Life begins again

Hi Suzanne,

What a great post to read first thing in the morning. I don't get around to writing as much as I used to but, I am in touch everyday with reading. You are smokin girl! Keep on going. Don't look back. You deserve to be happy darlin. Just keep on going and I will be cheering you on and on. -joanxxx

Amazing post to read yet again Suzanne. So proud of you.

Will write a longer post to u in support when it can focus a bit more lol a good night out with the girls has left me suffering today. But I wouldn't change my new life for the world

Shelly

Thanks Shelly

Good morning diary

Day 62 nine weeks tomorrow I last played online slots

It seems longer that but am getting more positive daily now as gambling has drifted well into the back of my head now

I had a lovely day yesterday with family around

Work today but even if I wasn't at work I would not be having any thoughts to gamble

The only thoughts I get is the devastation it has done to me and OH but even the pain of that has faded for now thank goodness

The debts are a constant reminder but they are getting paid off every month slowly and I have not accumulated any more and that is sooo positive

All in all I feel good today even though I am going to work

I won't be playing today because gambling is not on my mind today

One day at a time I will continue to abstain and WIN

Have a happy and positive gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne... great positive post... and like you say, when we don't gamble, debts go down, bit by bit, quick or slow, but always in the right direction. The only win is not to play and your doing just that, just as I am. Onwards and upwards. regards... S.A 🙂

P.s Your thoughts on work really helped, so thanks for that.

Good morning diary

63 days that makes 9 weeks today since I last fed those slots

It's Monday and my day off but gambling today is no where on my agenda it's way back at the back of my mind and that is where it will stay today

One day at a time I am winning simply because I am not playing the machines

I won't be playing today because I simply do not want to

Have a good positive gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

Thank you for your support on here today I've woken up to my past. Faced it head on and kicked it to the kerb

My shoulders feel lighter my head is clear for the first time in years.

I feel alive and ready for what ever comes next.

With you duncs and castle that have been there every step of the way I've got here so thank you xx

Thanks Suzanne

Didn't mean to put a lump in your throat x just been bought up to thank those who need it.

I'll always be around watching and reading & posting. I'm under no illusion I've got a hill to climb with divorce and everything but none of it really phases me anymore. I can deal with it. Anything can be thrown at me now and I'm strong enough to take it deal with it and carry on.

I wish you this same strength and happiness I truly do. Life is so much better with out gambling in it x

Hi Shelly

Am pleased you are still going to be around So I know how you are doing

Life is so much better without gambling

And by writing and reading on here my determination and positivity gets stronger (one day at a time ofcourse) lol

There are so many people with this destructive addiction and I fear more will succumb to it because it is advertised so much everywhere as an enjoyable experience but we know better it is a self destructive experience to the gambler and their family

Carry on carrying on with your new strength and positivity there is a new world out there waiting for you and don't forget to duck when stuff is thrown at you lol

Suzannexx

PS I bet my laptop is full of cobwebs in OHs locker and

Guess what it can stay there Lolxx

Hi Suzanne. Thanks for posting on my diary and congratulations for getting to 9 weeks! I hope I can get that far.

You're right about other people succumbing to this addiction, I can see it everywhere. Every young guy I know bets on sports almost daily. And a lot are on track to becoming problem gamblers. It's frightening how common it has become. The advertisements should be banned in my opinion. Cigarette advertising is banned yet gambling is even more destructive and can destroy lives much quicker.

Rick.

Good Morning diary

Day 64 today and it feels good I feel more and more positive now as each day passes

Couple of thoughts yesterday while in the garden but I soon dismissed them I just thought what is the point of gambling to lose even more money Mind over matter and The matter won so I won again yesterday

One day at a time I will win each day

I will not be playing today what's the point

Hope everyone has a good positive and peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.

You are 100% right there is no point at all! Why change the way you feel when you don't gamble. It feels great when you don't gamble and you win that way.

You are a winner in the best way possible when you don't gamble.

Steve x

Good morning diary

Day 65

9 days to my next payday and 2nd goal of not gambling and not taking any more PD loans out

Gambling still right at the back no thoughts to gamble but did not sleep much last night as worrying about money we are surviving just watching every penny

So my thoughts for today gambling not an issue today but money is I am sure I will feel more positive tomorrow

It's not easy when we stop and have to pay most of our hard earned wages to the debt that we caused through gambling

This makes me even more determined to not add to my debt by losing more money on online slots

By abstaining one day at a time my debts will go down and not up and I do win each day I don't play

I will not be playing today I want to decrease my debt not add to it

Wishing everyone a happy and positive gambling free day today

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

Day 10 for me.

You are doing so well. As you say the money situation is difficult when you stop gambling and the severity of the losses and now the repayments hit you. Times like that would usually have me running to the online slots (well not actually 'running' at my age, more a fast stroll) as I could blot out all the negatives in my life whilst in the slots-trance.

Yes, the debts will go down,albeit slowly in my case, and when I look at the amount of my wages being paid out in loans I realise what a fool I have been. But no more..... I want to look forward to paydays now so that I know what little there is left is for me to use as I choose. And I choose not to gamble.

Hope you have a good day today

Elfie x

Morning diary

Thanks for you support Elfie x

Day 66 still going strong still determined and still very positive

Yes what I have left out of my wages is my own to use as I choose and that sounds good to me today

Long shift at work again but I will go to work knowing I am not going to waste my hard earned money today on gambling

There is no point whatsoever in gambling because we just cannot win because we cannot stop

But I have stopped for 66 days now and I have won for 66 days because I have chosen daily to simply not give in to the destructive addiction

I will not be playing today I want to win again today

Wishing everyone A good winning day today by having a positive and peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hello Suzanne,

Just wanted to thank you for posting on my diary and your lovely kind words.

It is fantastic that you have achieved as long as you have now without gambling and as you have said many times, every day for the past 66 days you have won.

I have relapsed a few times but have agreed a contract with my husband not to give any more of my hard earned money to these thieving, evil, low life, vile, pickled headed (I could go on) con merchants who steal our money and spend it all on big houses, flash cars, 5* holidays etc.....things that we could enjoy if we hadnt been so vulnerable. They will all be getting desperate soon and pretending to put money into our accounts to entice us to deposit our real money. (Thats how they got me last time). We have to stay strong and focused and believe it is another conniving ploy to get us back

Keep up your great positive attitude, we can all win if we take one day at a time and dont gamble.

Best wishes and stay strong

Hope x