My Diary - Day by Day

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Hi Gower - 4 or 5 a day that seems good - lol - but being serious i still get the urge several times a day and i am on Day 37. I think at first i constantly thought about it. You are doing really well not giving up and you have got to Day 4 already its amazing. I took advice from people on here. Keep busy doing other things. Try and have a plan for when you get an urge - eg - go for a 10 min walk/wash up/read a book/come on here and read some posts

Seriously I just popped on myself as i had an urge to gamble - I was gambling online especially when bored/stressed/happy - any reason really - and more so when on my own. My OH is at work and i would have before wasted the time and money gambling online. You just need to have a lot of will power and a focus - I am having a baby in 7 weeks so I knew i needed to get help and the more dys that go by the less urges you have and the more focussed you are to stay on track. It is not an easy journey though. I think coming on here to be accountable helps too. I also have given myself a reward system for goals which help me carry on.

Was just thinking today normally by now i have no money left from my wages13 days after being paid and am worried about finding money for upcoming bills however I still have money in my bank (not a lot about 50 quid) and I have been treating myself too!

Its worth all the hard work in the end - keep it up - you are doing great!

 
Posted : 12th March 2015 3:36 pm
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Thanks for your message and very well done on 37 days of winning.

You did right to come on here because you felt itchy lol, hope it's gone now.

Stay strong and keep goinnnng.

Suzanne xxx

 
Posted : 12th March 2015 7:41 pm
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Thanks Suzanne - managed to resist - tidied up a bit had a read then went for a meal with a friend 🙂

 
Posted : 12th March 2015 9:47 pm
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Day 38 - 13/3/15

Friday 13th Unlucky for some - not for me anymore as I dont need luck just determination

Have a Happy Friday everyone!

 
Posted : 13th March 2015 9:08 am
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Morning, sending you masses of determination lol.

Keep strong, and you have a happy Friday too.

Suzanne xxx

 
Posted : 13th March 2015 9:13 am
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Finding it hard again today - feeling really tempted - not sure why the urge is so bad today?!

Been for my manicure which was my 5 week reward - much nicer than wasting money on a couple of spins on a slot but still got that twinge going on today. It may be as i have money and am hiome alone. Trying not to think about it. Just made a cuppa going to have a read then do some housework if i feel up to it if not i might just have a nap x

 
Posted : 13th March 2015 3:32 pm
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In other news the OH hasnt gambled today yet (it's his payday). Found out he did gamble last week but only 30 quid which is much better than usual. Will keep updated whether he manages to abstain or not

 
Posted : 13th March 2015 3:39 pm
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You are doing great, keep,going and keep,strong , it's the only.way you will,win

Suzanne xxx

 
Posted : 13th March 2015 8:04 pm
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Day 39 - 14/3/15

Officially day 39 although not been to bed yet. Quick update - found it a struggle today but got through it. As far as i am aware the OH hasnt gambled either. Going to bed now - see you tomorrow for another gamble free day (hopefully an easier one than the last 2) xxxx

 
Posted : 14th March 2015 1:18 am
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Good morning 🙂

 
Posted : 14th March 2015 9:29 am
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Day 40 - 15/3/15

Happy Mothers Day 🙂

Bit peeved this morning pretty sure the OH was gambling last night. Couldnt sleep properly till he cam to bed which was about 3am 🙁 Makes me think why the f do i bother trying so hard but i have to stay determined in my own recovery xxxx

 
Posted : 15th March 2015 8:33 am
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Happy Mother's Day to you lol.

40 days now girl, keep going, think of your own recovery, you are doing simply great.

Suzanne xxx

 
Posted : 15th March 2015 1:44 pm
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Thanks guys - he knows he needs to stop but is trying (or not really trying) to do it on his own. He owned up to spending 200 last night. I really need him to try harder with the arrival of our little girl in less than 7 weeks now! I know its hard - its hard for me too (and he has been doing it much longer than me and more extreme) but i really need him to try for our family now! xxx

 
Posted : 15th March 2015 5:04 pm
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Another day nearly done - been busy today so not much time for temptation thank god. Back to work tomorrow after a week off not looking forward to it as i am so tired now but only 4 weeks till my maternity leave 🙂

 
Posted : 15th March 2015 11:56 pm
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Day 41 - 16/3/15

Morning everyone - not looking forward to going back to work and only had 4 hours sleep - hope i can keep my eyes open 🙂

 
Posted : 16th March 2015 7:32 am
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