Starting again

HI Carl... I can only empathise with your situation Carl. Ive been there what seems like a million times before.

I have no off switch when it comes to gambling. The only solution is not to gamble at all. Same goes to you my friend.

Keep working at it... S.A

Thanks SA. That is my only way not to gamble at all.

Today day 2 yesterday I went out for the day with my dad spent £5 and had more enjoyment from that than £1000 I lost last week.

Gonna take me and the dog out today. Still thinking of ways to stop and I will never be cured as there is not a cute. Stay away from the bookies ie town centres and never bet on anything. I did 5 weeks not long ago so here's to another. No money at mo anyway. Got plans in place to pay off cc by next march. But I can't spend a lot. People say treat yourself on the way. My treat will be having no credit card debt. It's only 10 months of no gambling. No town centres no pubs no interrnet. I will do it as I'm above all this c::P and I have the will to quit this s::t. Feeling low but goals need hitting and I will f::king hit them. Rant over.

Well im on day 3. im a bit bored today, washed the car done cleaning i will walk the dog in a bit. but thats hows it;s got to be for the next 232 days. as i have no money and i have to pay off money too. dreading the rest of the year, but my own fault.

Ordered my 2 pound credit report to see how bad it is but i only have one loan and credit card debt. So it cant be that bad. I think it is the number of times you try and apply for credit that messes it up.

Back to work tomorrow and im glad to be going back, i was gonna do diy on outside of the house be the weather has been so rubbish i couldn't do it.

Mind over matter (no town centres) for the year. and even then i will have to be on guard.

Day 4 today. Back to work today, did i wanna get up ths morning well no. i was so tired but i went in and i liked being back at work something on my mind to do. still sick from all the mess i got in last week.

I had to get a little loan out to straighten my accounts out gonna use most of it to pay some credit card down. as when 0% runs out it will be unmanageable, thats in jan. Got microsoft money put on my laptop so i can manage every penny from now till jan. i will still owe some money on a loan but that credit card needs sorting.

Anyway no urges today in fact sick of it im sick of thinking about it sick of talking about it and sick of the mes im in. 8 months is not long tho.

long walks in the park with my dog after work will see me through till nov. and then really busy at work till jan so i will be ok.

On a tight budget till jan. it can be done. i was really thinking about selling my car. i could pay off the cc really quick if i did that. but i wanna keep it and the little loan i got today which is for only 12 months will help me big also told myself getting this loan means never betting again. The last chance i have of stopping. I will do this...

Hi it's weird how our brains switch off when gambling. Money loses its value. After we lose we start budgeting and we cope. That's another reason we have to get rid of this horrible addiction as turns us all into another specious! With no regard for money, and takes away so much more from us than we ever get from gambling. Keep the resolve going. Not easy but we are capable of much more than the label of being gamblers. Take care Mary

Well im on day 7 and im so happy i have got here now. First 7 days are always the hardest. This week just been to work and walked Toby after. Not been near a town centre. Got to keep this up untill all debts paid back. A bit sad not going anywhere but im liking the new free time i have with no gambling im finding stuff to do and getting to sleep more easy. hope you are all having a good weekend and trying your best to stay off gambling.

Day 8

im in bed having a pj day. Can't gamble on internet as I don't have it. And can't gamble in bed.

Flim day and Toby day. I will spoil him today.

Wishing all of you the best

carl Toby

Day 9

i missed all the bad weather we are having today as i finished early. Still thinking of the losses but im moving on as only time will heal my bank balance. always the same at my house and things are gonna change when i have paid off the loans and cc.

Sad but cant wait for jan i never thought i would be this bad ever but i can never have one bet again thats the only way.

feeling much better not gambling for 9 days may it continue.