Life begins again

Good afternoon diary

Yesterday day 98 done and dusted

99 days today and not even one penny spent on any form of gambling

Back home from Essex with the two girls staying up here til Saturday and then we will drive them to Northampton and their mum will pick them up from there it's a hell of a long way to Portsmouth and back from leeds in one day OH and me have done it many a time but they are getting picked up at Northampton so it's not such a long round trip and ofcourse less petrol

Say no more

I know my girls come to see me and OH I know they don't come up here for expensive treats but It does not help that I just can't treat them like I normally would and it makes me feel negative but I will push the positives through we will still have a great time we already have at sons we went to South end yesterday and had a great family day and ended up having a BBQ second evening running and ofcourse the hosepipe came out so it was pure family fun and the weather has been great and still is

so good memories to bring back

Either tomorrow or Thursday day out to Skegness so that will be a good day too

It's just this counting every single penny all the time but I have to push through this as it won't be forever as long as I abstain and maintain one day at a time

My sons 2 year old came out with two words last night he said BULL s**t a few times and he thought it was extremely funny I just thought you are dead right that's exactly what gambling is BULL s**t and I laughed with him

Gambling leaves so much mess in it's after wake that we have to deal with but it has to be done and this makes me even more determined and stronger and positive to carry on abstaining and maintaining

Pushing forwards and upwards one day at a time

I will not be playing today because gambling is full of BULL s**t

Wishing everyone a strong positive and peaceful gambling free evening

Suzanne xx

hi Suzanne

What an achievement 99 days, 1 more day to the century. WELL DONE AND BE PROUD

Keep up the good work Suzanne you are an inspiration to many of us getting to the century will be massive!

Mark

Good morning diary

100 days today without even spending one penny on any form of gambling and that is some achievement for me because before I came to this forum I was online playing slots every. Minute of every day that I could

This site and all the support from fellow CGs has definitely been an essential barrier for me because Every time I had thoughts urges or itches I would come here first it had helped me to take the void away which was and is gambling

The void has faded but still there the urges and thoughts of just a tenner have because less frequent but just as strong when they appear but I am controlling them

The aftermath that gambling gave us is quite horrendous but it's that mess I am left with that makes me stronger and even more positive to abstain and maintain one day at a time

Gambling only does one thing for us it destroys our way of life spits us out and then wants more

It really is a total waste of our time money and lives

I feel proud today because I am turning my life around

Hey I have won every day for 100 days and that feels soo positive for me

I will not be playing today because I am having a sane normal healthy real life day today simply because I choose to

Wishing everyone on here a positive sane and happy gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Well done on 100 days Suzanne. Your positivity shines through in your posts and you are doing so well.

Keep up the good work

Best wishes

Tee jay x

100 days is awesome & you are such an inspiration to us all! Well done and keep up the great work!

Enjoy your milestone there is plenty more to come!

Steve xxx

Morning Suzanne

It is a pleasure to walk along by your side my dear friend,today you reached another milestone,to reach 100 days without having a single punt is something to be proud of,even more so it is the work you have done on your mind in those days that is important.

I do believe you reap what you sow and the effort you have given your recovery is there for all to see,that old saying nothing changes if nothing changes is really true for me when it comes to the compulsion to gamble,if you just stop gambling but don't address the reasons why you gambled and how you gambled, addiction sits patiently to welcome you back into it's arms.

This is not something with an end game,it is a life choice,you are doing a great job with yours and to boot the support you offer others to.

Here's to 101!!!!

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Suzanne

A special well done for achieving 100 days, hopefully it is getting easier now - has long has we keep our guard up.

Here's a thought, let's go for 150 days next, then 200 and by Xmas we both will be close to the 250 day mark.

Shaun

Well done on a 100 days Suzanne

Graeme x

Thank you as always Suzanne. Congratulations on the ton! That's a great achievement x

Thanks all for the messages very much appreciated

Day 101 hey that feels good to type 3 numbers

Up early as off to Scarborough for the day with my girls doggy and OH and I think the weather is going to be good

It was so nice to read two positive posts as soon as I signed in Stephen and dark place they have been struggling hard but they are on the right road today and it makes me feel good to read their newfound positivity well done guys long may it continue for you both

Never give up on giving up that saying is right beside me on my recovery because each day I choose not to play and I will never give up giving up

Each day I abstain I can feel myself getting stronger and more positive and of ofcourse each day I am winning going forwards to a happier healthier and sane

life

Staying on guard and not looking back is the way to go

I will not be playing today because I am simply not interested today

Wishing all a positive happy and sane gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hello Suzanne

Thank you so much for your words of support on my diary, really appreciate them. I am at the start again but now on the right road.

Many congratulations on 101 days, fantastic achievement ! keep it up and don't give in !

Dark Place x

Hi Suzanne,

Well done on your great achievement. 3 numbers will turn into 4 in no time, as always day at a time. Keep up ur good work and have a lovely day out in Scarborough. You're truly worth all the best in ur life. Enjoy your day 🙂

Sandra x

Thanks DP and Sandra

It's been 102 days now without spending even one penny on any form of gambling and it's pay day today

So my debts will go down today as instalments get paid

I don't feel so stressed this month about paying them well today I don't last few pay days I panicked because I did not know how much I would be left with but we are surviving on a pittance and I will be a 100 better off this month as 2 PD loans were paid off last month

Had a lovely day at Scarborough yesterday the weather could not have been any better it was hot and sunny

Place was packed as expected but we know where to park and where to go I even went in the sea with doggie very brave as the girls wouldn't go in

Sitting on the beach I watched a guy on his phone sitting next to his two kids and partner he was miles away with a blank look on his face looking at the screen oblivious to his family and surroundings I immediately thought my god he may be gambling and I felt so sorry for him and his family who probably were unaware of what he was doing but I knew and immediately I felt guilty and ashamed

He may not have been gambling but it goes to show even when you are busy and enjoying yourself the thoughts of gambling are there all the time

Last day with the girls today so any thoughts will be pushed straight out the window if they come

I will not be playing today because I want to win today

Have a good positive and sane gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Well done on breaking the 100 day barrier. There is no stopping u now!

Steve x