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Morning Suzanne.
198 days is something to be proud of. Looking forward to 200 on Friday.
Steve xxx

Good morning diary,

198 days of winning and 2 days off 200.

Feeling a bit negative this morning as I love seeing my family down south, but am always sad and feeling down when I leave them.

Living 200 miles away means I don't see them as much as I want to.

Signing on again today, and OH is decorating hall and landing, and he has a very short fuse when it comes to painting.

So I will be dodging OH while he paints, and strengthing my resolve to abstain and maintain today, to keep my sanity.

Wishing everyone a happy positive and calm gambling free day.

Suzannexx

Hi Suzanne,

Great work getting so close to the big 2-0-0, its all positive progress and going in the right direction. I think I share your OH's attitude to painting. I could never avoid getting paint on the skirting boards, floor, and just about everywhere else, and it was streaky and rather horrible whenever I tried to paint, so I gave up trying.

Hope your sanity remains intact!

Ryan

Hi suzanne sorry to hear you a bit down its hard when it comes to family isnt it. I do hope your feeling more positive tomorrow and that your oh manages to finish the painting without any major dramas lol. 199 for you today. You are doing fab.

Jess x

Morning Suzanne.
Thank for the post.
199 and nearly there. The big 200.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Good morning diary,

199 days of winning, only one day til that BIG 200.

OH has woke me up early today, he's on holiday but has been up since 6 am, he's keen to get cracking on with the painting lol.

Meeting 2 friends for lunch today, (yes diary I can afford to have lunch out and socialise) 199 days ago I could not even afford a Mars bar for lunch lol.

Both my friends (one who was made redundant with me from our present job and the other one was made redundant with me 8 1/2 years ago, and they both play online bingo and slots, but neither have problems with it).

Also my redundancy money hits my account tomorrow, and I am quite nervous about this money,

after months and months of having next to nothing.

I know what I am doing with it, but I still don't trust myself, the last time I was made redundant, was when I started gambling, I must make sure I have everything in place so I do not go back down that road.

Need to step up today I think and blot out anything whatsoever to do with gambling, so I hope our chats today will not be about BLOODY bingo and skots

Looking forward to going out as it is a rarity even at lunchtime, and at least I will be out of OHs way lol.

I will not be playing today because I want to stay safe.

Wishing everyone a strong and positive and safe gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne
Well done, stay safe and enjoy your lunch out
Cheryl xxx

Hi Suzanne

Congratulations on a double century!

Hope you enjoyed lunch out with your friends. Have a good day.

M

Morning Suzanne.
What can i say apart from welcome to the club.
Congratulations on 200 days. You are my inspiration to keep battling on.
Enjoy your day.
Steve xxx

Suzanne

Today I salute you,a huge well done for your continued effort,it will all help you in making tomorrows choice.

Abstain and maintain.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Well done Suzanne!

Hi Suzanne, one little step at a time has brought you to much safer and calmer place already. What not to admire and be happy for?! You are reaping the benefits of abstinence and getting your life back on track. Be proud girl, ...nice and steady - one day at a time! 200 days, way to go and keep it up 🙂 S x

Thanks for all the supportive messages, I really appreciate it. x

Good afternoon diary,

200 days of not spending even one penny on any form of gambling and it really feels great to have come this far I don't know if I would have managed 200 gamble free days if it weren't for this forum, and all the support I have received from people who are just like me, inwardly fighting everyday ( even if we are unaware of it) to abstain and maintain and get our lives back to some normality.

My gambling days do seem very distant to me at this time, but I am very much aware That I could slip at any time, whatever frame of mind I am in, but that keeps me vigilant and determined to never go back there.

My redundancy money came into my account this morning and I transferred it almost immediately out of harms way.

I have paid another 2 PD loans off, only one left on my bank account and one left on OHs.

So I am just as proud to have gone 200 days without taking a PD loan out, and actually now have paid off 8 PD loans, and I used everyone of them purely for gambling, how sad and pathetic was that. Thank goodness I managed a payment plan with all of them,

I will never ever borrow money again for gambling, and I sincerely hope that by abstaining and maintaining taking one day at a time I will never gamble again.

Feeling strong and in control today and very proud to have come this far on my rollercoaster journey of recovery.

Wishing everyone on here a positive determined and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Very well done on 200 days. It's such a great achievement.

Enjoy your time off and be good to yourself.

Take care,

Suzy

All I can say is " bless your heart"

A little sentimental myself right now but that could be blamed on the wine and good night I've just had lol

You feel free to ramble on on my thread when ever you want, I'll only ever read with a smile. I know the journey you are on from the other side of the coin! No pun intended lol. No matter which side we are on - recovery is still the same. Neither of us want to be affected by gambling. For me like many others it was never the money. It was the lies. I now live my life free from that. As a cg you have to do the same. I too am a Scorpio - a sting in our tail but loyal to the end. I've looked back but only to see how far I've come and you can do the same with pride. I'm proud of where and who I am today. I absolutely love the life I'm living now surrounded by some of the best friends a person could ever wish for - that and my rugrats - I really don't need anything or anyone else. I feel complete. I'm happy. I'm settled. I sleep almost too well at night. I honestly don't think I've laughed as much as I have in the last couple of months. And I know in my head and my heart everything that has happened in my past happened for a reason. It happened to show me there is another way so long as your brave enough to take that step and make that change. Would love to meet up some day even if it's just for a few mins to give you a big hug and tel, you face to face that I believed in you from day 1. And still do today. I truly wish you all the happiness I feel right now - a life full of giggles - a sleep with a smile. Keep safe Suzanne. Ks x