Day 38 and a very quick post on my way to York. I'm currently at a motorway services with a bookies on site. They won't defeat me, I'm in company anyway. No bets today and I'm going to have a great weekend and lots to drink tonight.
Good to see you keeping on the straight and narrow Phil,
Have a great gambling free weekend in York and keep safe
Suzanne xxx
Thanks Suzanne, I had a gambling free and fun weekend!
So day 39 and just back from York. I had a fantastic weekend, I made the right choices and I reaped my rewards. One thing that struck me is that York is a beautiful city with so much history and so many thriving local businesses. Despite this there are still betting shops all over the city and they really are an eye sore in such a picturesque place. The old me would have been glad to see so many, however this weekend I was happy to not be one of the losers inside. I used to be the biggest loser going but I have just had 39 winning days and I want many more. I've done more this month than the old gambling me would do in a year. For this reason I chose to have no bets today and I need to keep making that choice!
Bornagain wrote:
Thanks Suzanne, I had a gambling free and fun weekend!
So day 39 and just back from York. I had a fantastic weekend, I made the right choices and I reaped my rewards. One thing that struck me is that York is a beautiful city with so much history and so many thriving local businesses. Despite this there are still betting shops all over the city and they really are an eye sore in such a picturesque place. The old me would have been glad to see so many, however this weekend I was happy to not be one of the losers inside. I used to be the biggest loser going but I have just had 39 winning days and I want many more. I've done more this month than the old gambling me would do in a year. For this reason I chose to have no bets today and I need to keep making that choice!
Well done Phil
Missed you on the 2015 challenge but well done on your progress. Keep it going!
Had a nice chilled morning before work and I'm glad to say no gambling nonsense entered my mind this morning. Shortly I will be getting myself sorted for work. Things are going well and its in my hands to ensure it stays like this. If I want it I can have it, I just need to make that daily choice not to gamble. No bets today, day 40!
Day 41 and a very quick post as I am running late for work. I bought Football Manager 2016 last night and I see plenty of late nights ahead of me as its the most addictive game ever! On the brightside its almost payday and the old me wouldn't have been able to buy it this late in the month as I would be skint. So onwards and upwards, no urges to gamble, finances looking better, life can only get better, its in my hands! No bets today!
Off work today and I went out to do some shopping with a friend this morning. I had a thought when I was in Starbucks about how nice it is to have money for the small things. In the past I would be trying to avoid buying a coffee as it would mean spending my gambling tokens. Its so good to have money for the small things and to not be stressing over where my next gambling tokens will come from.
I'm going to spend my afternoon chilling out before going back to my friends for some dinner and a few drinks. Day 42 will not involve me going anywhere near a bookmakers!
Day 43 and just chilling out this morning having a look through these Black Friday offers to see if anything looks a genuine bargain and something that I need. Funnily enough its payday tomorrow, could have been a different type of Black Friday if I chose to spend it in a bookies. I need to keep remembering the many Black Fridays I spent blowing a months wages on the horses and dogs, the horrible feeling when that last bet loses and you have the walk of shame out of the bookies and home. Tomorrow won't be a Black Friday as my money will be safely out of reach and I don't need the cr@P that gambling brings to my life! I actually have a small amount of money left from last months wages, despite a really expensive month so it shows the daily choice not to gamble is well worth it.
No bets today!
Pay day on day 44 and I'm feeling positive and strong, my finances are really good and they are staying that way. I have 3 pounds in my wallet and no need to have anymore on me today. The old me would be out the house sharpish today betting on every dogs race possible and then the horses until a months salary has gone. I don't want to be that crazy guy again living a life of self inflicted pain. Today I choose to leave my money safely in the bank and have a stress free day! The most exciting thing I will be doing today is going to work. I have the weekend off so I'm looking forwards to that.
No bets today!
Bornagain wrote:
Pay day on day 44 and I'm feeling positive and strong, my finances are really good and they are staying that way. I have 3 pounds in my wallet and no need to have anymore on me today. The old me would be out the house sharpish today betting on every dogs race possible and then the horses until a months salary has gone. I don't want to be that crazy guy again living a life of self inflicted pain. Today I choose to leave my money safely in the bank and have a stress free day! The most exciting thing I will be doing today is going to work. I have the weekend off so I'm looking forwards to that.
No bets today!
good on you Phil!
May your 44th day be a brilliant one.
Tri
Day 45 and a weekend off work without any bad thoughts or urges to gamble which makes it a good start. I'm nipping out to do some clothes shopping later and then going to see a local pub band tonight all things that wouldn't be possible whilst gambling. During the last 19 years since my problem began I have had 3 periods where I can say I gave recovery a good hard try and I am now in the fourth period where mentally I am in a good place and I have as many blocks in place as possible. I am a work in progress and need to make sure this time I learn more from the past and keep making that daily choice not to gamble. I realise now that there is no magic cure, this will not disappear after 100 days or 200 days or even 1000 days. But day by day make the right choices and my life will be far better, I am already reaping the rewards of 45 days gamble free as I have had so much more enjoyment and been able to get out and about far more. So today I make that choice, no bets today!
Good luck to you my friend the journey your on will be rewarding, the gambling road is destined to fail good luck.
The bear
Thanks the Bear and GT. It's day 46 and it's been spent with a friend and her little one. No urges to gamble, no lies, no secrets, just a day full of laughs. The old me would be racking my brains for an excuse to get out and hit a bookies. It's nice to just be myself and enjoy life for what it is. No bets today! X
Day 47 and I'm quite pleased with myself as I did a little overtime this afternoon and through the afternoon I started thinking about going to the bookies after work. I know from time to time these thoughts will arise and today I just kept thinking about as many bad things as possible from the past that have happened as a result of me gambling. I also thought about how much fun I've had lately because I have had the funds to go out and enjoy life. Eventually I convinced myself that hitting the bookies after work is a really bad idea and I'm now safely home and not far from the half century!
No bets today!
Hi Phil,
It's a good feeling when we negotiate with our addiction,,and make that one right choice, to abstain, well done and great going on
48 days today, keep on keeping on.
Suzanne xxx
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