Life begins again

Hi Suzanne,

I'm trying to get the motivation together for xmas but it's just not happening yet...but in my defence I do have 7 birthdays to sort out before then. Hope you enjoyed your morning with LM and your date night, dh came home friday after being away most of the week so I spent my evening enjoyng the fact I was able to drink a hot coffee for the first time since he left and he spent the time being climbed on by the little monster....it was the best evening ever lol.

onlyme x

Hi Suzanne

​I sense you have a lot on your plate at the moment & that maybe you are struggling emotionally around some things. I also may have that very wrong(it has been known) either way you know where I am if you want to vent. Dan x

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Morning Suzanne. 554 days wow right back at you.
Steve xxx

Good morning.

Hope you are ok.

Best wishes x

Good morning diary,

554 days today,

Yes Dan you are spot on and thank you again for caring and supporting me :)))

Have been feeling low the last couple of days, Infact I have been feeling somewhat depressed, I can feel really high one day and drop,my mood like a feather at the slightest thing the next day, or even the same day :((

Come to think of it, I have always been up and down with my moods, never have been on a stable normal level for long lol.

The positive thing I have to come to realise is I am dealing with all my emotions, without escaping to gambling,

I have come to realise I am not having mood swings because of my addiction, to gambling, They were there before gambling took hold.

My motivation to do anything is low today, but another positive here, I don't have the slightest motivation, want or need to self destruct myself again on gambling, I know I am not missing anything there, it just would make stuff amplify,

Two important positives on my diary today, and of course I have recovery on my side, which I will always stay very close to.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and stress free gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne , I think sometimes we need to allow ourselves a bit of time to be depressed ? and to worry about being that way can amplify things more !. Were all here to get better and those moods go hand in hand with our recovery .

The secret is to give yourself the time , then think about your positives , all that youv'e achieved, and when youre done pick yourself up and move forward again !!. Take care Suzanne , Youre doing great !! Alan x

Hello there, glad things all good with you, keep it up and thanks for your ongoing support.

If its easier & something you'd rather not publish on here you can e-mail me on [email protected] or get my number from Sandra x

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Good morning diary,

554 days today,

Yes Dan you are spot on and thank you again for caring and supporting me :)))

Have been feeling low the last couple of days, Infact I have been feeling somewhat depressed, I can feel really high one day and drop,my mood like a feather at the slightest thing the next day, or even the same day :((

Come to think of it, I have always been up and down with my moods, never have been on a stable normal level for long lol.

The positive thing I have to come to realise is I am dealing with all my emotions, without escaping to gambling,

I have come to realise I am not having mood swings because of my addiction, to gambling, They were there before gambling took hold.

My motivation to do anything is low today, but another positive here, I don't have the slightest motivation, want or need to self destruct myself again on gambling, I know I am not missing anything there, it just would make stuff amplify,

Two important positives on my diary today, and of course I have recovery on my side, which I will always stay very close to.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and stress free gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne

You are dealing with it. Keep it up and never forget, you have a lot of friends on here

Tri

Thanks for my welcome suzanne i felt like a wee dog with his tail between his legs but feeling better now. Had a quick read of your recent posts and i hope your feeling a bit more upbeat and so glad you dont link your ups and doiwns to gambling anymore. Going to give it a right good shot again i so want gambling free time as i need to clear this mist in my head. Thanks again

Hi,

Thank you very much for your kind words and support. Back home now having a beer and feeling better.

Your motivation is not low as you have helped a fellow soldier (me) smile.

I hope things start improving for you and well done for continuing to support and abstain.

Sending hugs x

Hello Suzanne,

Thank you for your post and support the other day. Sorry i missed ur bday! :-0 ....Happy birthday dear friend! Another year wiser huh 😉

Also sorry I'm not around when you need support the most. I have no excuse really...just don't wonna make things worse for you by my flat lines lol.
Please know im here if you need me. I believe you have an amazing network of support around you and know you will always reach for help instead of succumbing to mr G.

Hope family issues are getting resolved and you are finding the balance once again ☺

You're doing great girl, keep up the good work. We live once, make the most of what you have now because NOW is what matters the most.

Strength, respect and honour dear soldier! Be kind to yourself and keep believing in good things...they are on the way & you definitely deserve them.

Peace - love

Sandra x

iThanks folks for your lovely messages xx

Good morning diary

556 today of abstaining and maintaining not even one single penny spent on any form of gambling (not wrote that for a while) because I know that one single penny would lead to disaster (well it would be a tenner really lol)

Quite amazing really when I see the bigger picture of this addiction/illness, and how it never gives up on trying to sneak back in at any time,

Have a few family health related issues at this time, son and LM, both different health issues, but am worried obviously about both of them, I don't know the outcome yet with them, I can't do a positive outcome for them, it's out of my hands, but I am here for them

supporting them unconditionally, and I know I must use this as a positive, negative thoughts can be soul destroying.

I am dealing with this without the escape of gambling, so that has to be a big positive n itself lol.

Other son still on holiday in the Carrabean, (pleased they are not in Egypt at this time as that would be another worry)

It was his birthday yesterday and I read something on his FB page, a message to his partners son, about having a bet on the football, they both put a bet on, I did not know whether to frown and tut, or smile, it was only a fiver but come on he is on a holiday of a lifetime,with his lovely partner and he is placing a bet, ( he is very open about his weekly football bets) he knows all about my addiction, and yet he still bets :)) can't change the outcome there either, but my support will always be there for him too.

One outcome I can predict today and that is my choice for today NO GAMBLING, I mean why on earth would I want to, been there and back, I know the end result I know the outcome on that one too, and I have the scars to prove it to myself:))))

Very positive thinking indeed :)))

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and safe gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne . thank you once again for your kind comments on my diary . I do take all positives these days and in what ever form they come in . I'm sorry to hear of your health issues with your son and little man , It's always difficult when its not in your power to control things in life , especially when it is concerns over a loved ones health . Take care of yourself Honey , your in my thoughts!! . Keep strong and on target for 557 tommorow . Alan x Who will not gamble today ..........

Hi,

Sending best wishes and hugs

Xx