Life begins again

Hi Suzanne, thank you for your post on my diary the other day.

Happy birthday for yesterday.....

I'm not really in a position to offer advice as I'm only just starting out and haven't weathered all the emotions/stages (whatever you want to call them) but I do want to say that you DO deserve to have gifts/cards/ and the obligatory birthday grats....you are worthy! You have worked so hard to get to where you are now, I obviously don't know you in real life but from what I've read on here (and from what you've posted on my diary) you are an amazing person who will do their best to inspire and help others, just a small comment can make such a big difference to someone when they most need it...and you do that! You are a good person who does deserve good things to happen to them. So, just because I can, and because you deserve it.......A BIG FAT HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR YESTERDAY!!!!

Onlyme x

Morning Suzanne.
Happy birthday for yesterday and a huge well done in reaching 547 days. You are a Scorpio like me.
Have a day.
Steve xxx

Belated birthday wishes Suzanne.

Thanks for dropping in on my diary.

Hope you are keeping strong.

All the best

Ade xx

Thanks B, onlyme, Steve, GT and Adeee xxx

Good morning diary,

548 days today on my rollercoaster journey ride 🙂

I feel a nice steady and calm day in front of me today, and that will do me just fine, :))

Wishing everyone the same, a nice, steady and calm gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Thanks for the post on my diary Suzanne, I'm delighted to see you are still here and still going strong. Hope you had a fantastic birthday.

Phil x

Hi Suzanne , thank you for the comments on my diary , they were much appreciated ! All the best for now ! Alan xx

Thanks S, I continue to take strength and belief through your current achievements.

Hi Suzanne,

​Thanks for the message. My phone broke and I'm due an upgrade in December so struggling on with an older phone for the time being. Its a nightmare to write messages with so hence not much activity as I tend to be inclined to hurl the thing out of the window after writing a few lines. Hope to pst something later as off to a meeting I've not attended befote

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Case in point above! Almost impossible to change typo's. Aaargh!!

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Thanks guys xxx

Good morning diary,

Was surprised to see delboys post this morning, but having said that no I wasn't at the same time, because I know this addiction, can still try and creep back in, not so much now, but the thoughts can be quite intense when they do emerge, they can sort of creep up slowly, and put you in slow motion, and quite trance like, but they can also pounce on you with no warning 0((

I accept this being along side with me, lying patiently in the shadows, for a tiny glimpse of a chance to reck havoc with my life and well being again,

I try and keep one step ahead at all times, and I keep my triangle broken at all times, (never more than a tenner on my card) and I am not stupid enough now to think I can win with a tenner, I know I would need at least 70 to stand a chance of winning a tenner back :))), my addiction hates my rational way of thinking, I luv it.

Working tomorrow instead of today, as a favour to work, so normal routine is out of the window, but I can honestly say no thoughts whatsoever to gamble my day off away, Infact I am pleased to say the thought of gambling today does not interest me one little bit,

Son up here is at this moment flying to his and his partners dream holiday, the carrabbean, for two weeks, 9 hour flight, bless him, he's been panicking about flying for days now, they are face timing me tonight, feel a bit anxious about their long flight, but I know they will be fine.lol

Wishing everyone a strong, positive, calm and avery safe gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Good morning diary,

550 days

Son and his partner arrived late last night safe and sound:))) so won't worry now until they fly back lol.

Not used to working Friday's anymore, lol, but it will be a quick shift, and then a busy weekend, going to make a start on Xmas pressies, (which I have budgeted for) and it's such a relief feeling knowing I don't have to rob Peter to pay Paul, to buy these and even normal everyday things now,

Had a weird dream last night, where I was suddenly back in time say 2 years ago, where I woke up in my dream, and feeling sooo sick and desolate, because even though I and OH had just both been paid, 90% of our hard earned, had gone to those PD loans, and left us with not even enough for food, so the PD cycle started again for yet another month, :((( and did I use it for essentials, did I sugar, I was very much an active CG at that time, so it obviously went to feed my addiction, I experienced all this in my dream last night, as I have said weird, did not see myself gambling in this dream, just went through the motions of the aftermath.

We both got paid today, and what a different outcome today, No PD loans in sight, no gambling transactions on my statement, and no stress and devastation from gambling, and I do have money to buy extras.ie Xmas pressies lol.

Comlacency and Mr Gamble have no chance of breaking me lol, that dream has strengthened my resolve even more, even though I know I do still walk on a very thin line, especially this time of year,

I can actually afford to buy Xmas pressies in October, (the first time for years) how positive is that, very positive indeed.

Wishing everyone a happy, calm and safe gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Good morning diary,

551 days,

Having LM this morning, Shopping this afternoon, and out on date tonight with my OH, (the pub lol)

Couldn't ask for a nicer Saturday:))

Wishing everyone a happy and fun Hallowean gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

We have shared a wonderful journey one truthfully in its infancy.

This is a choice for life, one I hope you continue to take with all your sinew.

Thanks for your continued support

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

I wished wrote:

Good morning diary,

551 days,

Having LM this morning, Shopping this afternoon, and out on date tonight with my OH, (the pub lol)

Couldn't ask for a nicer Saturday:))

Wishing everyone a happy and fun Hallowean gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Did your Saturday night rock?

Thanks as always for your support Suzanne. It means a lot. I'm glad I chose option 2 as well 🙂

Good to see you continuing to do well. And so organised to be getting Christmas presents. I'm refusing to think about it yet, but I really should do as I always leave it late and then end up rushing about the shops like a headless chicken (or maybe that should be turkey!).

Keep strong.

LifeBegins x