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Hi there me luverly one , huge congratulations on reaching the double century xx , I knew you'd smash it no problem , right from the start you had the determination to this through and I'm absolutely sure you'll continue doing what works to keep you safe .

No luck involved with you girl , it's all down to your willpower and your determination to have a better life for you and your's .

I'm proud of you Loxxie and send my love and my thanks for all the support youv'e given me along the way :))>

Thanks for your earlier post , just finishing off packing , then a quick hoover up so it's nice and cklean for the burglars :((.

Take care of yourself hun and catch up with you when I get back xx

It been a pleasure to follow your journey. The courtier took to clean was the turning point for you. You've been given lots of advice and passed it on and supported so many people. Anyone who hasn't should read your diary its full of joy and inspiration.

Keep cooking your spud your way it's working. X

KTF

Thanks you guys. ..
My life is mine again....
I will always respect my gambling addiction..
I will always remember the dark place it took me to !
I will always work hard to remain gamble free. ...
If your just staring out on your gamble free life. ..good luck...work hard on your journey...stay focused...stay safe..stay here !
I did....and oh boy I soooo glad I did xx

200 days, well done you. Amazing girl, keep up the good work. xx

No major things to report from loxxie....
I sleep at night...
I can look my family in the eye..
I don't dread phone calls...
I don't dread the post...
My bills are sorted..
I've got money in the bank..

All the things I thought I would get from a win on the online slots !

Lol...got them all now ....
Because I havnt played online slots !. ..
Been a tough battle guys...and I will fight every day if need be to keep my list in tact !
Had a mooch round here tonight...lots of early people from when I first joined seem to have gone awol. .. maybe just not posting....either way. ...hope your all ok x

Done a lot of thinking about recent "fallouts" on here...yes I'm hacked off about how a user can get under the skin of so many of us....how he can manipulate admin into apearing as the good guy...how I suspect that a lot of what is said may well be lies. ....how he constantly sucks energy and support from us all...to then shove it back in our faces.....but then he is a compulsive gambler ...so I don't suppose we should expect anything else from him....if he is the troll that many of us suspect....well...that's just plain sad. ...do I feel sorry for him....yep...I suppose I do a bit....stuck in whichever it is..compulsive gambler...or mad troll....his problem...not mine....I can't heel the world...I can't make him change......
I'm healing my world....I've made changes for myself...for my family....yes he wond me up big time.... but that's life I suppose...always will be people who are un help able. ...I will be very sorry if IT causes some of the best boys on here to leave or be moderated....i for one will miss them around here....but I can't change that...this place has been my safe place since I started my journey....and still will be...I'm stronger now...I'm happy...I won't let another compulsive gambler drag me back down to his level....

Hi loxxie, just popped in to say a big 'thank you' for your comments on my post. They really help us 'newbies' I'm looking forward to the day that I too can say 200 days gambling free! Congratulations on your fantastic achievement. I've read a bit of your diary - I'm looking forward to reading the rest when I have a couple of spare days!! haha!
Li'l miss x

Heya loxie it's dizzy I appear to have missed a big falling out what's happened it sounds awful I hope u r OK hun I'm still gamble free hope u are too let me know dizzy xxx

Ooh....these things happen ...yes I'm fine thanks love...all good ..been very busy with family and work ...not been in here much lately....so glad to hear your doing so well...x

Hi Loxxie,

Many thanks for your kind post. Now a drink on the bar sounds nice. Might need a CGU away day.

Best wishes x

A

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Morning Loxxie , Great to here from yer luveeerly and that alls good in your world :)) , I'm a bit like you in that I'm not spending as much time on here as I used to , I suppose thats a good sign really for both of us but like you I still come and have a nose around every now and again , TBH the day's do seem to fly bye now and I really don't day count anymore as It's just another day , ( never thought I'd say that againwhen I was going through the early stages).

Glad your busy in the bar , it all helps to pay the bills , although I've had most of August off this year what with the wedding and holidays , My daughter comes back from honeymoon today and I'm back to work on Tuesday :(( not looking forward to it at all , it's like the first day back at school after the summer hols ( remember that ) ? .

It's nice for me not to be in pain at the mo as the injenctions have helped so much but I now have to make a decision about the hip replacement , the surgeon said I deffo need it so just need to make a date really .

Really glad to see you doing so well Lox and it's so nice to look back and see where weve been and look ahead to enjoying life the way it should be :)).

Just off for a long walk with the kids and dogs so I hope you enjoy your day honey and I'll catch up soon , thanks for the drop by and love and kisses to you and yours xx

So how did you or do you stop gambling?FOREVER ! been clean 8 weeks, but still its in my head all the time, I suffer depression gambling actually helped me deal with it but then not anymore, its making it worse. AND I've just realised the BIG win doesnt stop you gambling OR bring REAL happiness unless you can stop. I Won life changing money last xmas, can show you site an ad I am still in , in case anyone thinks i'm not serious.SO I paid off mortgage for me and husband , gave my girls quite a bit to pay off student loans etc BUT never paid off my own debts after losing some more, so now got to deal with that, basically I want ME back, my gift for art and all the things I use to enjoy back with me, be grateful for any help, June . 60 yr old nan . Essex Girl LOL

Hi smoolet..welcome to the site..
It's hard work in the early days to not gamble...time makes it easier.. but you have to have things and people in place to help you....forever is a long time.. it's a lifetime....I don't know if I'll make it gamble free that long....what I do know is I will try everyday to not gamble....one day at a time....start a diary on here love ....you'll get loads of help and tips on how to make the journey safer... take care x

TY Lox its late so I wont go on at the mo as got work tomoz. I could have retired early if I had not lost alot of the money I won, at least I used SOME of it wisely. I now have to deal with my own debts and resentment towards my husband for not helping me now , after all , at least I helped us out financially altho I understand his mistrust. I would have laughed at someone 5 yrs ago if they had said I was capable of what I have done, and probably have condemned anyone else for doing it, although my struggle with depression has made me less judgemental. How I got like this I dont know, I think I used it to block my emotions. I am sick of working hard and paying it to credit cards with stupid interest, and my job being manual (care) and my age make every year that bit harder. I read Justyn Larcombes book and how he regained himself, I have also been in touch with him and he has been of great help at times. Any ideas about debt help appreciated. I will dream of getting myself back, the lady with a great talent for art, somethin else I gave up on the way. thankful for my Girls and grandkids, that keeps me going,Goodnite all x