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Bornagain
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Day 25 and I feel like I'm back in the real world enjoying a life that doesn't revolve around gambling. I enjoyed a relaxing night last night with good company and I had a nice Sunday morning. Now I'm enjoying the football and looking forward to seeing Frankie Boyle tonight. Positive thinking and enjoying life has to be the way forward. I will keep making the right choices and enjoying life. No bets today!

 
Posted : 8th November 2015 4:08 pm
Bornagain
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Day 26 and things are going well. Last nights show was great I really enjoyed it and these rewards just aren't possible if I gamble. Clearly I am making the right choices and I need to kick on and keep progressing and working on myself. For years I used to think about this so called free money system that I had in my mind and I used to let it suck me back into the bookies time and time again. No system could ever work for me because as soon as I enter a bookies I lose my head and all thoughts of disciplined punting goes out of my mind. I need to remember how I am when I gamble and remind myself daily of the crazy man I turn into who bets on every single race until all my money is gone, the man who has never won and will never win. The 100 pounds I had on Saturday still has 40 pounds remaining and thats after a busy weekend. I made the right choices this weekend and today I will make the right choices again. No bets today!

 
Posted : 9th November 2015 12:22 pm
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Well done man for choosing life instead of slavery to chasing losses. I know exactly what your talking about. I too have suffered from betting on races far too long and I don't need it in my life ever again.

Let's do this mate, distance ourselves from this evil habit. Let us keep making right choices.

Take care

Ergos

 
Posted : 10th November 2015 2:05 am
Bornagain
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Thanks for the message ergos, we are all in the same fight and by following some of the good advice on here we can win! Its now day 27 and I am shortly heading off to work. I'm feeling pretty good and it is so good to feel this positive. I've spent the morning looking for a hotel for a day/night out a week on Saturday, yet another thing only possible because I'm embracing recovery. Life is good, no bets today!

 
Posted : 10th November 2015 1:51 pm
Bornagain
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A late day 28 post, another good day! A friend was let down for company to go to a ballet tonight and asked me to keep her company as she didn't want to go alone. I would have never seen myself going to ballet but I didn't want her missing out so I went along and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. So another positive day, no bets and I go to sleep in the early hours of day 29 which will be another day I get through without a bet!

 
Posted : 12th November 2015 1:57 am
Bornagain
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Day 29 and about to start a run of 5 days in work which won't be much fun. But the days are adding up and I still have money safely in the bank which is fab. Not experiencing any urges at the mo and when people in work mention football bets I don't let it get to me. I just think I was that person once and I don't want to be that person again. No bets today!

 
Posted : 12th November 2015 1:15 pm
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Great going on 29 Phil, why should you want to burn your fingers again, life is sooo much better on the recovery side and it is the only way we do actually win.

Take care

Suzanne xxx

 
Posted : 12th November 2015 5:43 pm
Bornagain
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Thanks for the post Suzanne, I'm now on day 30 and life's so much better and more positive at the mo. Only a quick post today as I'm on my break in work. But it's important for me to make a daily post and to stay strong. Booked a weekend in York for next weekend, just something else that wouldn't be possible while im gambling!

No bets today!

 
Posted : 13th November 2015 7:13 pm
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Day 31 and sad to wake up to the shocking news from Paris, my thought are with the French this morning and I really hope events so bad never happen again. Life can be cruelly taken from us so we have to make the most of it!

I'm shortly off to work, in a positive frame of mind, no bets today!

 
Posted : 14th November 2015 1:06 pm
Bornagain
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Thanks GT, I hadn't even thought about it being a whole month gamble free. I've certainly got a lot better value for money and had a lot less stress. Its another quick post this morning as I have a lot to fit in before work today. I've heard a few gamblers in work talking about a certain big race meeting this weekend, in the past things like this have challenged me. However I just see it as another opportunity to lose money and I don't need that in my life right now. I have had a month of winning and I won't let my addiction defeat me, it will always be there but day by day with positivity it can be defeated. Today I choose not to gamble!

 
Posted : 15th November 2015 11:21 am
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Day 33 is coming to an end and it's been another successful gamble free day. I've got a long overdue day off work tomorrow and I'm going out for some tea and to watch Spectre tomorrow night. I'm really finding it easy at the moment and not having any urges. I need to make sure I don't get complacent because I'm well aware that the urges can come back at any time. From time to time I keep reminding myself how bad things can get if I gamble and how good things are when I don't. I'm keeping my focus and day by day I need to keep choosing not to gamble! No bets today!

 
Posted : 16th November 2015 10:32 pm
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Day 34 and finally a day off work, its been nice just to chill this morning and enjoy the cricket on tv. I've had a few fleeting thoughts enter my head this morning about how nice it would be to win more money to take to York this weekend. However I have fought them off as the reality is that to gamble today will mean I blow all my money and can't go to York and then a lot more chasing it. So I shall continue to chill out watching the cricket before heading out for some food and a trip to the cinema tonight. No bets today!

 
Posted : 17th November 2015 3:19 pm
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Its day 35 and I'm back in work for a run of 3 days and then I get the weekend off. This morning I have just been chilling out and no bad thoughts have entered my head. Last night was good, I really enjoyed Spectre and it was nice to eat out. Money is quite tight until I get paid now, but I have done an awful lot this month. Better to have a month full of fun than blowing all my money in a bookies on pay day! So off to work shortly safe in the knowledge that there will be no bets today!

 
Posted : 18th November 2015 1:32 pm
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Day 36 and a quick post as I have had a busy morning and have to rush to get ready for work. Not much to say other than things are good and I won't be setting foot near a bookies today!

 
Posted : 19th November 2015 1:39 pm
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Gambling alert on day 37!!! I have just survived an attack. I was sorting through some clothes to take to York tomorrow when I realised how I could do with a new shirt for tomorrow night. Since my hol I've piled the pounds on and what I fancied wearing is too tight. So I've budgeted an amount for this weekend and if I was to spend 40 on a new shirt it would leave me with less to spend in York. So bang the gambling bug comes along and convinces me to stop at the bookies on my way to work for half an hour to win a quick 50 and then go to work. I was almost about to load up the race cards on my laptop when I managed to see sense and fight back. I thought to myself what happens if I gamble, most likely I lose all my money and can't go to York, I would probably also phone in sick as I would be late and low after losing, then I'm also back to day one and could continue to go off the rails. So I have thankfully got rid of the crazy and I will go shopping for a new shirt and have a smaller budget for the rest of the weekend. No bets today!

 
Posted : 20th November 2015 1:40 pm
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