Starting over again.

I feel ashamed too so you're not alone. But we will regain our dignity and self respect as the days pass by.

So I've had a few urges today. Massive argument with my ex/partner as we are trying to sort things out has put me in a bad place, feeling lonely and rejected and miserable. This is when the urge starts.
But I'm fighting it, on to day 5 gf if I can make it to Friday I know I can make it past Christmas as I'm working 12 hour nights this weekend so will have no time or energy for gambling. I can do this. I WILL do this x

I believe in you LH, rooting for you all the way. Things will start to look up if you allow them to.

Thankyou. I made it to day 5 and I'm feeling good x

Just popping in to say that I still haven't done any form of gambling or placed a sports bet since my last big loss....

Just really been keeping myself busy out of the house for the day etc....when left on our own I think the gambling mind can't take its toll

Good to hear Morga I'm pleased for you. I'm chilling drinking some wine now my kids are in bed after a mad evening with them being excited to finish school and having a friend over for tea. This is the kind of evening that would normally lead to gambling but instead I will finish my wine whole I watch telly then go to bed! And I'm putting almost 200 quid in my savings this week rather than spaffing it away online. Bring on day 6 x

Lh I have every faith in you you seem quite a determined person and I'm comin to sit in your boat!! I've made myself a promise that this time next year I will not be scrapin around I Wil have oddles of savings seems a better plan than feelin like a waste of space .. I have a very hyper child he breaks up from school tomorro so as it's my last day off before Christmas I plan to get everythin done rather than pondering over which sites t go on. I'm goin cold turkey I don't need to restrict my self WE ARE STRONGER THAN WE THINK AND COME HELL OR HIGH WATER MONEYS NOT GETTIN WASTED!!.. we are better than this we are better than a flutter that leaves you feeling like your heart totally dropped out ..Iv opened a new savings account and as of today if I feel like gambling I'm goin to transfer the money I would of wasted into savings win win cos I can't lose it then! .#winnernotaloser...

That's a great idea and exactly what I'm doing. So I can see exactly what I'm not losing! I have to say I'm loving the feeling of waking up knowing I still have money in my bank and that I didn't waste it last night. I'm dealing with a lot on a personal level right now but every time I get the urge I just remember how horrendous I felt last Saturday waking up to an empty savings account remembering that id just blown the lot. The disgust, the despair, the shame. Never again!

So here I am day 7 still going strong. Just transferred £150 into my savings account and made another payment towards a loan. I'm working 12 hour night shifts till Xmas so no time to even think about gambling, this is good news for me x

Hi I am new to this forum. Hit my lowest this morning after stealing the joint account card from my husband's wallet and spending all of our savings I a week of online gambling. Was only going to spend 50 quid but after the first loss I kept trying to win it back i never learn.
I am disgusted with myself I have ruinned xmas i am so selfish and pathetic. I have closed my pay pal account already had over all my wages to husband but this just makes me deceitful payday loans and credit cards. I hope I can kick this habbitt or I fear my marriage will be over. Hopefully being honest and talking about it in these forums will help

Talking about it is the best thing I've ever done it really helps. Start a recovery diary and check in every day. You've realised you have a problem that's the first step. Just take it a day at a time it's not easy but will be worth it. These have been the longest 7 days of my life! I wish you all the luck in the world x

I'm here and on day 8. Working 12 hour night shifts so no time to even think about gambling and honestly I really don't want to gamble at all anyway so I'm trying to hold on to that feeling! Hope everyone is well. On to day 9! X

Been so busy with work and Christmas not had time to post and not had time to think about gambling! Day 10 here and going strong. Merry Christmas to you all x

Merry Xmas to you too and well done on 10 days. I’m only on 2 and seems a lifetime ago since I was emptying all my savings in an hour. Great to keep a diary so hopefully in a years time we can have a great Xmas and look back at how much has changed in a year. Rich

I wish you all the luck rich, day 12 here and starting to think not about the gambling but the bloody money and time I've wasted and the self respect I've lost in the process.
And so I set myself up for a new year, a year where I'll b completely skint while I pay everything off and rebuild my savings. But a year that will define me and make me a better person. Starting on 1st Jan by re-self excluding my first account coming up for reopening and then picking them off one by one after that.