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Great post Loxxie and very honest , I can totally relate to the relapsed spurring you on and said a similar thing in one of my old posts , people couldn't understand how I felt that way but the way I saw it was that it was helping me and recovery is first and formost about ourselves so if that's seen as selfish then so be it ! Congratulations on the 5 weeks , you're doing great !!

Hi, Loxie,

Definitely agree that it's a vile addiction and that we haven't walked in each other's shoes. And I agree that digs for no good reason aren't right but references to it can't always be avoided.

The main thing is that the gf days are mounting up and you're committed to recovery.

As to Making Life Changes, you'll make any decisions that you may need to when you are ready. For me, the way I see it is that I'm responsible for changing my situation - it needed changing- there are no white knights. I can't be a little victim any more, it's down to me to decide if my experience is going to ruin my life or not, I'm working on not but it's a long term work in progress.

And I suppose the other caveat is that although change is hard and best done at the right time, not doing anything to change things is also an effective decision. For me, it was a bad decision that I made first time round and not a mistake that I intend to repeat.

Keep up the good work, best wishes,

CW

I understand cw...our stories show the two sides of the coin...and it's good that each of us can talk to the other sides....I'd love nothing more to sit diwn with hubby for a good old yap about my gambling....yes I would take the questions...sadness...disbelief. .shock...etc. ..but it wouldn't be as simple as that...this is a man who causes world war 3 when I havnt replaced an empty toilet roll or put his things away in the wrong place !. .like you said I will come to my desicions in my own time when the time is right...but at the moment my recovery is top of my list....if I'm honest our marraige has never been right...ok...so there's always to sides but I really feel that an unhappy marraige let me fall into the gambling world....I stupidly saw it as a way that ..if I had that big win I could escape and start again...well we know that was a stupid thought....so with the counselling I will 're build myself to be an even better person than I was before....and maybe when I've got some more strength I can move on...who knows.....great talking to you...

Hi loxxie and a huge congratulations on 5 weeks gamble free your doing fantastic hun, and really glad your getting support from your daughters x tc hun big hugs xxx

Hello there lovely loxxie! How fantastic to get to 5 weeks and have come on so well. It's strange when you think we all have different lives, different responsiblities and yet we are all in the same boat with this odious addiction. And, we all deal with the fallout in different ways. I think you are doing completely the right thing by not involving your husband in your addiction and recovery as we are hard enough on ourselves without anyone else reminding us all the time how stupid we have been!

Your support on this forum is invaluable, especially to new members. Keep up the good work...you're a good'un xxx

Thanks Annie...lovely sunny morning here....least it won't be clouded by those slot machines...argh...can't belive how I would wake up and rush to put the laptop on to gamble....sick ! hope all of you are having a good morning as well.....and if your not ...remember it will soon pass...don't give in ...keep pushing through the mist and fighting those urges...nothing terrible is going to happen if you don't gamble today....but it will if you do !. ...xx

Lazy day today...been sofa surfing and on here most of day...can't seem to get going !. ..maybe its my age lol....no urges...no energy...when will my oomf return !

I've got a spare bottle of oomph if you want but you have to go careful as its super strength , I'll send you some anyway ! LOL ! Ps can you let me know when it turns up ?

Lol..Alan....I'll take two please....just hope it's a busy night in the bar...or I may fall asleep xx

Lol..Alan....I'll take two please....just hope it's a busy night in the bar...or I may fall asleep xx

Well day 37 ....happy with that : )
Wonder what today will bring...haircut ..catch up with daughters for a coffee....usual household duties...normal non gamblers day I suppose...blimey...it's weird to think 5 weeks ago I would have never thought like that...face in laptop spinning away like a zombie...making excuses to everybody..
.sorry can't meet up to day...lots to do ! ...haircut...only when i couldnt see out from under a mamouth fringe..
House work...quick skid over the top before hubby home... mind you..the domestic godess in me is taking longer to return !
But I'm not going to let that bother me yet...lol.
And as for those spinning reels of debt..destruction. .and misery...well they can jog on !
Reading so many diarys on here with regard to online slot addiction....it's scarey how many are sucked in....and I think it's only the tip of the iceberg...the secret nature of it...not having to even go out the door...knowbody need ever know your where playing....I don't suppose anything can be done about it but I think it's a problem still only in the boiling stages....I've read several serious crime reports...in which the offender was addicted to online slots...and all where women....desperate women....who just got into deep....so sad...these sites should have massive warnings. ..like on f**s...oh well...rant over...hope your all going to enjoy a nice gamble free Friday....xxx

So today's been busy...had a haircut....so i can at least see how...eyebrows waxed... ( nothing else Alan ! : ))...coffee with eldest daughter cuddle with new grandson....brought other grandson home with me to give daughter a break from a 4 yr old....quick bit of housework....met daughter number two with granddaughter..
Nice hectic lunch in cafe with two toddlers and 15 yr old son and daughter....quick shop....home ..grandson staying tonight....all ready to open bar at six !. ....ok I here you all say ...how boring...but actually it's been wonderfull...Being a normal mum and nanny....and the moral of the boring post is ...not thought id slots ..all day...not once....wonderfull....head and heart feels great....but as we all know so well....that can change in a flash...so that's why we all take little steps....hope you have all had a good day.....and if you havnt ....don't beat yourself up....just take each day as it comes ...xxx

How wonderful Loxxie that you are having a 'normal' day. I love spending time with my family, especially were wee babies and toddlers are involved. You are right it's so much better than being all zombified in front of a f*****g computer screen!! No longer are we slaves to this destructive addiction. Keep up the good work my lovely xxx

Thanks Annie...it sure is...just wondering how before those men in the mankini...and leather shorts take to comment on the waxing ! ! ! : )

I'm not quite sure why my name came up in the same sentence as waxing ? but your too late anyway , in all fairness I'd have struggled with the shorts otherwise . LoL !