Life begins again

Jeez just done it again after telling another diarist I do it a lot still, but I didn't mean straight away lol,

X

Good morning Suzanne.
487 days wow. Creeping up on the 500.
Have a great Friday.
Luv Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne

So true the words on my diary, when we get tempted don't say I will try just a tenner, don't you mean £200. Let's face it, if we were so good at gambling WE WOULDN'T BE HERE!

Paul

Good morning diary,

487 days of winning my life back and today is the 28th, so that makes it 16 whole months of being gamble free.

What a rollercoaster ride of self discovery on this recovery journey.

Abstaining and maintaining one day at a time with my triangle broken at all times, has surely helped my journey along with changing what I can, (trying hard to accept what I can't) and that is becoming easier, we can't change the past but when in recovery we do see a bigger brighter picture of our futures, simply because we are not slaves to that addiction.

LM being dropped off shortly, a viewing at 11am, and then we are off to the park with doggie, and the sun is out, so I know today will turn out very nice again, especially as I have made my choice today to say NO and abstain and maintain.and WIN.

Wishing everyone a positive, strong and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

WD on your recovery,

May I ask, how do you get that big reminder sign that you have not gambled a certain number of days?

Morning Suzanne.
488 days is a great number and I am very proud to walk along side you on your journey.
Have a great weekend.
Steve xxx

Getting closer to a big round number...............

Good morning diary,

488 days today.no urges to speak of at all this week, but have had a couple of weird dreams about gambling, and I knew in my dream that is was just a dream, in fact the dreams were quite weak, not like before, so I will take that as a big positive.

Still have issues with spare money after being paid and all bills are paid, something stupid inside my head wants me to burn my money ASAP, but I take all spare cash out of my account bar a tenner, and use cash, I still panic about getting through the month with enough money, in my mind, which is ridiculous, because we have a comfortable amount now to get through every month, I think that the years on juggling, scraping, selling, and stealing, has left a bigger scar than I anticipated, will I ever be comfortable about money and treat it normally, like most people, this is definitely work in progress lol.

LM is 4 on Tuesday, so OH and I are off to Argos to buy him a lovely birthday pressie or two, (and there is a sale on HD) and I just feel soo grateful to my recovery because I can actually afford to buy him a good pressie, with money that I have really won, through earning and not wasting on that hideous addiction, must try harder to accept that it is ok to have money to spend on positive things in my life, as I said this is work in n progress, and these thoughts are getting less, thank goodness.

Also have had a ridiculous offer on our house, 20,000 less than it is up for :00 of course we did not even entertain it, jeez, I have already lost too many 20,000s through gambling, am not going to lose anymore, I think buying and selling is a gamble (in another way of course, anything we try to change or do ie, moving, changing jobs etc, is a gamble ) but these are positive gambles and are part of the journey of our lives and certainly a positive in our recovery journeys.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Good morning diary,

489 and all is well in my world today 🙂

Off to OHs friends pub at lunchtime for a few drinkies, it's about 20 miles away near Halifax, overlooking a river, not been before so looking forward to this treat lol HDs indeed today. Doggie will enjoy herself too, being spoilt 🙂

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
489 days and all is well in your world. Fantastic.
Have a great Sunday.
Steve xxx

Good morning to 490 days.

Thanks for your kind words yesterday. Just what was needed to steady the ship. Hope you had a fab time as well

Have a great week and best wishes xx

Good morning Suzanne.
490 days is another fantastic number and just 10 shy of the next milestone.
Have a great bank holiday Monday.
Steve xxx

490 days Suzanne wow amazing keep doing what your doing and enjoying life little steps are all we need to take,have a lovely day x

The bear x

Hi Suzanne
Ty for post, enjoy this wet bank holiday.........
Take care Cheryl xxx

Thanks Balvaird, Steve, Bear and Cheryl xxx

Good afternoon diary,

490 days today and what a wet bank holiday Monday it has been so far lol.

OH has been on his comp for hours now chilling :), and in my gambling days, I would have spent hours on my lap top, doing the total opposite to chilling, I would have been self destroying everything in my life further, and my OH did not have a clue while he was chilling, but I am chilling now because I am on this forum, and not playing the biggest mugs game going, which was bloody gambling.

Reading triangles post on his diary just now, made me realise even more that this horrible addiction, even when practically dormant, can come up with a pathetic, just a go on the lottery won't hurt at all, (trying to kid us that the lottery is not part of our gambling addiction) well I know better, that one little go on the lottery could trigger a big landslide, and I am so proud of tri for thinking the same, it was trying it on in a very pathetic but cunning way.

Also (I don't think change will mind :)) but his post about entertaining the dogs, had me laughing out loud, (my dry sense of humour lol),

Thank you Gamcare for being here, and letting me chill here in the safety of this forum, on this very wet bank holiday in Yorkshire.

Wishing everyone a positive, determined and chilled gambling free bank holiday evening.

Suzanne xx