Sick to my stomach!!!

Martin

Welcome to the forum

As you have seen already this is a very supportive site with people very similar to yourself , the real positive is we all understand how you feel and want to help

Stick with your diary and make full use of it , it's good to set short targets take that even further and take it one day at a time that works for many of us

I wish you all the best

Castle2

Day 1 completed!!!!

Thanks castle2 for your kind advise! i came onto this website tonight to remind myself how I felt last night after losing nearly 500. I read, and the feeling of guilt and sickness came back!! I am determined to achive this 7 day goal and would like to be here on Saturday saying day 7 completed! The only person who can really do this is myself and with all your support along the way i know I can get through this! I have tried so many times before but my heart was not really in it 100% back then.

One day at a time martin! That's what I keep saying, but I'm scared to face a weak moment when there is spare cash in the bank and I know I will defiantly want to gamble. The only way out of this is to stop l! I know I have a problem and would like to be able to live my life with out constant worry of when I am going to get my next big win!

I will come back every night and when I have week spells! Sorry to ramble but you are all helping me knowing I'm in the same boat!

Thanks, martin 🙂

good work martin keep posting.

Thanks For your post Stephen.

I am really giving this all my power to defeat this. This Time! Nearly day 3 achieved and feeling really positive. I know not to let my guard down though!

I overcame my first hurdle when I found a scratchcard I had bought before I stopped. I'm in Asda right now and just had to post! I cashed it in and put the fiver straight into my wallet. I have NEVER done this! I always buy another! It was so tempting but I never gave in!

Thanks for all who have read so far and I will keep going day by day!

Martin

Hi Martin

Good luck on your quest of 7 days gamble free. You have come to a very informative and supportive site and read as many diaries as you can as this is a great way of getting hints and ideas on how to achieve your goals. The triangle is a good one

Time

Opportunity

Money

Break this triangle and this will help, not sure what your area of gambling is but if online one lady on here asked her bank to stop her card for online purchases. Then self excluding and blocks can be downloaded for free. Here's wishing you succeed and keep strong and focused

Cheryl xxx

Thanks for your support Cheryl! My main area of gambling is online! I started off in the fruit machine 5 jackpots when I was 14 ish, I would blow my weekend part time wage chasing a 5 jackpot!! My mum would have to drag me out at the weekends! This has progressed from there from bookies to massive amounts of money online through an unthinkable amount of online accounts, but this time I have some kind of different fight in me who is determined to beat this urge! I have so far managed to get where I need to be! Not one penny on gambling so far day 6 tomorrow so all good so far! I have came to bed tonight early, I have a cheque due to clear at midnight and I have got that feeling in my stomach! And voices in my head saying it's only a tenner martin!

Instead of giving in I came on here to remind myself what a tenner leads to! And it always does!

I WILL beat this!!!

Keep very strong Martin, I'm only on day 9 and like you I cant trust myself when there is money in my account. It is so important you take as much temptation away from yourself to get some control back, I have excluded myself from all sites, closed my accounts, emailed all the companies stating I my address tries to open another account please block it and most of all I have put betfilter blocks on all computers. A little voice in my head was saying not to last week and keep options open but I knew I couldn't as I would fail.

Keep strong you can do it

Gemgem

Hi Martin,

Welcome to the forum.

Yes that tenner would just be the start of feeding the addiction.

WE CANNOT WIN BECAUSE WE CANNOT STOP.

Use every barrier you can to keep abstaining.

My addiction is/was online slots too, I made sure I only left 8 in my account I withdrew the rest, because I could not not deposit with less than that tenner.

But I know now if I placed that tenner even 300 would not be enough, so there is no point in placing that first deposit.

We have a triangle on this forum,

Time

Money

Location

If we take one of these away it makes it impossible to play.

Stay strong and focused and win every day you don't play.

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Hi Martin and all

The best way to stop online gambling is give your card to a family member or Partner or friend to hold card permanently until your responsible again . And self exclude on line all sites used even change site id and pin or password numbers while looking away ! it will make you feel good to :o) on all these sites you have used Oh yes parental control on computer or site blockers .

I have got my card back after 6 years with the previous belief i could not abstain from gambling frightening for me worrying to believe you cant have a cash point or visa card back ! But luckily with the card back I only had two lapses of around 100 pounds on two different occasions i have not gambled for quite a few months now and luckily or being responsible for my own actions with over a 1000 pounds in bank and available on a card to draw out I didn't gamble the lot thank god .

For me it has taken " faith " and common sense at the age of 51 years their is still hope after losing everything wife , son , being homeless etc . On writing this the Gambling thoughts and urges have gone ! is that possible ? Well done keep on the path of happiness .

Dave

Thanks everyone for your kind words! It means a lot! I have had a few drinks tonight and the feeling is back! It's here just now and I am trying to control it! I came on here to remember what it leads to!

Do I made my 7 days a whole week!! I've not been able to say that in about 10 years! Honest m!but honesty thanks so much for a your support it means a lot!

So here to the next 7 the 19th Octover then it will be 14 days 😄!! Hope everyone is going stong

Martin

Hey everyone! I've just read the above post! I have to laugh! Must of had one to much! Well here I am day 8 completed and not one bet!

Hope everyone is doing well! 🙂

Hey everyone! Hope we are all doing well.

I have now completed over 2 weeks in fact it is day 16 tomorrow 100% gamble free! Last night was a test. I had been at a family gathering and it was a really good night until I got home and wanted to gamble! This was my favorite time to play, after a couple late on a Saturday night when no one could see me, I would love to go into my world where no one could interrupt me.

Anyway just checking in, still reading lots of diarys and my next goal is 3 weeks can wait!

Thanks again, M