I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Evening diary, fantastic day today, just sat down, other half gone to the gym after I cooked him sirloin steak, stuffed mushrooms, onion rings, baby carrots, peas and healthy skinned wedges (no orange chips this weeK) and garlic and herb flat bread. Even cooked the dog a steak as it was 2 for 3. Dancing around the kitchen whilst cooking, noticed that whilst twerking that muffin top is not now wobbling as it used to, those walks dancing and Zumba are finally paying off thank god as I cannot face those pull me in perk m up tights for a while! Any way earlier on today I went through one of the wardrobes and found in excess of 15 pairs of flip flops, enough to last me the rest off my life unless I moved to Asia. I also found several items of clothing with the labels still on (most of the ladies on here can relate to this one, buy something new even though you don't need it, get it out several weeks or months later and hubby says is that new and we say nooooooo had it ages). It's so nice to do normal things and appreciate the little things in life. two weeks to my second pay day gamble free and still have enough money to last till the end of the month, whilst that's good what is even better is that I'm sleeping, I'm walking with my head held high, I'm laughing, I'm dancing and feel that I can breath more easily. I am still clearing debts but they are not getting higher and they won't as long as I remain gf, to which I will because I love this new found feeling and it is priceless. X X going to grab a drink ready for strictly x best wishes all x X

Hi Anon thanks for post glad your having joy in life again :)) yes my photo is of Jazzy our jack Russell she's amazing lol. Well done on days hun stay strong and gf Lu x

Evening, another gf day for me, and brill news I have a new grandchild on the way which will mean 5 in total. Had my youngest today at 2.5 he's pretty lively or is it because I'm getting older. Another busy week ahead at work. Had a fabulous week end even though the weather has not been brill. I am still gf and will remain gf best wishes to all on this journey x X

Morning and day 48, wet and cold but still smiling as today is going to be another gf day for me working towards that 60 days and on target for my 100 days on the 5th Jan 2017. At work now so catch you all later x

Well I've read some diaries and posts on here over the last 40 plus days and have to say that not all posts are helpful or positive to people that are trying to stop . People are reaching out for help on here and depending on what response they get back could actually feel worse or give up on the forum/site. THere are several types of people in the world, which means that people see and handle recovery differently, there is no right or wrong way, it's what works for that individual. Some posts are so patronising, self righteous that I want to scream at them, leave the poor sod alone they are already in a difficult place.

I've also noticed that so many people only do a couple of posts and then disappear, what happens to them, do they go back to the awful g or have they been scared off by the aforementioned kind of post! don't get me wrong every one is entitled to an opinion but it's a shame if they are so harsh and the writer is up their own a**e and it's detrimental to the persons recovery. I feel like saying if you have nothing nice to say keep your mouth shut. anyway my personal experience has been good and the people I have corresponded with have been nothing but supportive. Rant over I am gf and will remain so, once I've made my mind up nothing will change it. Best wishes and well done to all who have got through another day of gf or on their first x

I love nothing more than a good old rant. Especially on a Monday grrrr. We'll done so far in your recovery..
Most of all enjoy you gf week
Deano x

Orange chips lol
You will confuse the old man again. I can't believe so many people don't know what they are.
Maybe we could set up shop next to Alan's chippy and take all his custom. We could even pretend we invented them. Who would know?

Yep gotta agree with Deano there , More rantier than a ranting ranty thing havin a good rant :)).

If there wern't bad posts we'd never appreciate the good ones .

Keep doing what feels good anon your doing great :))

Alan x

As long as we get to take the orange chips global I'm in.
But then it would be confusing because they would think we're selling orange crisps. Dam yanks messing with our language

I know exactly how you feel about some posts on here anon ,especially they first arrive and people have a right old go at them , it's enough to make anyone run for cover , if youve been around for a while you usually realise that good intentions lay behind the post but when we first turn up here were not always that receptive to some comments and just want a shoulder to cry on and a bit of help in moving forward , so I think people need to show a little more compassion sometimes ?.

Ps Can we drop the Orange chips now please , it's all a bit foriegn to me :((

Another day almost over, sometimes feel something not right as this feels too easy for me and keep waiting for the urges to get worse? Can anyone tell me if it's easier at the beginning? X

I had the same concerns...Asked @ GA when the 'honeymoon' period ended! Mine hasn't & I've stopped expecting the urges to powerwash me now...I think accepting I couldn't go back has been vital. I treat it like an allergy...One bite & I'm done for. I can't sat that they'll never get worse but stay on your guard & be prepared to do whatever it takes when they come...Albeit I only had a few, each 'fight' I had made me stronger.

Hey Anon

You are doing dreat. Almost 50 days! I think when you are truely wanting to stop, so do the urges. This seems easy because you have set your mind on it. You wanted to stop gamble, you have stopped gambling.

Keep up the good work, it will be January 5th before you know it. Enjoy the grandchildren, kids and their innocence are a good distraction.

Hey anon thanks for your post on my diary and I totally agree with your comment about some people's posts. I think I got reported to gamcare the other week for my response back to one of these posters but they had posted on my diary previously and I had ignored it and something needed to be said this time! If you can't say anything useful then don't say anything at all eh?! Congrats on staying gf....and enjoy the easy ride you're having....just have eyes on the back of your head for when those urges come knocking xxx

Day 49, just got in from work, feeling ok still no urges well not for gambling any way, but seem to have more for the old ciggies which I'm not giving in to either. X