<span;>Accepted final crypto projects used last bit of money in where scams. Rather than checking constantly making myself worse and worse. Ive deleted addresses accepted loss and no intentions of chasing. Going to put all my efforts into recovery. Its tough at min and so bad emotionally. Put at least cant make things any worse financially/emotionally by carrying on the insanity. What helped me last time to stay gf for long period was mantra:-
<span;>Never ever a valid reason to ever gamble.
<span;>Simple but effective ,i can do this clean slate no access to money and all investments gone.
<span;>I feel terrible but empowered ive took control,all effort now into person used to be and wife and daughter deserve. No debts thankfully ,but as stole from daughters savings. Will replace through hardwork as oppose to gambling or trading/risky investments. All the same thing tbh , many forms of gambling u fortunately.
This third attemp trying to quit , determined to make third time lucky by making my own luck. By being real and honest and accountable , and most putting real effort into recovery and being a better person.
Prev attempts back in 2014 ( iveseenthelight) where stopped for 4 plus years. And last year (complacencyisakiller). Last year so gripped could find my way to the help and accept it. Now am determined. My story so similar to others . But ill put what learned in relapses to improve barriers and recovery , knowledge is power against the awful beast of gambling.
By the sounds of it, the relapses for you are so far between that you should have no problem crawling back up to the surface again. As you are in crypto I can only imagine that the sums were high but again it does not matter because you are not getting it back and you will need to abstain to get back to a normal life again. I don't have much to add at this point I can read that you have taken charge and you are determined and that is what you need to succeed.
I would say that you are always welcome to reach out when u feel you need the support. We are here and will listen and respond
Best
C
Thanks i wish you all the best also .
c**P diary mood up and down ,just want to die but no courage to go through with it.Just had enough of having this gambling problem , whats point in recovery whats the point in anything. Feel destroyed mentally and physically rarely wash or change clothes even. Look at pics of myself just 4 years ago even and dont recognise. I know sounds like self pity but how feel better to get it out. Even though felt like above had beacon appt and no desire to gamble. I know my fault but didnt ask for gambling work colleague in introduced me i hate them for that. Hate myself , box by xmas. Dealing with this gambling on and off for 8 years , its destroyed me as a person and my soul. Ppl say its not about money but effect has on you and amount time wasted. Im proof that right have no gambling debt but suicidal constantly , ppl that say that are right it ruins your mind and thinking like the devil. Doesnt feel recoverable , box by xmas the devils in me.
I'm so sad to read that lastchance. Please try and be strong. Believe me , I've been were you are, I'm still not fully out of it, an working so hard on myself but still I got those suicidal thoughts. But once your gone, your gone, there's no coming back. When I was at my darkest and people told me to have abit of hope and believe things would change, I didn't, I didn't think for one second anything would ever get better. Its a work in progress fir me, I have a long way to go, but I am starting to see the light at the end of that very dark long tunnel. You will to. Please speak to a professional about how your feeling. No one should feel like that. When I think of my gambling, it makes me sick to my stomach, the amount I've lost, but thinking about it won't bring it back, it will just destroy you even more.
Really hope things get better for you. Its a horrible dark place to be, but please believe me when I say it will get better. I'm proof of that. Stay strong
Stace xx
Dear @lastchance12072021 ,
I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling this low and going through such a tough time. Your post does not sound like self pity at all, it is very honest and it takes courage to share your feelings on the Forum and as you say, it sometimes makes us feel better to get things out in the open.
Right now, it may be difficult for you to be able to see a brighter future, but with the right help and support, this IS recoverable.
Gambling can be about many things, you mentioned money and mood being up and down as well as neglecting self care and changes in your mental and physical well being and I am wondering if you have considered speaking to your GP regarding the way you're feeling.
You never have to feel alone with this. We are always here on the live chat or by calling us free on 0808 802 0133.
I do hope things will start to look better for you. Just small steps at a time, try and look after yourself and please get the support you need and deserve.
With the kindest regards
Keely.
Forum Admin.
Thank you stace for your comforting words in means a lot , it sounds like youve been similar place to me mentally. What resonated most was when you say your gone your gone. Your right my daugter would be devastated and wife also. I mentally think just pull yourself together, but not as easy as that. Am getting professional help and on medication , ive just got to give it time which us gamblers arent great at patience wise. Take care stace.
Hi last, yes I've been were you are mentally and still am, but not as bad, things are definitely improving, something I thought would never happen. Please take it from someone who nearly lost there life in April, there's no coming back once your gone and so many people would be left devastated. I instantly regretted what I'd done, as soon as I did it , I thought no, I don't want to die. Thoughts came through my head that had never entered it before. I was clinging to life and was saved by a police officer. I won't go into what I did, but I can tell you now, I'm lucky im here, and I instantly regretted what I'd done, I could see my life slipping away and prayed I would be saved. That was a turning point for me, things got bad afterwards and my gambling spiralled, but one thing I know then was I didn't want to die. I promise you, you will recover. Just keep reaching out talking, accept help.
Please stay strong, know your not alone , you will get better, it may take weeks, months , years but it will happen.
Stace
Thanks keely appreciate all the help gamcare offers and you are a lifeline , to everyone affected by gambling in different ways.
So 2 weeks gf bit of progress. This week better than last still feel rubbish. Various stresses with partner family and thoughts about regret. But still here barely feel motivated to type just feel blaaah.
Have to say however bad feel or good im either going on group chat most nights at 8pm or get it out on here. So no bad feelings or thoughts are festering for days or weeks to cause relapse or put me back again. So that my positive for the day , going to try to that in all diary entrys. Negatives and some positives , no matter how bad things seem or how feel try to find positives. Tc everyone god bless.
Last thought no bet since july last year. But traded shares since , aswell as stopping day trading and looking for quick money. Am managing stop compulsion to check share prices so progress too. Hope to be able to maintain abstaining day trading as have to place a bet which havent had urge for long time thankfully. So that my second positive lol , wd everyone will try and get other ppls diarys more over next week and comment.
To add i know triggers are parents on both mine and partners and way act and treat me , so beginning to learn what are so can deal with in better way than gambling.
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