Hi Stephen, you're 'back on the road' and that's the way to be. With you every step of the way my friend.
Thankyou for posting on my diary, it is much appreciated.
S.J.B. Glad your enjoying the counselling, I had 12 sessions and found it really helpful. Liked the song you posted on your diary; No Money by Galantis
Mixer. Hope your keeping well.
Hello Diary. Had a good day with college, swimming and salsa dancing tonight. Been feeling very annoyed with myself after my stupid relapse but can hopefully learn from it. So much good stuff to do so why would I even want to gamble!
Morning Diary. Day 6 and going for glory.
Sometimes philosophical about my relapse and occasionally ranting and raving at my stupidity, I'm currently somewhere in between. Loved the quote in Sharon's diary this morning; "The smallest steps move you forward." I'm going to keep that in my mind when recovery seems to be going slow.
Going to my sisters today for 5 days to celebrate her 70th birthday. I won't mention my relapse, it won't serve any purpose and will merely put a dampner on the party.
Later I will be relying on my GamCare friends to escort me from Kings Cross to Waterloo when I change my trains. I will need you all their alongside me, it's perilous terrain fraught with danger. Bookmakers everywhere but i'm on a mission now and i'm not going to give in.
Let's Rock n Roll.
Hi Stephen if you'd asked I would have physically escorted you! Have a great time at the party and at your sisters. Show everyone your salsa !
You & me both MGR...Bit short notice unfortunately as I’m heading into work now pso sending you cyber strength instead Stephen. If you’ve started the MOSES exclusions you could always ring up & add these places to your barred zones.
Thankyou ODAAT. I will be arm in arm with you and merry so I won't have any problems.
Thankyou ODAAT & MRG. Got through London without a hitch. No urges whatsoever which is a good sign. x x
Morning Diary. Day 7 gamble free.
Visiting my sister in Surrey for five days celebrating her 70th. All the family came round last night which was her birthday and all going to have a meal and party on Sunday.
No conscious urges to gamble but woke up earlier in a gambling dream.
Got to be always on my guard.
Enjoy the break, crack some jokes, a few drinks, and have a good time, and enjoy being around your family.
Enjoy your break Stephen. Just remember that no one can force you into the bookies. You have the power to just walk on by - (hey there's a song there!). In our fight against addiction we will always have visual temptations. My latest weapon in my armoury against drinking alcohol is a silent statement, which I fire immediately when needed. It goes like this: I CANNOT HAVE A DRINK. IT WILL END UP KILLING ME! (I'm deadly serious) - When I see the opened bottle of wine that my OH has left in the kitchen it would be easy to have a gulp, but when you get the taste - you want more. I cannot drink sensibly - I always do things to excess!
Same with the gambling addict. It's just NOT possible to have a sensible or fun bet. That could also eventually cost us our lives.
Thankyou Smashed and Changemylife. Good to read your posts which are always positive.
I am stephen, my last bet was 16th November 2017. I am committed to my recovery and feeling good.
I hope you're having a great break Stephen, and also sense - I hope my instincts are right - you have extra resolve that is going to be pivotal as we approach Christmas. With you every step of the way, my friend.
Thanks for the encouraging post Mixer. I suppose the tempation is going to be there for the foreseeable future, another dream of gambling last night so it's obviously entrenched in my subconscious.
Having a great time at my sister's, good to see my nephews, nieces, and their children.
With sufficient to live my life and enjoy simple pleasures there really is no reason for me to gamble.
Hi Stephen, would be good to see you back in the Room, we all need one another. Take care. Helen.
Thanks Stephen for your post
I am glad to read you're finding peace and balance within yourself once again.
Keep accepting the support offered and also leave place in that jar of yours (I guess you have heard about sand in a jar story) for things that matters too....friends, free time, socialising and soaking little things in life...
My angels are dancing with yours...& to the best tune possible - FREEDOM!
Keep strong
S&B xx
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