New diary

I see you found me on there. Not a million miles from DaveP lol

Thanks mate

Will try to keep the post up by bumping.

I already getting some good advice thanks mate. I'll be posting about my pension too so would be interested to hear your views on that.

hi graham

finally found your diary! havent had a proper read but once im back from my counselling i'll have a good read. some great advice on the bits i have read. i can see why smokey calls you the superhero now.

seriously though, its guys like you that give me the determination and hope that i can beat this demon that i created inside me.

keep up the good work and no doubt i'll speak to you in GA over the coming days

Hi graham, just popping in to say a HUGE thanks to YOU!

What else can i say apart from your one very kind genuine guy, my cyber pops!

take care mate, ands

Graham

Firstly, I am very sorry that you have been having such a rough time of late. My heart goes out to you and your wife.

Apologies if I am stating the obvious and you are aware of this. But maybe you feeling low is a by-product of being such a kind and caring person? You come over as someone whom has values and principles. Many of which are now missing from current day life? Possibly if your "make up" was one of not giving a S**t about your fellow humans it would be much easier for you? An attitude which seems to be the "norm" these days?

But thankfully, you are not this sought of person. And as you should know by now (as modest as you are!) you have helped many, many cg's on here, GA and Safe Harbor. I do hope you get through this current bad patch soon.

With best wishes

RayG

Hi Graham

Cheers for the post!

Hoots mon indeed -he he. There's a moose loose aboot this hoose!!

Good to see you in chat, as always. And hope you have a lot more ups than downs in the coming days and weeks ahead. ODAAT - canny do anything about the past and the future's not here yet!

Have a lovely gamble free day! Speak soon, love, Lili xx

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As promised G xxx

Hope you are a having a nice time away and I miss your input.

Hopefully you are on the up and fighting your way out.

Smokes :o)

Graham

Apologies for not posting earlier, but guessed you were away. Thanks for posting on my diary. Thought it interesting you saying that as you get older you are becoming more "sensitive". I would have said that you are becoming more caring as opposed to more sensitive!!! And irrespective of this, what's wrong being a sensitive person? A very positive quality to my mind.

As to not being a saint, I have meet very very few people in my life that would be worthy of becoming one! And it seems to me, that today in the current uncaring society, there are becoming far less and less candidates for the role! At the end of the day, we are what we are, and can not change the past? All we can do is learn from our mistakes and in turn try to help others?! By the way. I was never in the running to be a St Ray even before I became a cg!!!

Finally, most importantly and sorry to embarrass you Graham. There are many many posters on here "looking out for you" and wishing you well with trying to get through the low feelings you have been having of late.

All the best

RayG

Well an important decision has been made. After being away 200 miles from our home town we are selling up and going back. Sadly we are limited to what we can buy, certainly nothing like we have now but we have spotted some really nice park homes in our budget.

As many of you know my sis-in-law is splitting with her husband and she needs to find something around the same price as the family home is to be sold at some point so the plan is we get one and she gets one.

My bro- in - law has suggested that we buy his share and we move in with sis-in-law ( we are small very tight knit family ). In theory doable but I can see pit falls.

We were not able to have kids so my niece and her 2 brothers are God children and again we are close so a return to near London makes sense as we are getting no younger.

Oldest boy has announced that I am shortly to become a Great Uncle!!!!!!! and there`s me still trying to cope with puberty lol.

So big plan of action. We have a 3 story Edwardian town house and have been refurbing over the years. I think there is less than one weeks work to finish it off, my builder mate will be called in and it`s mates rates , lol. One room left to be painted, might well do that myself. Put some new carpet down and hope to get it on the market in spring.

Well there`s the plan. Hope we can make it work:) .

Hi G,

You seem so happy with this decision and you seemed really upbeat about it last night.

Dare I say my superhero is backkkkkkkk :o)

All the best matey and I won't forget what you did for me in those early days should our communications be cut.

All the best matey.

Smokey

hello mate

i hope you are still as positive about things as you were in your last post. im gutted we havent been able to talk for a while and hopefully soon we will be able to chat again. i know smokey feels the same, hopefully the GA arms will be open to us again one day!

take care mate and good luck with everything

Hi folks. Well life marches on. Still up for moving very much. Hope to be ready in maybe 6 or 8 months to put the house up for sale. Note to one self. Never, ever buy an old house again, always something to do.

Mood has been lifting a bit. Thankfully I have been working from home so that`s a bonus. Seem to be able to sleep for up to 10 hours a night. Doc says that the deep anxiety I was having has taken a toll and this is natural.

Business is about the worse I have known it but that goes for loads of people. As well as the people I contract for another company has asked for me to get on board and represent their products. I am allowed to do this, they are in the same field but very little conflict of products. Still trying to cut a deal.

Still gamble free, after Christmas it will be 5 years. No urges now for about a year. I just can`t see me wasting another penny on this rubbish.

Been reading a book about my old school, infants and juniors, kind of gave me a tear of the happy memories of those days. I think life for most then was a far more simple affair. Certainly a more honest and caring society.

Anyway, off to chat.