Life begins again

Suzanne

Today I simply Salute you

A huge well done on making it to fifty days gamble free,something to be proud of,something to inspire yourself to build upon.

A bigger well done for letting the lights of recovery keep turning themselves on

They will shine through,and keep turning on.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Good morning Diary

Day 51 and not even one penny spent on gambling

I am trying hard not to keep reflecting on the past but different situations in the day bring it up

No real urges to gamble though just little thoughts now and then (a tenner won't hurt) well a tenner will hurt because I would not stop there

It's my choice and I am abstaining today

Me and OH have day to ourselves to do what we want and one thing I definitely won't be doing is wasting time and money gambling

One day at a time I will win one day a a time

Wishing everyone a good positive gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne, I did post yesterday to congratulate you but it hasn't shown.

Well done and keep up the good work.

Shaun

hi suzanne well done past the 50 day mark, your doing brilliantly

jess x

Hi Suzanne,

Thank you for your kind words on my diary. Keep up the fight and kick this habit into touch every minute, hour and day. Enjoy your time off (days just flies eh?) And make the most of your time with loved ones.

Be proud, half of century already there, never stop and look only ahead.

Stay safe and am proud of you !!!

S x

Well done Suzanne on your 51 days. They are just flying by.

It will be 100 soon.

keep it up.

Steve

Good morning diary

Day 52 and not even one penny spent on gambling

The week is going fast cos I'm on hol from work

Have not had one lie in have woken early every morning so far quite annoyed with myself when I woke up this morning and it was only 5.45

I am on holiday don't need to wake up early

Had an easy day yesterday with OH chilling in the garden in the afternoon it got quite hot about 34 degrees on the decking

So I am off work and doing just what me and OH want to do so why do I feel something is missing and that I should be doing something but don't know what

I felt strangely like this After my Dad passed I had nursed him for his last year at home so I know what was missing then my lovely Dad ofcourse but surely I can't compare not gambling to such a loss as bereavement

I have no big urges to gamble at all at the moment even though gambling is on my mind but it's thoughts of what I did and not want I want to do now if that makes sense

I know that by not having funds on my card I am more than 5 mins from gambling and that has to be positive doesn't it

I cannot play today because I would not stop today

Have a good positive gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Thanks for writing on my diary, your words are very encouraging, well done for hitting day 52 you are an inspiration to me and I hope I will be one day writing a day 52 diary entry.

Keep up the brilliant work x

Hi suzanne its great to see you are still doing well. Keep it up.

Bring it on.

Gazza

Well done on day 52 Suzanne, day 60 will be here in no time. I play cricket and when you are trying to get 100 runs the coach always says concentrate on small targets - that way it won't seem so daunting.

Shaun

Hi Suzanne well done on getting to day 52, think you are an inspiration to all of us on her, really kind and supportive to lots of people and we all appreciate it ! thanks again x

Well done on reaching day 52. Enjoy your week off.

Steve x

Good morning diary

Day 53 and not even one penny spent on gambling

Had quite a busy day yesterday in the garden cutting the hedges right back and cutting the lawns everything is growing very quickly at the moment

Keeping busy all day kept my mind straight and lifted my feelings back in track

Have another busy day today Little man is coming over for the day so a visit to the park and woods is on the agenda

I have just read a newcomers post about his debt and that he had kidded himself it was manageable

That was another big red for me cos when I was over 20k in debt 3 years ago I kidded myself for that time it was manageable (how stupid and sad was that) and that it has taken me from then to 28th April to realise that it was not at all manageable (that is even more pathetic how my mind was working)

One day at a time I will ride this roller coaster holding on tight

I don't want to play today my choice for today

Wishing everyone a happy and positive gambling free day today

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne - well done on reaching day 53 and finding things to do other than logging on and gambling! And many thanks for the post on my diary - day 16 today and no problems ~ yet!! I had a quick chat with the OH last night just to reassure her and let her know I had reached Day 15! She has been very supportive by not mentioning anything but i know she worries with me left on my own all day with the laptop!! She never hesitated to lend me the money to pay off the o/d and bills, MOT etc and some to live on this month - and hasn't mentioned it since we had "the chat". She was still worried, but said well done and that was it. I feel her support is better for me like this rather than constantly mentioning it which would stress me a bit and would be a trigger! So just wanted to say that and well done too - your posts are an inspiration to all and keep on the march forward abstaining by choice. Have a great week end and walk in the woods! Cliff

Good morning diary

Day 54 and 2 days off from being 2 months gamble free

That feels good this morning

To not wake up with the regret and stupidity of the day before I do not miss

I do not miss one thing about gambling and my thoughts today Gambling destroys the person in so many ways that it is hard to say NO

It took me a long time to eventually say NO

I am learning every day when I say NO and it is today beginning to feel good

Ok I am living on pennies at the moment but my state of mind is in such a better place than it was 2 months ago

Yesterday was a good day took Little man out to the park and woods and then got the paddling pool out when we got home

the weather was lovely and he thoroughly enjoyed himself and so did I OH and dog

The water pistols came out ofcourse and we all got soaked but we laughed and joked and had FUN

I had fun because my head was not full of regret and remorse and thoughts to do with gambling

I have mentioned my day yesterday because I can live and enjoy my life without having to spend a fortune And yesterday did not cost a penny for the fun day we had

To live on a tight budget for a few months far outweighs the ///// of gambling losing and borrowing cos let's face it I had no money then anyway it all went to feed my machine

It's going to be another lovely summers day of which I have no thoughts of gambling whatsoever and that is positive

Today's another day and so is tomorrow but I will maintain abstaining because it is my choice

I will not be playing today because I do not miss you one bit today

Wishing everyone a good positive gambling free day today

Suzanne xx