My diary

Thank you both for your great advice.

I’m just looking forward and taking One day at a time. I can’t believe I am on day 12, so happy for that and will keep continuing after payday 🙂

Day 13, my financial state is absolutely ridiculous. I can’t belive how much I have lost from gambling. As soon as my wages are in this month they will be gone straight away. At least this time it will be paying off money that I owe and not on some stupid site. I get paid on the 25th and think that will be a real test for me. Luckily I signed up to gamstop so won’t be able to go on line and going in to a betting shop or casino really doesn’t appeal to me. Feeling hopeful.

Cj x

Day 14, So today is the first day I have had money in my account. It’s not allot only £40 but normally would be straight gone. The first thought when it went in was to gamble it. It was like routine. I find it weird that the 40 is still in my bank. I never really had that.

It’s been a bit of a test having money today, I know that gamstop has made this a whole lot easier. I know the next few months all spare money will go on paying essential money that I owe. The rest will go on in the debt plan and paid off over the next few years.

If I’m honest I feel a bit lost having money and not gambling it. I feel like I really miss it. BUT I do not miss the pain, anger, disgust etc that goes with it. And I will stay strong.

Cj x

Hi stace,

Gamstop has been amazing! Well done for staying strong. I’m going to go out tomorrow and get one of them. I bet it is very therapeutic:)

Day 21 🙂

I haven’t been able to post in a while as I every time I click save it says error. So frustrating! Any way I have made it to day 21!!

Day 22,

Feeling a bit crappy today all the debts are needing to be paid have spoken to step change but I think I’m having a day where I think about all the money I lost.

Hopefully in a few months I will see some benifits from the spare cash. I’m hoping I can pay off all my debts in 2 years. That’s my goal

Hope your doing ok cj, looking at your posts so far you have done really well, its very hard but just have to remember to take one day at a time

Thanks John,

Day 28 and I have had a really rough day today. I am skint with so many unpaid bills as I am paying catch up. All I kept think about today was gambling. Thank god for gamstop. I shamefully even tried to log in to a few accounts just in case. I kept thinking if I just log in have a quick win then will exclude. It’s just crazy. So glad I didn’t and I am still GF. I do really miss the thrill of gambling but I definitely do not miss all the c**P and debt that come with it.

Hopefully tomorrow is easier.

Hi there, we’ll done on day 28! I know exactly what you mean about catch up... a couple of months for me before I even start to feel like I’m paying things off. Just trying to focus on staying GF!

Thanks lil, been really struggling past few days but happy to see no transactions for gambling so really happy about that 🙂 hope you are doing well xx

Day 79!

I can’t actually believe I have made it to this point. I have been a bit quieter on here lately but still checking in. It’s crazy how quick it goes.

Finally starting to see the benifits financially and paid out loads towards my debt that I made from gambling. This month I am looking forward to pay day so I can actually get some new clothes. I still have a strange relationship with money, I find it crazy when I have any spare money in my bank and feel the need to spend it straight away. That’s how it’s always been as I would gamble as soon as I had any so never any money in the bank. Hopefully in time my relationship with money will improve.

Setting my sights on the 100 day goal!!