Day 79 - 31/7/16
Been in a self destructive place lately leading to more gambling urges
Day 82 - 3/8/16
Still GF but been thinking about it more and more lately 🙁
Hey chic
Things not so great ATM but was lovely to check in and see you're still going! Don't give in. You're doing so well xx
Day 83 - 4/8/16
Not great here either. Getting very close to gambling glad to see you here. Keep you chin up x
Its aa hard hard road this recovery game with rough patches and bumps along the way. But gambling as an option is 10 times worse potentially life threatening. It will finish you off. It grips you emotionally and financially and in the end it makes you a shell of a person.
Keep on keeping on
What happens, if you do gamble again, is your life, going to get any better?, are you going to feel any better?. What benefit will it be to you at all?.
Just ask yourself those questions.
You're heading very fast towards 3 whole months gamble free, don't ruin it now.
Don't give in chic. Peace of mind is a much better feeling than the alternative! I've got a fresh bottle of remorse right now. You've done so well xx keep it up xx
Day 1 - 9/8/16
But you're still here. Not giving up on giving up xx
Day 0 again - 17/8/16
What is wrong with me. Why do I mess things up for myself. Do destructive. It's an addiction. It's harder than I ever thought. I feel weak and hopeless. I need to break this cycle. Wasted a months wages trying to chase a loss. It all escalated very quickly. Feeling like a failure.
I ditto your feelings on my diary X feeling like a failure and weak. Like i'll never break this terrible addiction. But we've done it before (and given up smoking which had its set backs) and we can do it again. Even if we slip we know we want to quit and will make it happen eventually. Looking forward, not back xx don't beat yourself up
Day 1 - 18/8/16
I could so easily gamble tonight. OH on nights and its been 2 straight weeks of gambling. I have money in the bank but its for bills and if I give in and gamble I am going to be in a much worse position. Its just not worth it. I have got to stop though and hopefully this is the day. So far so good. Keeping busy.
Thanks Red for the support - its good to know I am not alone
You're not alone wants2 but you've asked how to beat this & people have advised you but you continue to try & do it alone! I am almost scared to read your posts now especially when you have been away for a few days because I know you've succumbed 🙁
Your OH is a fool but you continue to enable him, maybe because you think it justifies your actions to some extent, maybe because you love him but what about you? What about your little girl who needs you & needs you to pay those bills so that she can be & stay safe?
Please, get some proper support, if not for you, for Paige! You have the strength to do this but it isn't easy & it's time to accept that doing it alone isn't working! Keep fighting - ODAAT
Day 2 - 19/8/16
Glad I kept away last night. It's a hard situation. I understand what your saying but things aren't always simple. Or black and white. I appreciate the advice and take everything I read on board but I don't know where to start.
Paige would never go without. I always provide for her first
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