Hi
I'm really proud of myself over something. If I make it to Friday I will reach 100 days GF, something I never thought was possible after approximately 16,100 days gambling.Â
In action I would shout my achievements from the roof tops so that everyone knew to ensure accolades would fly my way, boosting my inflated fake ego.Â
So, to celebrate the 100 days, I have recognised that it's good to treat oneself with something small. I was racking my brains what I would like to do in order to mark this milestone if i make it. A chinese takeway, not had one of those for a long time. Rent a brand new film on Sky or Amazon as we've been keeping costs down since I lost my job ? Maybe go out for a meal but that's really difficult having two disabled children. None of these felt quite right.
Two days ago I went to a GA meeting in London. It was very different to my home meeting that i go to. It was traditional so no one said their name unless they were sharing. Each share would come to the front of the room and share from there. The seats were in rows rather than the circle of love at my home meeting and no one shares their days GF or abstinence date. Although it was different and my sponsor was there, It took me out of my comfort zone. I always thought that gambling gave me confidence but without it, my confidence is absolutely truthful and i enjoyed the meeting and had no reason for fear.
It's a pain and quite expensive to get there from where I live and it means getting home at Midnight. I've decided that although no one calls out their days GF I am going to celebrate my 100 days at the same GA meeting next Friday. What better way to celebrate it, at a GA meeting where I will be the only one who knows that it's a 100 days. I still need to get there, one day at a time but that's what I hope I will be doing.
Keep strong everyone. Reborn from addiction
Hi
I'm really proud of myself over something. If I make it to Friday I will reach 100 days GF, something I never thought was possible after approximately 16,100 days gambling.Â
In action I would shout my achievements from the roof tops so that everyone knew to ensure accolades would fly my way, boosting my inflated fake ego.Â
So, to celebrate the 100 days, I have recognised that it's good to treat oneself with something small. I was racking my brains what I would like to do in order to mark this milestone if i make it. A chinese takeway, not had one of those for a long time. Rent a brand new film on Sky or Amazon as we've been keeping costs down since I lost my job ? Maybe go out for a meal but that's really difficult having two disabled children. None of these felt quite right.
Two days ago I went to a GA meeting in London. It was very different to my home meeting that i go to. It was traditional so no one said their name unless they were sharing. Each share would come to the front of the room and share from there. The seats were in rows rather than the circle of love at my home meeting and no one shares their days GF or abstinence date. Although it was different and my sponsor was there, It took me out of my comfort zone. I always thought that gambling gave me confidence but without it, my confidence is absolutely truthful and i enjoyed the meeting and had no reason for fear.
It's a pain and quite expensive to get there from where I live and it means getting home at Midnight. I've decided that although no one calls out their days GF I am going to celebrate my 100 days at the same GA meeting next Friday. What better way to celebrate it, at a GA meeting where I will be the only one who knows that it's a 100 days. I still need to get there, one day at a time but that's what I hope I will be doing.
Keep strong everyone. Reborn from addiction
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That is amazing
Think get a takeaway with your kids too. Everyone likes a party.Â
A great achievementÂ
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Wow! Thats fantastic! Go and enjoy your treat you deserve it!
Hi StuartÂ
Massive well done for getting to almost 100 days absolutely fantastic! Also a brilliant achievement to enter something out of your comfort zone. It's bizarre tho that no one can state the days theyve done. I hope I can get to that day 100 but I'm still taking it 1 day at a time. I'm at Day 16 and keeping busy, we've had our 2 daughters staying over the weekend and our 2 Grandchildren so been really busy I'm absolutely worn out lol but will be back on chatroom tomorrow with all of you. Keep going your doing absolutely brilliant
JennyjÂ
Hi Jenny and Strength
Thank you for your replies. It's nice to know people read my topics although of course they are just my thoughts that I like to get out of my head.Â
Strength, you mentioned you are getting your head around the technology and yes I can see them
Jenny, that one day at a time philosophy from GA is so important. It took me time to understand it but it's a basis to recovery. That and the opposite of addiction isn't abstinence it's connection. I could never do this alone after 5 decades of gambling. I soon came to realise that I was an expert on losing money, wasting large amounts of time, lies, cons, deceit, escapism, harm to myself and others but knew nothing about recovery. By connecting with the simple things in life and just taking to people it works
Chinese mate is my vote.....well deserved
Well done my friend 👏🏼Â
Not long for us now!! Â Keep focused and disciplined and in time things will turn around for us.Â
Hi Stuart & Strength
Yes it's been a difficult journey for me after 30 years of relentless heartache, the chasing the losses the sleepless nights and the guilt of big losses, and the lies, there comes a point I think we want to draw a line n change our lives. Its one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do is completely stop as after 30 years I thought I mastered how to play machines professionally but I was a fool to think that as the losses massively outweighed the silly little wins they gave. Despite all the heartache why did we keep going back for years n years, was it an escape that started out as fun but then turned into anguish, its absolutely nuts eh and that's the power of this addiction, so what we're doing is defying with all our might to stop gambling and restart life to a happier life and that takes every strength we have. Let's all stay strong and keep going and release ourselves from the grip it had on all of us. One day at a time 🙏jennyj
Hi Jenny
Absolutely !!! I know from your words on here they you have the power within you to do this and find your higher power whatever that is for you. Stay strong 💪Â
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