Last Gamble 30th August 2009

Day 236

Good day in work, all ready for the weekend and I cannot wait. Yaay. Not much to report on the gambling front no urges at all.... just posting as I am going out on the town tonight and I wanted to remind myself that I will not gamble.

Have a nice weekend folks.

Jim

Day 238

Having a great weekend no thoughts of gambling, went out on Friday evening and had a text off my wife saying stay out of the Casino..... it hadn't even crossed my mind! But was glad to get home and say that I had not gone near the s**t hole.

Looking forward to another gambling free week.

Cheers, Jim

Hi Jim

Good to read that your having a great weekend and even better to read that you are going as strong as ever!

That year gamble free will soon be here and thats a great first major milestone, i get such positive vibes of your diary and your recovery, i think thats why yours is the first and sometimes the only one i read.

take care mate and hope you have good gamble free week ahead. ands

Day 240

Ticking along quite nicely. No urges to gamble what so ever! It seems easy at the mo.... hopefully always will. I know it sounds corny but it is like a completely different life without gambling. Life is so much better.

Thanks Ands for the post always cheers me up to see you pop by. I hope you are having a good week and keep it going mate.

Cheers, Jim

Great to see you are still finding things easy mate.

Near enough at the 2/3rds of a year mark now.

Stumper

Hi Jim

Well done on the 250 m8.Great to see you still going so well.All the best Jeff.

Day 242

Cheers Guys, I haven't made the 250 mark yet but thanks for the congrats a week early.

Not much happening at my end... am home today and am so glad that I am self excluded from the bookies, I can walk past there on my way to the shop and not worry. I can honestly say that if I hadn't self excluded from that betting shop, I would not have been able to give up.

So anyone who says there is no point as if I want to gamble I will find a way, isn't ready to give up. Self exclude from your locals, it makes it so mush easier.

Cheers, Jim

Day 244

So stressed my head is spinning, work is just too much. But I will not gamble. I hate gambling as it destroys me and turns me into a horrible person.

No real urges but really strong thoughts of gambling today.

Jim

Sorry to read that work is stressful at the minute mate. I have had a bad couple of days at work as well but at least we are lucky enough to be working and it is still a much nicer stress than that what we used to feel when we had done all our money for the umpteenth time in the bookies!!!

Hope you have a nice Bank Holiday weekend.

Stumper

Day 245

Weekend has been a struggle.... haven't gambled, but don't feel as 'up' as I normally do. Never mind I will get through this in a week or two.

I will not gamble; as it just makes everything far worse.

I remember more occasions than I care to forget; borrowing a fortune to gamble as I couldn't get any more money out as I was on my daily limit, I had about 5 a/c's so that had to be at least a grand before I started to borrow, I had no idea how I was going to pay it back so the juggling money and lying would start.... what a nightmare that was. Oh then they brought out cash back and my statements would read page one of twenty.... what a nightmare that was.

No more though.... I will not gamble.

Cheers, Jim

Day 246

Feel better today got loads done around the house yesterday and had a few beers last night, exactly what was needed.

No real thoughts of gambling, I will not gamble.

Cheers, Jim

Hi Jim

Thanks for your post and kind words on my diary!!

Sorry to read that you have had a stressful time at work, glad to read tho, you resisted the urge to gamble, to escape the stress. Hope you are ok and glad you where feeling better yesterday and hope you are having a good day today.

Those bank statements, endless pages of atm withdrawals, borrowing money (stealing in my case) and more are the constant reminders what gambling does to our lives.....lifes good and hard at times but gambling has no place in our lives!!

Anyway waffle over sorry, im still gamble free, glad you are too! take care mate and hope you have good week. ands

Day 248

Cheers Ands, its good to have you remind me why I joined this site in the first place.

No thoughts of gambling, busy and happy enough.... work giving me plenty to think about.

I will not gamble.

Cheers, Jim

Day 252,

Still really stressed loads going on at my end, got completely drunk on Friday and argues with wife as she thought I had been to the casino, which I hadn't... I am exluded in any case. But all is better now... I will not gamble not today nor again, it just isn't worth the trouble it causes.

Cheers, Jim

Although it must have been annoying that you were doubted by the wife mate, it is still a good thing as it proves how much she cares and also it is a sharp reminder what it would be like if you ever did go back to gambling.

As you say it is definitely not worth it.

All the best

Stumper