Life begins again

Good morning diary,

194 days of still winning and starving that addiction.

It's good to see pictures popping up on the diaries, I have tried for a few days now to upload a picture but my IPAD or phone won't have any of it, but I will keep trying, as I don't give up easily, lol

No thoughts of wanting to play those nasty slots, just positive thoughts of shopping today with OH, he desperately needs new jeans, and I might buy me some new jeans too, simply because I can lol.

OH on hol now for a week, and we are going down to sons in Essex tomorrow , for a couple of days, don't see this son much, so I look forward to seeing him and my other Little man, who is nearly 3, so I will be treating him to something, my other little man lives up here and near by, and has had some treats lately, and I can do this simply because I am not wasting my money on gambling.

As always abstaining and maintaining one day at a time and WINNING

Wishing everyone a happy strong and positive gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hey Suzanne 🙂 well hurry up with that pic cause Facebook here is lacking of smiling faces lol lol. Good to see you marching on, very well done! So a little shopping trip lined up eh? Good on you. I got jeans the other weekend and looks like dropped a size lol...no wonder i feel cold all the time not havin much meat on me lol.on that note - time for a feast me things !! :-)) take care and have a lovely time round your son's. S x

Thanks Sandra, I've dropped a jean size too, over the last 6 months, just shows what this addiction dioes to you emotionally and physically, never mind financially, stay strong xx

Good morning diary,

195 days today 5 days off the big 200 and feeling stronger and stronger.

It felt slightly strange actually buying jnew jeans for OH and myself yesterday, I am not used to. buying anything anymore, I even threw in a couple of tea shirts and socks for him lol. Guilt and shame crept over me for a fleeting minute, and then it was gone, ( if that makes sense) I have become really tight with money, we have been living on a very tight budget for months now.

Off to sons this morning, Am looking forward to seeing them all, will be hectic, as we take our little yorkie, and they have a cocker spaniel, quite amusing when they are together because our dog rules the roost lol.

Gambling could not be any further from my mind today, and that is a great feeling to have.

Slowly but surely I am continuing to abstain and maintain, taking one day at a time, and I keep winning one day at a time. Very positive thinking.

Wishing everyone on here a positive, strong and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
195 sure is an amazing achievement.
Have Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Hey S, short and simple - huge well done on your ongoing journey! ! I get what you mean about this "strange" feeling of being able to spend your hard earned on yourself and your loved ones...it will only get easier and natural as long as you keep abstaining and maintaining. Have a great time away 🙂 Sandra x

Morning Suzanne.
Well done on 196 days 4 more until that big milestone.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Suzanne

I am so proud of the way you approach your recovery,you learn as many valuable lessons at every turn and with it embrace life.

I hope life continues to gift back.

regarding becoming prudent with your hard earned,this is to something to be celebrated.

A wise fella once told me whilst I was still an active gambler 'In life strive to buy the best you can afford'

Me I took this as an open ticket to freely gamble on relentlessly,because my addiction kidded me into believing if I gambled I would afford whatever I desired!! We all know what a crock of S#h#ite that is!!!

Today I learned from that priceless lesson,with it comes a huge sense of pleasure,whether it be new well needed clothes or a five mile cycle to save a pound on some tea bags I understand the value of my hard earned.

I believe the lesson that wise fella was trying to gift,don't waste what you have.

Like you my dear friend I refuse to waste a penny

Thats begins and ends with a choice

Abstain and maintan

Duncs stepping forward never back

Good morning diary,

196 whole days of not spending even one single penny on any form of gambling and feelng strong and determined as ever today.

At sons in Essex and the weather is lovely for November, sitting in the garden with family and dogs

It's quite hectic but that is what normal life is sometimes, and I feel totally normal today, and making that right and only choice for me which is to keep abstaining and maintaining one day at a time.

Reading through the diaries quickly this morning, I was quite upset to read about SA I hope he feels stronger and determined this morning, to keep carrying on because that is the only sane choice for us in the end,

Wishing everyone on here a strong determined and sane gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne wow 196 days brilliant keep enjoying life without gambling we don't need it no more have a lovely day x

the bear x

Hiya Suzanne

Thanks for the continued support , life continues to treat you well and all by making the right choices , enjoy your time down south with your family

Castle2

Morning Suzanne.
197 days and creeping up on the 200..
Very well done on changing your life for the better.
Have a great day
Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne,

Congratulations as you approach the big 200, you continue to work hard day after day to fight this addiciton and offer such good advice to others. Those feelings of guilt about what we did in the past do get weaker but they never really leave us how could they? But what is in the past certainly can't be changed, only the future and you are doing suh an amazing job to fight back in a positive manner. Each step we take along the road together on this forum is a happy step, a step where we all get a little stroger each day that passes gamble free.

Keep fighting and stay safe and strong.

Paulds

Suzanne very well done to you I am so proud of you that have have stayed strong and fought through all of your ups nd downs and ar almost at that 200 day mark congrats you desrve all the joy in the world. Im back for day 1(2mra) and im so looking forward to feeling the way I can only imagion you feel now again. Jess x

Good Early evening diary

197 days of starving that hideous addiction and keeping it where it deserves to be way way from my money becUse that is all it wants money whether earned borrowed or stolen, and even when it wipes you out it comes back with avengance for more.

Pleased to say it disgusts me more every day, even though I am reminded of it one way or another every day.

The more I see it in every form the more disgusted I am but it still does not always stop those stupid thoughts, but my answer to them at this time, is whet are you on about a tenner, I am all or nothing I would have to give all, and where would that leave me, homeless, relationshipless, family less, and my sons and there family need me so much to be around for them, so I dismiss any Thoughts because I only have one choice and that is to keep abstaining and maintaining taking one day at a time, with guard tightly up and holding on to that rollercoaster as tightly as I can.

I won't be playing today because my family need me more than you do.

Wishing everyone a strong determined and focused gambling free day

Suzannexx

Hi Suzanne

Thanks for popping by and your post.

"I won't be playing today because my family need me more than you do." I like that, I like that a lot!! I'll keep that little thought running around in my head if ever I need it.

Hopefully you have a little celebration planned for Friday? Even if it's just a decent bottle of wine. It will be well deserved after 200 days.

Have a good evening.

M