Life begins again

Hi Suzanne

Your continuing success is amazing. Life is getting better, eh?

Elfie x

129 suzanne.... brilliant, keep it up girl, x

Amazing, my inspiration!

129 days you doing are amazing.

The sun is out and life is good. Keep thinking positive.

The weekend is nearly here!

Steve xxx

Good morning diary

129 days and not even one single penny spent on any form of gambling

Day 4 of my week off home alone and I have not had any urges to gamble little thoughts but they soon got pushed out of the window

House clean, garden up together and windows sparkling

Dog has had more walks this week than she has had in the last month

Have been swimming twice and really enjoyed it (must go more often)

Pay day tomorrow but does not worry me this month because I know we will have enough to live on (very tight though it may be) but I will not have to worry each and every day as to where the next penny is coming from and another pay day loan will be paid off

That feels so good and sooo positive for me

I can't pay these loans off quick enough but they are slowly but surely disappearing and my days gamble free are slowly but surely increasing

Getting my hair cut this morning, that feels great that I have even a fiver to spare day before payday

Wishing everyone a happy positive and strong gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Great work getting those loans dealt with, it can feel a long slog at times to get the debts out of the way, but the feeling of satisfaction when you do will be immense.

Enjoy your haircut, and hope you're enjoying your week off. Keep knocking those gambling thoughts out of your mind.

Ryan

Morning Suzanne

Well done on 129 days and the chores all sorted. Enjoy your haircut and stay strong

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

130 days is wow! Fantastic!

Steve

Xxx

Good morning diary

130 days of NOT waking up in a very unreal fantasy utter madness world of gambling and all the horrible dark desperate panic etc feelings that went with it

Those feelings and the pain have faded but I won't be fooled into thinking it's ok now (if that makes sense)

I believe this is my 5th payday since being on here and in that time I have not gambled even one single penny and I have not taken any loans out or borrowed any money

One more PD loan done and dusted today which will leave me a little more extra cash next month

OH has been absolutely brilliant these last few months as he quietly supports me with this addiction

I think if he had borrowed money last April to get me out of my mess I think now that I might have continued to gamble and I really don't know where we would be now

He gave me my new beginning by not paying my PD loans off

Having no money at the beginning certainly helped me to abstain and maintain but as time is going by I have realised no matter how much I deposit and play I will never win because I will never stop

So there is just no point in playing

I want to move forward another step now so I am not going to take all my money out of my account this month I feel strong enough to be able now to leave money in my account

I am certainly going to give it a go because I need to try and get a bit more normality into my life now

One day at a time I am abstaining and maintaining and getting my life back

Wishing everyone on here a very positive strong and gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Well done 5 paydays and 130 days a major achievement

Keep up the good work

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Hey trouble lol

Or should that be my name hahah

Good to see you keeping the baddies at bay. As well as the green hair lol I would have cried laughing but that is my rather evil sense of humour

Life keeping safe still deals the odd kick in the teeth but one which I've kind of become used to.

One day life will be all Rosie in my garden but until then I'll keep the smile behind the tears but most of all keep safe x

great to see 130 days free of it,this forum has gave me so much confidence that this thing can be beat i'm only day 2 but thank you your posts help others like me.:)

Morning Suzanne

Deflated would be a bit of an understatement but these things are sent to try us!

Woke up this morning feeling 'what's the point'

I know I've a family that need me so I'm hanging on to that.

Dying hair sounds like a great idea. New colour new me perhaps. From blonde to black sounding good right now. But I won't be hasty

Got a busy weekend ahead so that will help, then intend to throw myself into my work head first. Not a place I love or even like but it absorbs the days x

Good morning diary

131 days today of abstaining and maintaining

and that is sooo positive for me to keep going and going one day at a time

Has been good for me to read posts this morning that are full of determination

I have been on hol all week from work, OH at work so I have been home alone and no spare cash to go anywhere but I have done so much with the inside of myself and the outside (not green hair KS lol)

I know that abstaining from gambling will be a life time commitment for me but I can live with that.

I will win again today simply because I won't be sucked in today.

determination today, not negativeness is my key today

Wishing everyone a strong determined and happy gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Ah Suzanne. Well done you are truly a bit of an inspiration!!! It's so lovely to read your words on other people's post i thought I'd come and post on yours. Hope you have a lovely day. Stay safe stay strong. We are so bloody doing this!!!! Xx