new beginning

Hello everyone,

On the bus heading home from work. No gambling today. Absolutely delighted !

The Time-Money-location aid works well. Maintain and abstain.

Tomorrow life looks better at Toad Meadows. I have come such a long way. I want to thank everyone for their entries good and bad.

I hope you all had a good day.
Toad.

Hi toad I'm pleased you got through another day but I feel this all getting a bit silly.

So I will leave you to do your recovery as you wish and I will do mine how I wish.

I will not be posting on you diary and would appreciate it if you gave me the same courtesy and refrain from posting on my diary.

I wish you all the best and hope we can both come out the other side gamble free

KTF

Oldhamktf,

Thankyou for your comments and support. Good luck on your recovery.

Toad.

Hello folks,

All going well today. It never ceases to amaze me how much support I get on here. I see you all as an extended family so thanks for that. Today I got great advice from Alan, Oldham and Adaat so thanks for that.

I am now in a good place and I feel blessed. I spoke to the Gamcare administrators to voice my concern over some users who were abusive, patronising and passive aggressive. Nobody deserves this. Toad has suffered at the hands of these trolls. These trolls see it like a sport to upset users.

I said a prayer tonight for the trolls on here. This will not detract from my mission to stop gambling...This toad stands tall happy in his skin. Time to move forward.... At the advice of gamcare I will no longer post on others diaries. It just takes one bad apple in the barrel to destroy it all.

Thankyou all who supported Toad.
Best wishes.
T

Well done on 2 days Toad. Another building block done. Good luck for tomorrow

Day 3,

No gambling today. £2.70 in today for lunch.

Without sounding cocky. I am good! Another day without gambling. You can do it Toad. Go you!

Toad.

Good man!

Day 3,
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Hi Gampeeps,

Toad is in the zone with recovery coming on strong 🙂

Toad.

Update.

I did pop into turfs to watch racing. I had no money so I was safe. The turfs was nicely heated for customers. So that was nice. I don't feel like I did wrong i knew I'd no cash so no harm.
I will continue to abstain and maintain.
This Toad is leaping high in the air today. I really have found happiness again. You too can achieve. Quitting gambling is the best decision i have made. Thankyou Gamcare, Thankyou my extended family.

I do apologise that I cannot write on peoples diary but please read my diary and follow me on this wonderful journey together.

Toad.

Hello Dean8008,

You are 100% right I should not have been in the turfs. I will try to avoid that from now on.

Going to the gym tonight in my home town. I have self excluded from all the bookies in my home town. So I am safe today.

I know for some 3 days isn't long to abstain. But for me it's good going. I am attracted to the turfs like a magnet or a base jumper to his parachute. Or like a shadow on a moving object. I'm sure you get my point 🙂

The bottom line is I loved the turfs and casinos. Loved them. I liked the bright lights. I like being in luxurious environments. I liked everything that surrounded it. So it became a major part of my life.

Since I got married it was not only myself I had to think off. So gambling is not good in a marriage or being single.

So were am I now? I am just taking it one day at a time.

Tomorrow I am working. Might keep me outta trouble. I wish you all well in your recovery.

Regards,

Toad.

PS Q)whats a Toads favourite meal?
A) toad in the hole

Day 4,

Good morning,

All well at Frog Mews. As each day passes I get stronger.

I have had my critics on here. How good it feels to prove them wrong. They don't know Toad and have lost their sense of humour through gambling. Life has become very serious because gambling has robbed them of every penny. They become hate the world peoples. They forget they chose to gamble and they paid the heavy price. They take it out on other people. Ultimately they blame others for their addiction. They criticise genuine members and say they can't stop but it is themselves who can't stop. It is these people I have less sympathy for.....I am a proud Toad I rise above this.

To summarise. Man up and take responsibility !!

Toad.

Hi Toad,

Well done on four days! I'm chuffed for you and it took a little while huh, but the message seemed to get through in the end...YAY!!
"Man up and take responsibility"! What a golden words! Go you & b proud for aknowledging it ☺

Have a good day toadie & stay safe

Thankyou Sandra,

Can I just add. I had to man up and take responsibility. But it only happened after going through the last 4 years of bank statements and discovering to my horror that I had borrowed 50k from 7 different payday loan companies.

I was at a sad sorry place. The worst day of my life was when I had a bad row with a work collegue, got drunk and confessed to my wife I owed 2.5k that particular month to payday loans. I think I took a breakdown. That was 2 years ago.

It was then I manned up and admitted to my problems. The only solution was to hand over control of my finances to my brilliant wife.

Today I just owe £250 on an overdraft. I do feel a bit mentally scarred but it made me stronger the bad experience.

So when I wrote the last post it was also directed at myself. Even Toad can criticise himself. Yes Toad might be clever, caring, hard working, honest but I have my flaws. Toad is the Alpha male. What a specimen.

Take care tadpoles.
Toad

Are you a real toad? ?

Ribit ribit. Ribit ribit.

Ribit.

Toad.

Hi Toady,

In light of what you say maybe your challenge in working recovery is to be a bit more humble. Maybe you will relate to the following...

Many "action" gamblers are domineering, controlling, manipulative men with large egos. They see themselves as friendly, sociable, gregarious and generous. Their average IQ is over 120. They are energetic, assertive, persuasive and confident. In spite of all this, they usually have low self esteem.

Regards... S.A