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Hi Suzanne,

Still love to read your diary! Hope you had a good day at the christening. Suzy

532 days Suzanne wow amazing an inspiration to us all, have a great week and thank you for your continued support on my diary x

The bear x

Thanks Balvaird and Suzy xx

Good morning diary,

Lovely to read positive posts on the diaries on this Monday morning :))

Well the christening was lovely, LM looked gorgeous in his little grey suit, trousers held up by braces lol, he sure looked the part, and the buffet afterwards in the club, was lovely too, and it was nice to meet all of LMs extended family, pity my son backed out at the last minute and did not attend, but as I told him on the phone, his choice, his decision.and I did not let it spoil the day, or make me feel negative for long :))) ( thanks recovery) it sure lets you see the bigger picture.

Wishing everyone a positive, calm and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

So glad to see your continuing recovery ! clocking those days up! Keep strong. Gav.

Hi,

Sounds like you had a fab day yesterday. You said it "thanks recovery"!!!!

Have a nice evening.

Best wishes x

Morning Suzanne
534 days wow.
Glad the christening went well.
Have a great Wednesday.
Luv Steve xxx

Thanks guys for your positive words xx

Good morning diary,

534 days today and feeling relieved (ridiculous I know) to have got through the birthdays and christening with actually having money to buys pressies, nothing major, but at least I can buy stuff now without thinking about gambling in any form, I was waiting for it to rear its ugly head at some stage over the last few days, but am pleased and proud of myself to say it did not.

Still stress about actually having money and still stress about spending money,,(at times) but I think what do I expect money was the only ingredient. I needed for my addiction to gambling, of course it will still play a big part in my head, it has left an enormous scar, regarding my relationship with money now, but it is ongoing work in progress, like my patience lol.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and stress free gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Suzanne, massive well done on changing your life around. I'm taking a bit of time today to thank some people on here for their support earlier in my recovery, I've come to see how valuable that support was/is. Anyway your on my 'to thank' list. Best wishes to you and yours. John

Good Friday morning diary,

536 days today.

LM is being dropped off in about an hour, so Peppa Pig will be on in full force lol.

Have a few days holiday now from work, and OH has all next week off, he sure deserves a break from work.

We are going to Chelmsford tomorrow afternoon to see son and other LM for a couple of days, soo am really looking forward to seeing them, and knowing that we actually do not have to worry about the pennies when going down makes me feel happy and relieved.

Too many years of making excuses to not go anywhere because I have blown all our money, are in my past now, and I will not go back there for anything, I have got out of the Pitt, and I am staying out, the real world is too important now, to let it slip away again.

Abstaining and maintaining every day, taking one day at a time, and putting my recovery at the forefront, whatever the weather has got me to this stage, so HDs indeed at this time. Very positive thinking.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and a happy gambling free Friday.

Suzanne xx

Wow. 536 days is a great achievement. That is a lot of days of winning. Keep it up.

Morning Suzanne.
Happy Friday indeed with 536 days under your belt.
Have a great day
Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne,

As always its good to read that your recovery goes from strength to strength and your enjoying life.

Have another great day.

Regards... S.A 🙂

Hi

Suzanne'

How dare you disagree with me lol x Its good to thrash opinions around isnt it? I personnaly think folk would get much more out of this site with a bit more debate. Some of the greatest minds in the world struggle to agree on addiction so its little wonder most of us struggle in managing our attempt to get well is it? Your point about newcomers was fair & im very aware that where im coming from seems a little left field. I walked through the doors of GA believing i had a financial problem due to my gambling & if someone had suggested otherwise i would have dismissed them as a lunatic who did nott know anything about my life. Turns out they were right all along but wasnt ready to listen at the time.

I suppose the point of my posts is to make folk question & examine their perspective of their addiction. Even if they dont agree it hopefully sows a seed they may come back & re-examine if what they are doing isnt working for them.

Dan x

Hi Suzanne
Well done on 538 days and enjoy your few days at your sons.
Proud of you
Cheryl xxx

Lol, Dan, and thanks Brum, GT, Steve, SA, Brum and Cheryl for your lovely support,xxxx.

Good morning diary,

542 days today.

Had a good few days away down south at my sons, even though they have a few health issues between my son and LM.

He has an appointment at the hospital today, ( he has a funny looking spot on his tongue, he is having a biopsy done on it today)

My LM (down south) has behaviour issues, not sure if it is because they do spoil him lol, or whether he has some form of OCD, but he is waiting to see a specialist, and I also saw something on FB that my granddaughter who lives in Portsmouth) had done, which initially quite shocked and upset me, 0((, so all in all a few days of different family problems in different areas, but that is what life is about living and coping with the ups and downs, without an escape route, (Ie gambling) I realise more than ever now that gambling just made every thing twice as bad and magnified it all.

Yes I would have loved a dabble yesterday, when we got home, for about 5 minutes I was seriously missing gambling, the outlet, to escape and me time, but it would have been me time to total disaster, we are on a budget for Xmas as it is lol, to have gambled yesterday, would have put a big fat zero on getting through the month never mind Xmas, because I know if I started I would not have been able to stop, and if I had won, it would all have gone back in and then the chasing, yes diary even at 18 months, there is

no way, I could have a friendly £10 dabble lol, yes I am worrying about a few things at this time that are out of my control with the outcome of them, but I can choose to say NO every time those niggles, urges, thoughts come, and choosing NO actually gives me a weird type of strength to deal with worrying stuff at this time, My recovery is giving me strength to cope with worrying issues.

Different issues and problems can crop up every day,I can't escape from them, but I can escape from the distorted hideous world of gambling, simply by continuing to totally abstain and keep maintaining. one day at a time,

I am a CG in recovery,,I am NOT an active CG at this time, so I will take that as a big fat positive to stay safe in recovery,

Sooo very proud of each and everyone of you on this forum,

Whether day 0 or day 20000 you are all here because you are all not giving up on giving up, and with that

I am wishing everyone a strong, positive and calm gambling free Thursday.

Suzanne xx