Hi all,was just going back over things in my head.any relapses iv had the last few years.when I would deposit I would not even complete verification.
Deep down I didn't bother and when losing all I wanted was money back,but if this happened I would just continue in a trance.im old enough and clever enough to know I'm not gona win but would get shakes almost and look to find one of the few im not banned from to deposit.so my point is is it like someone who physically harms themselves. Is it a form of self harm that I get relieved from then as always I would look for protection and self exclude.
Anyway I'm just baffled knowing I'm not gona win and not expecting but why did I do it.it was almost like it was only thing that stopped the shakes or adrenaline. My last relapse was caused by a previous self exclude the company which I had blocked ok Gmail, mailed me saying I'm no longer excluded after just one month.clever scam and fell for it. On plus side I'm doing much better and still gamble free.
Does anyone else go through anything similar
Dear Conor,
Thanks for posting on the forum and good to hear things are going well. Feel free to make use of our recovery toolkit options e.g. our new 'Empower Me' https://www.gamcare.org.uk/self-help/empowerme/
Best Wishes
Fiona
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Well done Conor. I know exactly what you mean! If someone asked me to physically self-harm myself, I just couldn’t do it, yet we can mentally harm ourselves in this way!🤷🏻♀️. I would often, when chasing my lost, losses, say to myself, “you know you are going to gamble even higher stakes now and you do know you won’t stop trying until it has all gone and you have nothing left whatsoever and how this is going to impact you for the rest of the month”! Yet I still did it! So yes, I think definitely, it is self-destruction to the next level. May neither of us think/act like this again. 🙏.
Take care and stay strong. 💪.
Pink Lady. 🍎.
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