hi charlotte
im glad i made the effort to get in to chat tonight, i would hate to think i had upset you in anyway. you are so close to the three figure club so get some rest my friend and if your off to bed them i will have to keep the strawberry ciders lol
no gamblings the new gambling
carl
Charlotte.
Just a line to say recovery is yours, be selfish from time to time, you put a huge amount of effort in, reap the rewards for that for you and yours.
Duncs stepping forward never back
Well done completing Flaggs challenge, I know that you were struggling with urges to gamble but you persevered and crossed the finish line.
Use that spirit to complete the next challenge.
Hi Charlotte
A nightcap post from me just before I go to sleep....you are doing so well xxx
It's hard to change who you are inside..Im 45 and still struggling with knowing how to "be".
People over the years called me a soft touch and niave as I usually take people on face value .
My pals often say "you did what???" ...I know it's well intended but I just end up feeling stupid and confused.
I also think its a nice quality to take people at face value but sadly not everyones playing by the same rules which is why often I still get taken advantage of....
To be honest...I'm still confused on this one too Charlotte...
R and D xx
Thanks all 🙂
I should be in bed asleep now, I have 2 be up at stupid o clock 2 take Maddison 2 my parents then I have 2 be in work at 8... But I can't sleep, I have lots of thoughts going round in my head atm. I am trying to figure some stuff out. 2moro I am 14 wks gamble free and I don't wanna ruin that!
I found some quotes that have helped me get thru some tough times in the past... I am gonna write them here on my diary so I can look back at them...
In a world where u can be nething ....be urself!
Ppl think it is holding on that makes u stronger, but sometimes it's letting go!
Stand up 4 wot u believe in even if u r standing alone!
Never long 4 anyone from the past. There is a reason they never made it 2 ur future!
There comes a time in ur life, when u realise who really matters, who never did and who always will!
Feelings change.... Memories don't!
I've learnt that things change, ppl change and it doesn't mean u 4get the past. It simply means u move on and treasure the memories. Letting go does not mean giving up, it means accepting that some things were never meant to be!
Neway I really should try and switch off my thoughts now and get some sleep... Or I will be running on empty 2moro!
Nite xx
hi charlotte
Hope you managed to get some zzzz in the end. Who knows might save the strawberry cider for Thursday and the big celebration might even bring a cream cake lol
No gamblings the new gambling
Carl
did someone say cake.. !! lol..
Hope you caught up on some sleep. You will be reaching 100 days soon.
Wow.
Take care
Blondie xxx
Thanks all 🙂
I am working full time atm which I agreed 2 when I took the job.... I am covering someone who is on leave until January... Then I start my part time hrs.. It is taking soooo much out of me. I am not getting netime 4me nemore, the little time I do get after work with Maddison b4 she goes 2 bed is really precious... I look 4ward 2 the wknds now... But I am really struggling rite now not 2 run 2 a machine.... I need to get past 16 wks but I am feeling inpatient... I can't allow myself 2 mess up again at the same point as the last 2 slips!
14 wks gamble free.... I need 2 stay strong!
Ppl keep telling me that I am putting 2 much pressure on myself, I keep ignoring this but maybe they r rite! Neway I should be sooo happy rite now maybe it is cus I am running on empty that I am struggling!
I hope everyone is ok x
Hi Char
Really nice to see you in Chat tonight I must make more of an effort.
I know your finiding things tough at the moment but you will get through it....I have just read that your working lots of extra hours at the minute make sure you treat yourself to something on payday as a little reward for your achievements in staying gamble free.
Try and find a little bit of you time once a week even if its only a short period of time, your doing amazing.
Stay strong
Andrew xx
hi charlotte,
I dont post to you much but always read your diary,i noticed your doing the same thing i was doing for work working full time covering till someone else starts,i missed my 3yr old badly didnt seem fair to put him in nursery for so long asleep by the time he got home and up and out in the morning.but just think of the extra pennies you can spoil her rotten with,i know its not about money but it does feel good :0)
As for running on empty i know that feeling well but believe me turning to a machine will only make you feel even more empty,youve got a sensible head on those young shoulders and will do the right thing.Maybe its time to book a day off to recharge those batteries a little.Dont run on empty for to long as your'll make yourself ill hun and thats not good for you or LO(i sound like my mum lol)
As for the pressure its human nature hun but try not to think about what happened last time you reached 16 weeks,infact try not to think of the time at all.
Stay Strong
L xx
Charlotte.
Just once again step back and take a bow!!
You my dear friend earnt it!!
And do savour those extra pennies that come with the hrs.
Heres a thing for you, a question ?
Maddison V machine
I think we have a winner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just for today be proud,we all without doubt are.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Good Evening Charlotte
Just wanted to say what an amazing job your doing writing on so many peoples diaries and offering so much help and support to others, Im sure your helping more people than you will ever realise.
Keep up the great work you should be really proud of yourself 🙂
Andrew xx
Hi Hun
Your more than welcome my lovely i really do understand how you feeling working,kids,running on empty sometimes it feels like the whirlwind of everything will never stop,but like i said dont run on empty for to long as you will make yourself ill.
You give such great support on here dont forget about yourself or use it to run away from how your feeling,as sometimes i would post on everyone elses and not really say anything on mine so i didnt have to think about it.
Keep that head held high.Your doing great
Stay Strong
L xx
Thanks all 4 ur lovely posts and kind words. It means alot 🙂
I have not really posted on others diaries 4 a few days. So I thought I would catch up 2nite 🙂
I am feeling a lot more positive atm, I finished work a couple of hours early 2day.... I picked up Maddison from my parents and I took her swimming and 2 the park the weather was nice this afternoon here... She was sooo happy she just kept smiling.. It made me happy. I think I wore her out tho... She went 2 sleep early, bless her!
I know I will get tough days, especially when I am tired... But I am gonna try and stay strong and not be so hard on myself!
2moro, I am 100 days gamble free, this journey is not always easy... but it is soooo worth it 🙂
I hope everyone is ok x
hi charlotte
you are doing so well but make sure you dont run on empty for too long, thats when we get vunerable, well i do but you just seem to keep pulling out the bag not just for yourself but for so many others as well, maybe its time to be a bit selfish for a while as after all you are doing this for you and yours!!
dont worry bout counting down to sixteen weeks as thats just heaping on the pressure more remember its one day at a time!!
but if you do find yourself keep thinking bout it, think of this i have strawberry ciders sitting in the fridge but there not yours till week 16 and day 1!!!
no gamblings the new gambling
carl
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