Life begins again

Got some time alone this morning so taking your advice and going for a walk in the pouring rain

Well done Suzanne you are doing so well and continue to inspire a lot of people x

Hey Suzanne.... DONT YOU EVER LEAVE THIS SITE!! You are sooo needed! When you're 10years gamble free you still need to be here for everyone else! Well done. I want to be where you are .... am determined!! Helen. X

Thanks for the post on my diary Suzanne. Immediate circumstances are a complete mess. I have legal help which is taking some of the pressure off as for the rest well I have wine and hair dye does that count?

My quick walk out in the rain leaves me looking like a drowned rat and can't say my head feels clearer for it

I think I just need to pack up and start my life somewhere new.

New job new home new everything and leave this life behind - it's not doing me any favours.

I have the option of renting my house out which is something I'm looking into this week just so I can make the break quicker.

A change is as good as a holiday they say. I'm wishing I never came back from mine!

Hi KS

Sending you a big hug

I moved from down south to up north nearly 15 years ago

There is nothing wrong with a new start, it certainly changed my life for the better until I had my first date with gambling online 8 years ago lol say no more but it had nothing to do with my OH he has been a brick these last few months I can never break his heart again

If you would like my email address I would be happy to give it you I don't know how you do this though but anyway I am here if you want to shout scream or make me laugh lol

Suzanne xx

I'm going to do it in reverse Suzanne. I'm north and going to move south. I'll stay there til I'm sorted and decide from there what to do.

I do know staying here isn't an option.

Achieved a fair bit this morning. Stuff chucked out and some sorted ready for packing.

The hardest part of all this is going to be saying the goodbyes

I thought I'd be settled here forever

As I've learnt - no matter what the promise - forever is only short lived

Suzanne

I said on my diary I would take time to read this today, wow!

131 days is a phenomenal achievement and one I really do hope you are proud of?

I have read how you were in debt with numerous loans etc, it's kind of where I am today but perversely I am looking forward to paying the ones, I have 4, off as quick as I can now using the money I should have free if I manage to keep going!

A few people through this diary have mentioned you are an inspiration, hope you embrace that and actually realise although you are creating firstly a better life for you and your family, you also seem to be helping many on this site, that's a huge achievement and something you should be really proud of

Well done on 131 days

S

Hey Thanks again Scott x

Positive thoughts for today

Just come of Facebook,after chatting to my lovely granddaughters down South and came across this post that I found inspiring for both sides of the fence to read

The past should be left in the past OR it can steal your future

LIVE LIFE for what tomorrow can bring AND not for what yesterday has taken away

Every day is a GIFT

I have gifted myself this afternoon by baking a fruit cake for my OH simply because he deserves it

Haven't baked cakes for years because I was too busy being in oblivion

I have done 2 amazing things today I have baked a cake and I have not spent even one penny on any form of gambling

How positive is that soooo positive

Suzanne xx

Bring it on

Suzanne

A huge well done from me.

To have the realization that for so many years we got it wrong,oh so wrong by feeding all our energy and effort to our addiction and come through the other side and find recovery and through it actually live life,embrace it warts and all is the 'gift' I talk about.

Why??

Because my dear friend in truth it is what is in offer,nothing more nothing less.

Yes deal with the fallout left by all those years of destructive behavior but don't let it impede the life you deserve for the effort you gift it.

Today I salute you!!!!

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Suzanne, wonderful post. Gambling denies us our simple gifts, gifts that in reality cost nothing more than our simple time. Really well done for finding the true Suzanne again, i think you and your family undoubtedly prefer this one. Dark Place x

Well done Suzanne! Thanks for your continued support, Im trying to follow in your footsteps , one day at a time though for me baking a cake maybe a step too far lol! still heres to another gamble free day and another win! xx

Good morning diary

132 days and not even one single penny spent on any form of gambling

It's a lovely sunny morning and I feel soo good

Why because I have NOT woken up to the aftermath of gambling

Why on earth would I want to gamble today well I don't

Staying strong determined and positive

Wishing everyone a happy positive and peaceful.gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Just to say I think you have really blossomed since the start of your recovery. It is really amazing and you must feel so much more content.

You helped me so much in those raw early days and you have helped so many more since then.

I read the posts daily but don't update my own.

Enjoy the weekend.

Suzy

Morning Suzanne

Again thanks for your help, hope the other half enjoyed his cake

Not sure mine or my kids would appreciate my attempt at that!

S

Hi Suzanne

Well done on 132 days a wonderful achievement, enjoy your day and stay strong, which I know you will as can see the utter determination in your posts.

Ty for your support

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx