WEEK 1 DONE

Hi

Please stick with your recovery.

You will be the beneficicery of your work.

A Life with pains being healed.

A Life with fears being reduced.

You reach a point where you feel good about your self and your life.

Dave L

Posted by: @jamie122813

Day 7 today without any real urges, been a busy week. I actually find it easier the early stages as the pain from the last bet is fresh, its further down the line complacency appears. 

In 2 minds about going back to GA, I have mostly positive experience with GA but there was a few things I didnt like, something to think about.

Hey - well done on doing a week gamble free, that’s amazing!! 
keep at it, you’ve got this. Onwards & Upwards! 

Posted by: @jamie122813

Day 7 today without any real urges, been a busy week. I actually find it easier the early stages as the pain from the last bet is fresh, its further down the line complacency appears. 

In 2 minds about going back to GA, I have mostly positive experience with GA but there was a few things I didnt like, something to think about.

Well done Jamie. Keep it up !!

Thanks guys for the positive comments.

Another day done without any issues, took the kids out for the day, 2 of my sons are autistic and can be challenging, managed to have a nice day though. 

Have a good weekend everyone 

@jamie122813 

Thanks for you sharing it is a sign of your strength being so open.

Taking your 2 autistic sons out is a wonderful thing to do.

As I got more in to my recovery I found my steel got more and more tested.

But that is a healthy thing.

Enjoy your life you deservee it.

Dave L

Hi

For me being busy and productive kept me on a healthy path.

Writing down my needs, writing down my wants, writing down my goals, very imortant.

Idle time was not healthy for me.

Take each unhealthy habit and exchange them in to healthy habits. 

It took me more than two meeting per week to stay and keep focused.

I was able to steer clear of all emotional triggers involving, not talk about gambling or money lost.

Keep busy and healthy

Dave L

Tough day today, woke up in horrendous mood and nothing seemed to improve it, got to a point my wife asked if I had been gambling (I hadn't). Shows what kind of person I was when gambling.

Thankfully managed to pull myself together and apologise.

Hope everyone has had a good weekend 

Hi

Those tough are testing days.

Do  you understand in more depth what your emotions and feeling were. 

If your wife questioneed if you been gambling did you answer in a calm voice.

It is good you have been able be more free of your fears. 

When I gambled I was not a healthy person.

To apologise is a very healthy interaction.

Love and peace to everyone.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham

Tough couple of days, horrendous mood and just nothing going right, I think it being the weekend and not gambling was a major part of the reason, thankfully no gambling and feeling a lot better today. Will make amends to the family today somehow.

Thanks for the comment Dave, as always you talk a lot of sense and very much appreciated.

Day 12 done and things are slowly picking up, 

Still in 2 minds about going back to GA, last time I was there I took a bit of resentment towards a few members.

Hi

I felt like I did not want to go back to the recovery program.

I think it was because I felt so guilty about yself and felt I had lost any vaue of myself going back to gambling.

Yes I often felt threatnened by people saying you have to do this or that.

I also often felt threatnened by people talking about God or religion.

In time I found certain meetings were not so threatenening to me.

I found meetings that focused how things were dealt in a healthy way that week.

People talking about rewarding them self.

And people getting more intimate with their familes.

My holding resentment indicating that I was not healing my pains.

Love and peace to every one 

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

Onto day 14 and struggling a little, yesterday I was very tempted to place a bet on, was thinking that a wee bet wouldn't hurt. Managed to fight through the urge and went out and watched the football. Thinking going back to GA on Wednesday.

Hope everyone is well

@jamie122813 

Hi

Onto day 14 that is very healthy.

What do you think your emotional trigger is.

I use to be filled with lots of fears, then I started to write them down that helps.

Just because we do nto gamble does not mean we will be struggling a little bit,

Going back to that first bet is the most painful bet you will have.

You watched the football did that help you.

Thinking about going back to GA on Wednesday.

Good for you that sounds like a healthy idea to me.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham UK

Not been in this for a while, although I have been reading peoples diaries just not been posting. Coming up for a month without a bet but very close to it today, was determined I could place an odd bet here and there. Thankfully I was miles away from bookies and when I was near one I had seen sense.