Life begins again

Good morning diary

91 days today and 13 weeks since I last spent even one penny on any form of gambling

Feeling good and strong today day off on my own all day but I know I won't gamble today Which is very positive Tough last few days at work but I had no wish to gamble to unwind or destress like I used to so I feel I am moving forwards but I have to keep my guard up as I know thoughts can come from no where

I will not be playing today because I am going to win today

Wishing everyone a strong and positive gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Well done Suzanne your doing fantastic,you will be at 100 days bet free before you know it. Amazing feat keep it going pal.x

Thanks Scotty x

Good morning diary

92 days today gamble free It's a way of life now to count each day as I take one day at a time

I will not underestimate this addiction that can bite us at any time so I am keeping strong and positive to abstain and maintain each day

Middle shift today at work so not too bad

I will not be playing today because I am having a sane normal day

Wishing everyone a strong positive and peaceful day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suze

Wow look at you 92 days....soon to be the magic 100.

Thank you so much for your support...means a great deal.

Love Sue xxx

well done suzanne

keep the days rolling

positive thoughts

Tri

Nice words Suzanne I like the way you are dealing with this addiction x

Hi Suzanne,

You are almost there, the century club is looking foreword to welcome you 🙂

Thank you for your post in my diary.

You doing a great job and you have the right attitude and you are here in the right company to make your wish come true even I would say you already have.

Keep up your good work each day at the time.

Respect and Love

Wolfgang

Morning Suzanne!

92 days is fantastic, nearly there, 100 days here you come!

Steve x

Hi Suzanne

Stay strong just keep doing what you are doing and they are better life ahead

Graeme x

Thanks all for lovely supportive posts

Good morning diary

It's been 93 days since my last bet that put me in total s**t every way

I will not go back there why would I want to undo everything I have achieved in this time

NO WAY

Leading an honest even though very simple life at the moment with no stress or deceit and panic is so sane

It simply is not on the cards to go back to that dark selfish world

That is soo positive for me to know I can stay strong today and know I won't gamble to day

my OH and i know our lives will get better day by day as long as I abstain and maintain every day

I have had many ups and downs in my life not related to gambling but I have always come back (people used to say you always come back smelling of roses) which I did

I won't come back from this one because I will never get rid if it but With abstaining and maintaining every day I can and will be in control of it that is my choice

so I can lead a full life for myself and family

I will not be playing today because I am in control today

Wishing everyone a happy peaceful and positive gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Well done suzanne nice to read and see you so positive.i am really positive while keeping busy but when sitting about tired from work thats when I start to think of gambling but just remember meyself how bad I felt after losing not so long ago.

Scottyboy x

Thanks Scotty keeping positive is definitely a key word

You are doing great

Evening diary

Coming on here after work and reading that two lovely people are in a bad place tonight makes me feel so sad for them and yet angry at the same time because of what this s**t gambling can do

I wished I hAd an answer for them but I haven't no one has an answer fwor this self destructive addiction

There are no pills or medication to help us only we can do it by abstaining and maintaining one day at a time and being 100% committed to keep doing this

As I hAve said never never underestimate this addiction it will bite you when it's the last thing on your mind

There is no way anyone will win because once addicted winning does not even come into the equation it just leads to total destruction and then the fallout which we have to face and that can feel worse than the addiction itself (if that makes sense)

I really wished tonight that I could take away the feelings of those two people tonight

But I have read positive posts tonight one from Womble and she is feeling so positive And good with herself and that has to be positive for all of us doesn't it

Take care everyone on here one day at a time

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

Wonderful post

Thanks for sharing

Duncs stepping forward never back

Good morning diary

94days today

6 days off 100

3 days til a weeks holiday from work

8 days til next pay day

Am already feeling a little stressed because me and OH are on holiday again next week and we won't have any spare money

We are going down to my sons on Sunday he lives in Essex and my two lovely granddaughters who live nr Portsmouth will travel to my sons also on Sunday

Plan is to stay there overnight and then bring the girls back up to yorkshire for the week

So I am already panicking a bit because we are on a very tight budget and petrol is so expensive and I have to drive them home next weekend

It's 500 miles round trip to Portsmouth and back will see if there mum will pick them up at Northampton she normally does will save some mileage

Apart from other son and grandson who live up here my family all live down south scattered no one lives near each other I have a brother and his family living in Kent other brother living in Bristol granddaughters living Portsmouth and other son and grandson living in Essex and other brother living in USA

So I have to prioritise who I see which is my son and grand kids before brothers not ideal

Since abstaining in April we have paid out 2700 to my gambling debts it has to be paid but we could have done so much with that money next week if I had not gambled so it does affect all areas of my family because I can't see them all at this time and I won't be able to treat the girls like we normally do ( we normally take them away )

Just goes to show what this awful destructive addiction does to our lives even after we have stopped

Don't want too sound negative diary but that is the way it is at this time and it is all my fault

Thinking positive can't wait to see my family and have the girls for a week we will work something out

Which will not involve gambling whatsoever

The situation I am now facing makes me more and more determined and more and more stronger to keep abstaining and maintaining away from gambling which is soo positive

It really is a waste of time and can ruin our lives

3 more pay days after this one and we will be around 500 a month better off and that will feel bloody good we will be able to get back to a normal life again without worrying about every penny and that is definitely something to keep abstaining for a normal and sane family life and that sounds fantastic to me

I will not be playing today because I want to win today

Wishing everyone a strong positive and peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne... That's the horrible thing about this addiction isn't it...it has such long term consequences. A few hours gambling and paying the price for months ahead.

Like you I have family all over the country, including Portsmouth and as with you I am stressing about not having enough money to pay for all the travel and other expenses that come with visiting. What feels harder for me is that nobody in my family has addiction or money issues so its not an issue for them. But of course over the years I have made my bed and I continue to lie in it, warts and all.

By the way I really appreciate your prompt replies the other day in my hours of need. Normally I don't wait and/or expect replies but when in something of a crisis...its always comforting to get prompt replies... so thanks to you.

I hope your family visits and ferrying children about goes to plan and proves not too expensive and your able to enjoy seeing your family.

O and a big well done on your gambling free time. Regards... S.A 🙂