Still going strong

Hi wayforward - So pleased to read your positive post, and I hope you are having a good day with Mum and the dogs. It's so good to see your progress - well done on your Day 17 and

here's to many more good days ahead!

Joanna

Dear diary,

Day 21, past the 20 mark.

Haven't posted since day 17, been busy enjoying my recovery. Kept busy catching up with family and friends, oh and the garden...

Don't think about gambling during the week as previously. Go to work come home and occupy my mind with more positive exercises. Come Friday I prepare myself for the weekend ahead, always been my toughest time.

However, my preparation has worked up until day 21 so see no reason to change tack now. Things are getting easier as days pass, looking at the positive things in life rather then choosing the negative.

Financially, things are improving, seeing my son for the first time in a long time so what other excuse do I need to keep the faith...

Funny thing, since I stopped gambling my footie team seem to have improved.. mmm things really have improved for the better,,

Kick a demon today

Love peace

Day 21 get in my son..

Day 21, not gambled today. enough said really.

Its been tough as said before, never been one for words, quite boring really, but NO GAMBLING TODAY.

That's all I need to stay strong. My son is with me now and I am proud to be gambling free.

Me and my son are going to have supper and watch TV, movie etc.

I have to take a breath when typing this, simply because I cant take it all in. Oh my god, having my son here and not gambling today feels so good.

Well done me.

Kick a demon today

Love peace

Dear diary,

Day 26 and so pleased to get to this stage. Another weekend with no gambling.

Had my plans I place and plenty things to occupy my mind. For the first time gambling never crossed my mind really.

Spent Saturday with my beautiful son just chilling out. made some food and spent the evening talking and simply enjoying each others company without gambling being on my mind, happy days.

Sunday and a chill out day watching footie. Jack gone home, back to reality, ironing etc snooze....

No gambling today.

Kick a demon today

Love peace

Hi wayforward - Reading your recent Diary entries always cheers me up - a real 'feel good factor' in them. Well done on your 26 days - a whole month soon!

Best wishes

Joanna

Dear diary,

Well, day 30 today and no gambling, still going strong and still feeling good.

Had a great weekend with my son and mum. really getting back into work and have noticed a great improvement on that level too.

Looking forward to the weekend and being gambling free again. still have my guards up and am determined not to slip up at this stage, almost there one month, never would have dreamt of this previously.

I feel really proud of myself, its down to me, not forgetting the help from my friends on this forum.

Registered with a local charity organisation this week and looking forward to doing something different with the extra time on my hands during the weekends. I feel that I need to give something back, don't know why, just feel I need to.

My life feels better now, the garden looks good and my mum has her smile back. Seeing my mum smile again really makes me feel a million dollars.

Debts are being reduced and will be debt free in no time. Looking forward to booking my first holiday for an age this summer. Believe me, holidays and treats came second in my life when I was in the *** of Mr Hill and Mr Coral.

Well, Mr Hill and Mr Coral wont be getting my hard earned anymore, its mine, I earned it and wont be sharing it with those two rouges.

Hope everyone is well, I'll be posting over the weekend, may have a few sherbets to celebrate one month gambling free.

Kick a demon today

Love peace

Dear diary, for the third time today.

Frustrating writing post three times and internet crashing.

Anyways, day 33 gambling free. well done mate..

Short but sweet, going out to celebrate with a few glasses, why not, and maybe a new laptop...

Love peace

Hi wayforward - Many congratulations on your month (and a bit!) of sanity. I loved reading your post re. seeing your Mum smiling - made me feel very happy for you, and her.

Have a carefree summer, full of sunshine and contentment.

Joanna

Dear diary,

Day 39, still going strong.

Been to work today... volunteered, but productive day. Would never have volunteered whilst in the ***** of Mr Hill and Mr ***, actually enjoyed coming home having done a days work.

Cooking supper then watching footie, relax, chill out with my hard earned still intact. Feeling good, no feelings to stray to the dark side. Mum coming over tomorrow for lunch, shopping and to watch a DVD I bought for her.

It really does get better, although the guards are still well and truly up..

Kick a demon today

Love peace