you whenever you need me you helped me loads and im happy to be here for you. In fact its a pleasure. I wanted to check something with you have I done anything that may have upset you or hurt you are you still happy to support me. Because I respect you so much and appreciate all your help. You are a little star Charl keep shining x

Cheers Charl your last post has stopped me worrying I was feeling down and I did not want to lose your support because it means so much its good to know you will keep helping me and giving me tips. You are a special person. Take good care x

Glad you had a great weekend. think its the little things we miss - going out with your partner, seeing friends. Simple stuff but stuff we neglect when gambling. But as you say we cant change the past, only work on the future, so i wish you many good days/nights out with your you partner and your lovely daughter in your future.

Charlotte.

Another wonderfull post to read.

I accept I cannot change the past.

This my friend is a massive thing in the quest to live gamble free, to think you are in the knowledge that gamble free life and all it throws your way will be oh so better for it.

Well done keep making that choice.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Charlotte,

I hope that you are okay and that you are having a good day. You are doing brilliantly. 🙂

Take care

Dave X

Thanks all 4 ur kind words and support as always 🙂

I was in 2 minds whether 2 post as I did not want 2 write a negative post after feeling so postive. But from everyones support in chat. I thought I would just write my thoughts and feelings down for my own benefit.

Today I am feeling really down, things have really hit me hard 2day . I think I have been pushing things 2 the back of my mind for a bit... (no change there then) and 2day I realise I will never see my grandad again and it hurts . Maybe it's me and I'm being stupid but 2day I have lost all motivation 4 this journey. I really have, I just feel tired and emotionally drained rite now. Things are really tough 4 me atm, and I am really struggling. I am still gamble free.

Facing my past rite now is really painful it hurts soooo much. Sometimes I think that people I care about would be better off without me. But I realise I am just being stupid trying 2 run away from the pain I feel . I'm Just feeling down rite now, need some time 2 get my thoughts 2gether. I will be ok, I always am fake it til u make it and all that 🙂

Sorry I have no energy 2 post 2 others rite now, I hope u r all ok and staying strong... take care x

Charl I want to say if there is anything I can do I will I am always here for you. Its been a pleasure to get to know you at chat and you have helped me loads. I dont like seeing you low. What I will say and I hope this helps in some way. From getting to know you in chat you are a fighter you fight through things nothing keeps you down for long. But I want to say its OK to grieve. Its OK occassionally to not be strong. You put a lot of pressure on yourself and you are always helping others and I never see you ever ask for help or support much. It is OK to accept help. You are not alone in this there are many people here for you. Loads of people who have been through what you have would have crumbled but not you Charl look at how far you have come step back hun and be proud. Because you make me proud. You are a credit to yourself and your family. Take good care Charl x

HI Char,

Sorry to hear things are tough for you at the moment ive learnt that bottling things up for me is dangerous, be kind to yourself you cant solve all your problems in one day. Keep going and i hope you find a solution soon. Your diary doesnt have to be positive all the time thats what its for, post it or talk it through with someone, a different perseptive is always good.

blondie xxx

Morning Charlotte,

I just wanted to check that you are okay this morning and to let you know that I am thinking of you. Grief is something that can creep up on us at anytime. It is only a short time since your grandad passed away and your feelings are perfectly natural. Please reach out to those closest to you - your family, friends, boyfriend and even your gamcare friends. You are such a great support to so many Charlotte Now is your time to be supported. Take care.

Big hugs

Dave X

Charl I wanted to check you are ok this morning. I agree with what Dave said I hope you are well. If you need anything let me know. Take good care Charl x

Morning Charl,

Just wanted to say pretty much he same as everyone else I hope you are ok! It's great you wrote down your feeling that's what the diary is there for the good and the bad! I do think the danger of pushing things to the back of your mind is that they can all come rushing back at once but at the same time it can be overwhelming dealing with them too so I can understand your position! Mayb it's about breaking things into smaller chunks and dealing with one thing at a time!

You are very strong and I know you will come through this difficult time Stronger than ever!

Flagg