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Hi Suzanne ~ just wanted to say well done on reaching the three figure personal milestone and in keeping up the finance repayments. A lot of struggle now will gain dividends in next to no time! I know how much of a struggle it is but is no different than when we gamble it all away and then borrow to replace the house keeping / bills etc....just remember how much better off you are mentally, physically and with life in general!! Ooops, sorry, didn't mean to go on, just wanted to say well done, so WELL DONE and keep smiling!

KR's Cliff.x

We done Suzanne in reaching the 100 mark you are doing brilliant.i was sitting eating lunch today and it happened to be outside a betting shop was just watching people going in and thinking hope they are not like me and can control gambling.i know deep inside me I cant not so thats why I have chose to stay gamble free.:-) keep smiles on your face and the debts will sort themselves. X

Scottyboy

Hi Suzanne

Well done on 100 days gamble free. Must be a good feeling and you must have such a better life. Hope I can join you there in 91 days!!!!

Keep up the good work and ty for your support

Keep strong and best wishes

Cheryl xx

Good morning diary

103 days with out the destruction that gambling brings

Willpower strong today

Girls left at 6.30 this morning with OH on their way home now and the house is very empty OH driving them to Northampton Luton meeting their mum there and then he will driving straight back home

A round trip of 360 miles should be back around 12

So feeling sad and slightly empty as I usually do when they go home and this definitely now would be a prime time to play online slots and lose money and feel devastated and guilty and shame while my OH is driving down the M1 and back

How shameful was that but NOT today I am pumping up my strength and willpower as I write on this diary

I will not give in to any temptation that might jump out at me

I will not be playing today because I am stronger and wiser today

Wishing everyone a happy positive and strong gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

Well done in passing the 100 milestone.

You go girl !!!!

Your posts just ooze with strength and feeling. Be proud of yourself.

Elfie x

Hi Suzanne,

Thank you for your post

Great to see you feeling and staying so positive, keep going strong your doing really great.

Lucy

Thanks Elfie and Boston

Good. Morning diary

104 days I have won now by not spending even one penny on any form of gambling and it's makes me feel stronger

Yesterday was a bit tough as home alone for most of the day but I kept coming on here and it worked yesterday got done and dusted

I have too much to lose now in many ways so why would I even think about gambling my hard earned money away to a ridiculous slot machine that just eats all my money up

One day at a time I will continue to abstain and maintain and win and that is sooo positive for me

I will not be playing today because I am having yet another day in the real world of sanity

Wishing everyone a safe peaceful and positive day today

Suzanne xx

Well done on 104 days Suzanne - that's a lot if days not gambling. Keep going and keep strong.

Shaun

Hey Suzanne,

Really well don't to you and 104 days clocked up ! impressive, I have been there myself before but went through a series of relapses after letting my guard down ! be ready for those demons, they appear when you least expect them. Thanks for always posting on my site, really great help for me.

Dark Place x

thanks suzanne

keep it up

Tri

Hi Suzanne,

Well done on 104 days, have read some of your diary and I too have a wealthy ish brother who would be disgusted with my gambling.

Your diary is such an amazing story and shows your true strength of character. We are all much more in our lives than compulsive gambler s and I too need to look at all the other amazing attributes I have. I know its because this addiction has such a profound impact on a lot of the other aspects of our life.

Never forget you are a mother, grandmother and wife and even with the addiction you are a worthy person. But without it for 104 days you are awesome.

Take care and keep staying strong

Cheryl xx

Thanks for the support Suzanne, it helps a lot.

Well done on 104 days! brilliant stuff x x

Thanks Freda

Good morning diary

105 days which makes 15 weeks today

OH back at work day off for me back tomorrow but having little man today

Another weeks holiday over with am relieved we got through it with little money quite sad that I have to think that

On holiday again in 3 weeks but OH isn't so won't have to worry about money for that one

Next hurdle is my nieces wedding we won't be going because we have no spare money and that will not go down well with my brother

This addiction really does mess your life up I had no thoughts of the outcome when I was in the grips of my addiction but abstaining certainly brings it all into perspective

I will not be playing today because I want to have money again to live a normal and healthy life

Wishing everyone a normal and healthy gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Thanks as always Suzanne you're so right about gambling leaving behind problems that can take years to fix. But if we continue to abstain I believe things will naturally fall into place.

Well done x