new beginning

Your quiet Paul...hope your ok x

Good morning Loxxie and all,

Day 6

Not a great day yesterday but for once not gambling related.

My boss said something to me 'f.off' yesterday and i'm not sure if it was meant as a joke but disrespectfull to me. I lost respect for her. I went home annoyed with myself as i didn't speak back at the time.

Anyway more important things to worry about other than work.

I have photographs in to self exclude.

You know i'm feeling angry today and i am never like that.

I am lucky to be alive so count my blessings,

I hope everyone has a good day.

Paul.

Good morning Paul and well done on your continued progress.

Take the fact you didnt respond as a positive. Thats maybe what they wanted and you didnt give them the satisfaction of a response. Shows you have some inner strength.

Best wishes

Thankyou Balvaird,

Very good advice. I don't like confrontation. Anything for an easy life lol

Paul

Hey toad...how's it going ...x

Hi loxxie,

Day 7,

Went to the counselor. Attempted to self exclude but there's a 24hour cool down period. Back on Monday morning.

Going to have a quiet night. Overtime tomorrow. I ensured my pay going to wifes account today.

The barriers are up.

Hope you all had a good day.
Paul.

Hi Paul , just wanted to say well done my friend , out of interest the 24 hr cooling off period , was that with a high street bookie or an independant one ?

Nice one Paul. A good week for you and I am sure there is a good weekend ahead. Take it easy.

Thankyou Alan and sbissstopping,

That was a high street bookie. The first word is 'lad' lol

I was annoyed like as i've lost alot in there.

Thanks for your support both of you 🙂

PS i am trying GA next week aswell
Paul.

Morning All,

Day 8.

On the bus heading to work. I had a good night last night. A couple of beers and a pizza with the wife.

Starting to get wee periods were i feel happy but then i feel guilty as i remember my recent loss and then I feel sad. But i need to forget the past and build on my future.

I went to the counselor yesterday it went well. I am going to GA next week too. This time I am trying really hard.

I am glad I am making changes. The extra stress gambling causes isn't worth it.

I hope you all have a good day.
Paul.

Hi Paul its good to read you are on day 8 and you are feeling better. You are now building a gf future for yourself and Mrs Paul. Onwards and upwards. Wcid.

Morning Paul , just wanted to pop by and say that I think you're doing great and making all the right choices , it's early days but great to see you in a better place . Well done buddy and have a great day !

Well done Paul...good stuff x

Thankyou Alan, WCID and Loxxie,

Today was quite tough in overtime but the cash i get will be for the wife and I. Today I won't work for the turfs. I hope I have learned a valuable lesson after losing.

I have blocks in place and they well remain for at least the next 2 years and beyond.

On a negative note I had small savings but that's gone gradually.

But I owe nothing. I want to stay that way.

I am thankfull for what I have. I need to appreciate what I have. Gambling will destroy all happiness. I must remember this.

I hope you are all having a good day.
Paul.

Well done Paul