I need to start a new diary entry. Day one starts tomorrow, time to close the door on four years of gambling. Time to change. Wish me luck, I need it!
Hi angie
Welcome to the forum you have come to the right place for support and understanding as I am also a compulsive gambler.
It's funny if you would of asked me that question 4 years ago and even worse asked me to admit it , I would never have spoken to you again, because then it was everyone or everything else's fault and that's why I gambled.
I'm to tired, I'm to stressed, I'm in to much debt, I'm in a job I dislike, I don't love my husband anymore, you name it I created a reason that had nothing to do with me and I gambled.
Talk about warped thinking!!! I was only every kidding myself and cheating myself.
Today I can openly admit I'm an addict, I can't gamble because just one bet will drag be right back into that cycle of addiction.
Today I have changed the things I disliked in my life as it was only ever down to me to do that, gambling and hiding from the world was just making things a million times worse.
This recovery process for me was never just about stoping gambling, it had such a positive impact on every aspect of my life.
You can do it to, use every last bit of support that is out there, this forum, counselling, GA find out what works for you , recovery is bespoke .
It's funny isn't it I can't wish people good luck anymore as I was so hung up on being lucky, playing the same machines, talking to it....lol. Utter madness when I think about it now.
So I won't wish you good luck,, but I will wish you this,
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
Courage to change the things I can
Wisdom to know the difference
One day at a time you can do it.
Take care
Blondie xxx
Hi Angie,
Welcome to this site. It is never to late to open recovery door, not easy task in early days but as times passes by you will find it easier and your life will be a lot happier and calmer place to be.
Blondie here said it all. Embrace the unknown, look only ahead and keep making the right choice with each waking morning.
Day at a time
I wish you well on your journey
keep posting
Sandra x
Thanks for the words guys, really appreciate it. I am an addict and I have had a couple of bad days. I'm going to open a new forum and update on my progress daily. I'm hoping one day I will look back and see how far I have come. wish you both well x
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