Online slots...

So the summer holidays are nearly over...it's just flown by..loads of great days out with kids..hubby..grandkids. ...lots of memories made....wonderfull to have the cash for treats...and even better to enjoy spending the money with the family instead of thinking " that's my slot money"...some different to last summer...pubs had the best summer since I've been here...but boy it's been hard work keeping up with all the jobs...but great feeling to think I've done it...and I won't be just feeding the cash into an online slot....
I've excepted all asspects of what my addiction done to me..
The losses
The damage to many relationships with friends and family
The lies...
The secrecy
The loneliness
The guilt
I can't change any of those things.....
But I understand now how my addiction got such a grip on me. ...how I thought the answers were in an online slot machine...
're building relationships has been a wonderfull thing I've been allowed to do due to having understanding family and friends....and once the initial bomb had blown and the dust started to settle I can honestly say it's been a wonderfull journey....I'm a happier person...I can process problems myself...instead of sticking my head in a slot machine...I'm much more tolerant and can look at situations from all sides now....
I've been lucky...my family and friends have stood beside me in my recovery....but it's me that's made the changes and decisions to not play the slots anymore...me that's put wrongs right...me that's kept myself gamble free for all these days....
When I started this journey all those days ago my head was a complete mess....everything was a mess....now my futures clear....my addiction will always be with me ....I respect it emmensly...will I let it rear it's head again... ..well ...I can't really honestly answer that one because that's in the future...and none of us know what that holds....I rarely even think about the slots now...adverts...emails...people talking about them don't bother me....don't make me want to play...I'm able to think " I don't do that anymore"
The past has gone...
Tommorrows not promised
So it's only today that really matters
So that's how I've done it...and will always continue to do it..
each day at a time..
Your life will change...if you change it !
Anyway...enough of this old rambling on...I've got chores to do
Take care x

Loxxie 230 not out. Coming up on 8 month's well done you

The doctors just said I had a gut infection and a fischer which was bought on by the infection.
But I'm good now back up and running. My first day back today after almost 2 weeks off. Feels like I've never been away tbh lol
Mud and water is how I spend my week lately lol

I did have a bit of a bad patch a couple of week's ago
But I've dusted myself down and I'm back on it.

Good to see all it good your end
Keep at it and it will keep getting better
Xx

Loxxie wrote: So the summer holidays are nearly over...it's just flown by..loads of great days out with kids..hubby..grandkids. ...lots of memories made....wonderfull to have the cash for treats...and even better to enjoy spending the money with the family instead of thinking " that's my slot money"...some different to last summer...pubs had the best summer since I've been here...but boy it's been hard work keeping up with all the jobs...but great feeling to think I've done it...and I won't be just feeding the cash into an online slot.... I've excepted all asspects of what my addiction done to me.. The losses The damage to many relationships with friends and family The lies... The secrecy The loneliness The guilt I can't change any of those things..... But I understand now how my addiction got such a grip on me. ...how I thought the answers were in an online slot machine... 're building relationships has been a wonderfull thing I've been allowed to do due to having understanding family and friends....and once the initial bomb had blown and the dust started to settle I can honestly say it's been a wonderfull journey....I'm a happier person...I can process problems myself...instead of sticking my head in a slot machine...I'm much more tolerant and can look at situations from all sides now.... I've been lucky...my family and friends have stood beside me in my recovery....but it's me that's made the changes and decisions to not play the slots anymore...me that's put wrongs right...me that's kept myself gamble free for all these days.... When I started this journey all those days ago my head was a complete mess....everything was a mess....now my futures clear....my addiction will always be with me ....I respect it emmensly...will I let it rear it's head again... ..well ...I can't really honestly answer that one because that's in the future...and none of us know what that holds....I rarely even think about the slots now...adverts...emails...people talking about them don't bother me....don't make me want to play...I'm able to think " I don't do that anymore" The past has gone... Tommorrows not promised So it's only today that really matters So that's how I've done it...and will always continue to do it.. each day at a time.. Your life will change...if you change it ! Anyway...enough of this old rambling on...I've got chores to do Take care x

Good on you Lox x

Thanks smoolet. ..
Hope your ok...how's it going
Good idea to start a diary...then you can get help and support from lots of others on here
Take care

Good post Loxxie

Great to read you are doing so well Loxxie

All the best

Damo x

You know it doesn't take much to make an old man happy Lox :))

It's one of those posts that make me smile :))

Thanks Honey , stay safe and have a great day x

Really inspiring post Loxxie!

Goes to show how happy you can be without gambling, definitely inspired me to keep on going!

Lol...very good toad. .
Your a poet and didn't know it ! !
: )

Could have been a lot worse Lox , that was pretty mild compared with I've been called by some , he'll get the hang of it one day ?

Seems to have been cut off in his prime again , shame coz all I have to look forward to now is worming the dog :((

xx

Off today for hubbies 6 month check up with oncologist. ...going to make a day of it.. bit of shopping...lunch...appointment this afternoon....sure it will all be fine..but always a tense time in the home. ...also another reminder how far I've come in my recovery since his last check up 6 months ago....feeling at peace knowing I can deal with whatever is chucked at me now without running to an online slot machine....something I could never have imagined saying all those days ago : )

Morning luveerly , just popped by to say that I hope all goes well for Hubby and you today :)) x

Hi,

Just popping in to say good luck x

Yo big brothers al and balvo..
All good today...hubby another six months clear ...will still have six monthly checks for another three years...then anually till five years....chemo...surgery...radiotherapy. ...all worked and done it's job....thank god for our nhs....x