keep on keeping on x

thanks Laura appreciate your kind comments

its day 71 for me GF and not much to report , apart from today I will not gamble

keep on keeping on x

day 72 today GF and today i will not gamble, i have neither the opportunity or the inclination. just realised 4 weeks today i will hit the big 100 days which will coincide nicely with my birthday,not counting the chickens but thats the next milestone ive been looking for. Looking at another holiday in september abroad with my partner which i reckon i can manage without the CC if i go easy between now and then - this would never have happened in previous years, i would still have gone but it would be straight on the plastic.

stay strong, stay on the path all my fellow travellers, and keep on keeping on

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6AEO21i-oN0

Just watching the football and advert came on for ant and decks Saturday night take away casino slots. Bearing in mind the issues with addiction that one of this pair is going through why is he endorsing a product that preys on the vulnerable and the addicted

Agree with you there Shakey. I can never understand why celebrities choose to encourage gambling amongst their fans. They must know their actions could encourage people to lose money that they and their families cannot afford to lose.

Loved the song which you linked us to: "Winner" by The Pet Shop Boys. The message is clear for all to see and understand. If we don't gamble than we are winners. It really is that simple.

Good to see you 72 days away from your last bet and in a good state of mind...stephen

Looking back on all the times
We felt downcast
Didn't think we were going anywhere
Just living in the past
But in that desperation
You get inspiration

cheers Stephen, love the PSB its a great song and very apt for the trials and tribulations good people on this board are facing.

everyone on here who is on a GF journey is a winner

day 73 GF and today I will not gamble. having no urges , no more random gambling dreams, got the training back underway with no issue with the ankle so looking positive for the marathon in october but got some hard miles to put in before. I reminded myself of when i did a marathon on the south coast in april. hanging around the day before it started on a fruit machine on the pier, before moving to slot machines in the town centre, moving onto FOBT's lost a good few hundred, then spent the evening and most of the night playing online on my phone, lost even more, hardly had any sleep, got up felt awful, miserable , got the run done just about but turned what should have been a fantastic weekend feeling good about myself into a miserable one and made a tough run a lot tougher - amazing what we put ourselves through , it all started from a couple of quid in a 10p fruit machine - dont recognise that person as me any more but im conscious i could go there again if i dont stay on this path.

stay GF today, yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery , today is a gift (thats why its called the present)

keep on keeping on x

day 74 GF and today i will not gamble. got a good run in last night and a swim. Booked a holiday yesterday, paid in full - realised last night ive cocked it up and booked the wrong hotel , instead of a beach resort ive got one with the same name in a city centre with a pool on the roof !! need to change it today probably gonna cost me a fortune, missus is going mental. The old me would be in a spiral of despair right now but im taking it in my stride, im actually mildly amused by how i could be so thick.

good luck on your individual journeys, take the power back, get the gambling monkey off your back and back in the jungle and above all if you book any holidays make sure you look at the pictures, Keep on Keeping ON ,

78 days in the bag GF. all is well , nice weekend plenty of football . no serious urges or anything. watched my mate's various accumulators going wrong one by one through saturday / saturday night, been there plenty of times, no desire to go there again.

keep on keeping on

Glad to see you are still a few days behind me, ever inching towards the century. Keep up the fight!

79 days gf , the buzz of gambling has been replaced by the buzz of not gambling, unexpected £200 vet bill the day before payday left me with £6 in the bank for 24 hours, i'll get it back from the pet insurance but it reminded me of what every month used to be like.

day 80.

I'm leaving bitterness behind, this time I'm cleaning out my mind

I'm leaving anger in the past , with all the shadows that it cast.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KO3_b4twyBk

keep on keeping on

Congratulations Shakey on 80 days without a bet.

Great attitude, realistic and showing a lot of courage.

Wishing you well on your journey. Ps I tried the link but the song was blocked.

cheers stephen

81 days ,

81 spurs beat man city 3-2 after a replay with THAT goal from Ricky Villa

on this day in 81 Tainted Love was #1

day 85 Gamble Free but nothing to be proud of , Major Wobble but survived thanks to Gamstop.

Massive aggro with the missus on Sunday/Monday plus other issues kids etc. Dont know why but had a brilliant Saturday went to football etc. went to the pub, cooked a nice meal few drinks etc. Sunday morning really nice dog walk with the missus then from nowhere a dark mood descended so I sat watching football and drinking for the rest of the day acted like an absolute a**e. was horrible to her. Monday morning proper downer , she wasnt talking to me still (understandably - barely is even now) anyway, couldnt log into Gamcare issue with password not sure what, then from nowhere 84 days in Im trying to create accounts at online casinos, just wanted to self destruct. Anyway Gamstop did its job and none of them would allow me to register and the moment came and went. Shameful really.

Proper annoyed with myself 85 days today and actually it doesnt mean anything because even though i didnt do it , I know that if id had access I definitely would have done yesterday which proves im no further out of the grip of this thing than i was 85 days ago.