My Diary - Day by Day

Hope you enjoyed that reward and still going strong 🙂 quarter of the way to another 100 days! One day at a time, In it together x

Day 226 - 17/9/15

Been tempted again today - probably due to stress and being home alone. Staying strong though and taking it one day at a time x

Stressed will do that x Try and get some rest with an early night, it'll be another day achieved and a whole new day in no time 🙂

Day 227 - 18/9/15

LOL at the early night my daughter doesnt know how to sleep early (11 is good - it was nearer to 1 this morning) Resisted the urges though. Glad to see your still going strong too xxx

Hi awesome mummy & little angel ☺
Good to see you winning the fight and moving on!

Sounds like little one is pretty handfull, ya know, you are the only person i ever witnessed of how difficult early stages of raising someone special/perfect are...you are top Mum and never forget that ok! ☺..and thanks for sharing ur experiences..

Will be good to see you on 90 days challenge also...never pressure, i know you're busy as you are 🙂

Keep wining & claiming ur life bk...you're worth it!!!

S x

Day 228 - 19/9/15

Thanks for the great support! Completely lose track of the days will pop over and check in 🙂

Day 229 - 20/9/15

Feeling a bit disappointed today - the OH gambled yesterday (8 hours!) Spent - won - played it all back through - lost! Silver lining is that it reminds me of all the feelings i dont want if i get tempted. Neither of us had much sleep (probably thinking about it too much!) Hopefully its a one off

He gambled again today 🙁

Day 230 - 21/9/15

As much as i am annoyed witht the OH - i am still getting urges too! 🙁

Really want to gamble right now - trying avoidance by reading + keeping occupied (not that i get much free time) Think its a combo of being stressed - seeing OH gamble - feeling a bit low etc

Gambling was a crutch so it makes sense that i would crave it more at the mo

Got to keep strong

Hey, as Dan on here's says take a very deep breath and breath out,

I totally understand your strong urges right now, but you are strong now, you can breathe in and breathe those urges out and kick them back in the gutter:))))

It's total S***e and not fair at all on you that your OH stills gambles on and off.

Remember this is your recovery journey, do what you have to do to stay safe, as our journey continues we do have to strengthen and change things to keep strong, don't let your OH get to you, he is on active mode at the moment, and that addiction, is trying to lure you back in, don't listen to its lies, remember it is only thoughts, take one minute at a time if needed tonight, you will wake up tomorrow look at your daughter and feel proud and relieved, as for your OH, he sadly is still making his own bed, do not jump back in with him, let him lie in it on his own, time to get tough with him now, it's affecting your recovery, and you know you have to put your recovery first.

Keep strong and focused tonight, you will feel better tomorrow.

Take care

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for the moral support 🙂

You are right Sometimes you do just have to take it a minute at a time - i know i would feel awful if i gave in now.

Paige is too important to give in to these urges now! That is all they are & anyone who can go through childbirth knows how to fight! You are a fighter! I'd be inclined to give your OH a good kick too but that's illegal so maybe a cold shoulder & some tough love! It's not my place to give relationship advice but please (I know it's hard) don't let his gambling affect your mood when you are around Paige.

You are doing great, keep fighting - ODAAT

Day 231 - 22/9/15

I made it through the night 🙂