Online slots...

Wow...lovely couple hours out with son and grandson...nothing major just haircut...breakfast...but if shopping....Sun shinning...and wallop....some strong urges to play slots....god knows where they came from but they landed in my head like a hsmmer ! ...scarey stuff...only £10...your bound to win...once won't hurt...you've missed us slots...come on go play....thank goodness for the blocks on place...and how weird striking when I'm feeling good....xx

Hi Loxxie , just reading your post's from over the weekend and if you want a bloke's perspective then do what makes you happy , life's far to short to one day look back and say I wished I'd done that .

I divorced almost 8 years ago now after being married for 26 years and at the time it was very scary for me , bringing my then 13 yr old up alone and with no support from his mum who niether of my kids have seen for about the last 6 years but fast forward to today and I'm so happy great supportive family and partner who I love so much .

I suppose what I'm saying is don't be scared of change , go out and take from life what you deserve and be happy !

Youv'e begun to make those changes already by stopping gambling and thats a great first step , youv'e got the strenght and courage to do that so the sky's the limit !.

Those urges will get easier to deal with the more days you rack up and put between you and your last bet , and one day they wont be there at all , keep those blocks in place and tell em to just do one !.

Sorry for butting in on your diary and am quite happy for you to tell me to mind my own if you want and I promise I won't take offence !.

Take care Loxxie and have a great day !

Hi loxxie thankyou for your support hun. Mr evil is good at doing that creeping up and sitting on your shoulder whispering in your ear, kick his a*s hun. I feel much better now I have slept just gearing up for my meeting will let you know how it goes hunx again thankyou for all your support hun xxx

He sure is a persistent P***k...sitting in my shoulder all sodding day....I would say the worst it been in 30 odd days....keep telling him to bog off.. ! ..i cant play anyway...so its not a real problem....im just fecked off hes bothering me ....

Hi loxxie,

Keep kicking the addiction into the gutter where it belongs, it simply hates that, and each day you will get stronger, it hates thst too,

Keep going slowly but surely, it's the best way to keep going OAU, which your barriers 100% closed and your guard tightly up

Well done loxxie,

Suzanne xxx

Yes, he's a persistent little b'stard all right. He tries it with everyone....he lets you start to think you're safe...that you're never going back and then he starts the "20 quid won't hurt" line. But it does hurt ( I know, I fell for his lie). It really hurts, because it won't be 20 quid and it won't be "just one go"...but you know that and that's why you're not listening to him. He might also try to get you thinking about ways to get round your blocks or he'll start telling you that after all these days you're actually in control and you'll be able to play and keep it in check. Lies, lies and more lies! Good job you're not falling for his nonsense. Stay strong and eventually he'll f**k off 🙂

LifeBegins x

Hi Loxxie I just want to say Hi and that I'm new to the forum today I want to write a first post in the new members section but I just don't know where to start This has been creeping up on me for weeks and months as I have been emptying my bank account into online slots accounts It all started last April with a modest win following an introductory offer on one of the main sites I can't turn back time but what damage I have done I'm a single mother to two and I can do I'll afford the losses Im all out of excuses now for bills, rent and loans etc and I can't see a way forward I get what you mean by the "a tenner won't hurt" I said that yesterday and lost £250 That's half my rent that is due tomorrow I have never felt in such a dark place My kids aren't going without but any extra has been blown trying to scrape back previous losses The worst part is feeling I can't tell anyone I have relied on my mother too much in the past for day to day bail outs and it would break her heart if she knew what I had done I know it has to stop so I guess the best think to do is write off losses and sit tonight and exclude myself from everywhere online Finances are a mess and I feel like I'm at the bottom of a black hole looking up but not knowing how to get out How can these companies mascerade what they are really all about behind their glossy adverts Anyway I just want to say that reading your experiences has really inspired me Thanks so very much Steffi

Hi stefi. ..welcome...this is a great place to start...ring gamcare help line they won't judge you sweetheart...but they will give you great advice....good idea to exclude from all sites...I've gone one step forward and gave my daughter my laptop...and got block on my phone....it means I can't gamble....which makes me very safe.....you do need to talk to someone love...I don't know your relationship with your mum love ....but it's good to have support....debts....well yes you have to forget the losses ....it's gone...they won't be back....rent is a high priority ...so needs sorting...is it a authority house...if you ring them love ...they will help...if it's private...can you speak to your landlord...nip it in the buds love before you get in any deeper...you will not win by gambling....it will rip you up and spit you out....i wish you well my love...x

Thank you Loxxie. I'm feeling very overwhelmed by it all tonight but I'm going to ring the help line tomorrow. I just need to get the words out to someone. Thanks so much for being so suppotive, it's like a cloud breaking just to have one other person know and understand. I'll be back in touch soon if that's ok. Thanks again and you take good care Steffi xxx

Hi loxxie, it's such a good feeling to be an inspiration to others and be able to support them. It's great that they feel at ease to talk to you and it's clear that your diary will attract many. Well done for staying gf xx

Steffi....you will feel so much better when you speak to someone ....
And they will give you advice on how to sort the debts best....why not go on to recovery diaries on here and start doing one...it's great...you can then get help from all the others on here....if you don't feel like doing that just yet....then feel free to shout to me...hope you get a goods might sleep x

Thanks Tilley...I think it's just because there are so many of us out there caught by these dam online slots...it all starts so innocently...targeting mums at home...then before we know it...wallop...the damage is done....if my story brings help to anybody then at least something good has come from it....and it helps me as well...makes me think things through....and being on here keeps me busy ....hope your doing ok Tilley....x

Let's hope today is a better one...yesterday's urges were horrible....just wanted to scream at that voice in my head...""f**k off...i cant gamble so your wasting your time edging me on "...where do they come from...I'm a semi intelligent last....so why is my mind trying to play tricks on me...arghh...lol

o*g what have I missed? burning of bras. mankinis, leather shorts, g**P masks and illicit affairs. LOL can't leave you all alone for 5 minutes (snigger).

Loxxie hun your doing great and especially as you are fighting those feelings of that little red devil, you seem to be fighting it well so stay strong girl.

Steffi hun, you sound in turmoil so I hope you've took some positive action towards getting gambling out your life. I couldn't see a diary for you but please stick around as this is a great place both for support and advice. x

Lol first step....yes the boys were dressing up on here the other day....so glad we don't do pictures : )...yes I've struggled a bit ....but for now I've pushed the urge away...just....and probably only because my barriers are so high I can't ! but never say never.......

Steffi....I hope your still hanging around here love...we are a good bunch who have walked in your shoes...so get a diary going so we can all keep in touch....you never know those naughty boys may even describe there under wear to you lol...

Illicit affairs....I've just had a five year one with a f*****g slot machine....so won't be trying that....just yet : )