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Congratulations Loxxie! 250 days is a great achievement and you're right to feel proud 🙂 All your hard work is paying off and it's great to see you reaping the rewards.

OAU. LB x

Hi loxxie, just popped on for a quick 5 minute read before bed and noticed your 250 days!!
There's no way I can let this pass without sending you my congratulations.
What a year for you, your husband and your family!
So lovely to hear you're in such a good place at the moment.
You truly are an inspiration to all.
Personally, you have helped me so much. You deserve your moment of glory, be proud, stay strong and long may it continue!! x

Wow 253 days!! What an AMAZING achievement! Huge well done! Thank you for popping on my wall and supporting me in my early days. C X

Thanks Hun I know all you at is true and I would say the same thing to anyone who posted the same self loathing s**t I know your right and I will enjoy it

Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is never promised so let's live for today.

KTF as always

Hi Loxxie , thanks hun . Sorry I wasn't around to wish you a big well done on your 250 day's but you know I was thinking of yer :))xx .

I just feel so whacked at the moment that its not leaving me a lot of time and I need to look after me for a while , hope things are all good with you love and am looking forward to reading some happy morning posts :))

Keep the boys in check won't cha and I'll just catch up when I can ,

Love and kisses xx

Blimey...friday again !
Been mega tired this week...must be due to a very busy weekend with very late nights...or my age !
Any way...not achieved much ..in practical terms...just the usual dommestic /pub chores. ..but that's ok I've spent a fair bit of time on here...reading...replying..to new stories almost daily....the raw pain and fear of another person chained to addiction arriving here broken and scared to the core...it's hard to try and comfort someone over a forum. ..I want to give a " it will be ok hug "..its good for me to remember those vivid feelings...hope that doesnt sound sick...
I try to get the balance right when replying...
I do worry when a new poster goes quiet. ..but I can't change that...so I have to accept it...
I'm awaiting next buzz of energy to arrive with me for next diy project...but slow in coming lol
Hubby away tomoz to some rally day...I'm having two grand children for day...because I want to...last year when he went I remember litteraly sitting at laptop all day....starring at a slot machine....feeding it money...then rushing around like an idiot to get jobs done....for me it's good to hold those memories in a box in my head...remember the ups and downs of my addiction...
I feel safe...I've no urges...no real thoughts about playing slots....if a fleeting moment flies over I can just think to myself...lol...I dont play slots anymore...and it's gone..
My bb is still locked to gambling sites so I couldn't play even if I wanted to....
I'm life excluded from sites I played on..
But....I suppose if I really really wanted to id get to a site somehow...
But thankfully my strength I prayed for on my first post....is still with me ....
Thanks to you all on here that strength has continued to grow...
Have a good weekend everybody...
And if things are not good...
Do something about it...
Your choice x

I think you always get the balance right Loxie when posting and you lead by example. Have a lovely weekend with your grand kiddies.

Cathy

Hi Loxxie, I know you're with your grand babbas today doing normal things, boy it's good isn't it? re. your last post, it's not sick to want to remember those feelings, it's human. Those raw emotions we feel when we come on here for the first time, or after slip should never be forgotten, because we've all lived them and felt like we're in hell. We want to lick our wounds before the serious business of recovery starts, and you get it spot on every time. Much love to you, enjoy the excitement and mundane that recovery brings, and don't stop supporting, you're good at it.

Twinks xx

Busy busy day..
Droped hubby off this morning at 630 ! Boys day out to some rally day. .home...domestic chores...ironing... pub chores. .Grandkids ...shopping...park...usual mums/nans type of day...nothing out the ordinary. ...unless of course like me you became addicted to online slots.....those normal type of days didn't happen when my addiction had me by the
balls ... ( you know what I mean )
But......they do now....and ok at fifty something years old the grandkids knackered me and I was actually releived to open the bar at six and see my daughters arrive to collect my little darlings....steady night in the bar...hubby returned after a great boys toys day....me....I'm off to roost ! that's a west country saying for bed !
Just thought id leave a cheery post for those boys out there in the morning !
X

Hiya Big "L" , just stopped off to say hi and hope you and yours are all good , you whizz round this forum like a Tazmanien Devil sometimes , It's like a big whirlwind of dust , I just seem to catch up then your off again whoooooooooooooooooooosh !! .

Great to see Loxxie , keep doing what works Hun :)) xx

LOL ! I meant "Big" as in wise , great , inspiring , Phew ! , glad I dug myself out of that one :)) , not sure about you sending Deano pic's of yerself doing daily household chores but if that's what he's into who am I to argue , sure there's a website for that sort of thing though instead of him bothering you all the time ?

Remember OOP's upside yer head , I probably invented it and with my hips its the only dance I'm now capable of :((

xx

Hey lox thanks for the drop by. All good just now.....long may it last.

Always good to see/read that things going well your way as well.

Damo x

Hi Loxxie,

Thanks for the pop in on my diary. A good day was had by all.

Best wishes x

Friday yet again..
Been a bit of a lazy mare this week...only really done what I've had to ! lol
Spent a day with daughters chilling on the sofa....I'm taking them to London for an over night stay to see the bodyguard. ...be lovely to just be us three. ...and was a very proud moment when I told them I was paying....
Also hubbies birthday next week...arranged an internal UK flight as we've never flown...well he's gone up....but parachuted down....so a day out as a surprise will be a nice treat for him...
Just spent ages in town trying to find a toy aeroplane to wrap for him as a clue...I don't dwell on all the birthdays/ xmas/treats etc that I never really put any effort into whilst in the grips of my addiction....i am just doing it right now ! and it's a pleasure to do..
Having extra money...simply because I'm not gambling is a wonderfull feeling....and respecting it for what it now does for me...spent hours on line getting best prices for London trip...and the surprise flights...
Seems like a dream now...how I would have juggled my last fiver...just to deposit and play the slots....but like I said. ..I can't dwell on the past....I've accepted everything that went with my addiction.....and all I can do is concentrate on my future....one day at a time....in my first post...I said.." please let my strength continue ".... and I'm proud to say it has...because I've made that strength.....stronger !
Lots of New people arriving here almost daily....very sad ...but it happens...and will always happen...different stories to tell...but actually there all the same....
Broken people from both sides of the fence....
NOTHING is unfixable ....
The addiction tells us it is...
Make the changes ....
And you will see the changes slowly start to happen....the things that we all desperately wanted when we arrived here...
Who can do it for you ?
Knowone....only you !
Stay strong ...

Hi loxxie, every now and again will you jot down a post like the above? It recharges my gambling free batteries!!
Lovely to see you are reaping your rewards - enjoy! x