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Well done Stephen ,good to hear some great positivity in your post !

Keep working it , one day at a time my friend !

Best wishes .....Alan

Thanks guys its really appreciated.

Feeling good; staying calm and focused. I got paid yesterday and I didn't gamble. That's a huge achievement and I'm delighted the effort is showing reward.

Just a little note. Instead of gambling yesterday I went to the chip shop and got a meal for myself. I could feel my self worth improving

Day 29 gamble free.
Having trouble in work and I could easily use that as an excuse to gamble but I haven't.

Going on a stag on Thursday . so tomorrow I need to mind yourself .

Gambling is not a solution to a problem and negative feelings go away

Glad I'm home from the stag.

I was excluded so much I don't know why I was invited. Didn't enjoy my time and drank too much to feel part of the group.

But it has made me determined to focus on my recovery. And that's a positive.

35 days without a bet

Stephen2105 wrote: I haven't posted in a while but I felt it was a good time tonight to post. I have been going to GA meetings and receiving counselling. I am three weeks free from gambling. Today was payday so it's a huge achievement to not gamble. Work wise I am having a lot of hassle. Its distracting me from gambling which can be a good and bad thing. I'm seeking legal advice and I'm calm about it. Gambling wise I feel very proud. I'm not allowing the thoughts of gambling to be entertained in my mind. That's helping. I wish everyone well in their recovery. One day at a time . one hour at a time

Is it helping Stephen? Counselling and GA I mean? What do you get from it?

Its helping tri; writing a diary is great but I find I need to speak about my problems.
I'd be very isolated so to go to a meeting and speak helps me in social situations ; you can relate to the people who talk and realise that you're not alone.

Counselling helps to untangle a few knots in the brain ; doesn't always make me feel better but it helps me to understand things clearer

If you have issues with social confidence it's easy to have harsh post-mortems.

But give yourself credit for putting yourself out there. It's much easier to stay in yr comfort zone and be isolated. But becoming more social is a skill like anything else - you need practice and exposure.

By putting yourself out there the seeds get sown even if you can't see the fruit right now.

Anyway stag do's ARE hard if yr not in the inner circle. Partly because your either drunk or hungover for a whole weekend

Louis

Ah all the lads were getting lifts or taxis together from the airport home. I had to make my own way. Very depressing.

But I'm looking forward . recovery from gambling is my priority. Heading to a meeting tonight

So 5 weeks free from a bet.
Have started a good routine ; work, gym and then a meeting .

Got some good news today I passed my financial advisor exam. Really happy about that.

Won't be watching the football later I'm going to go to a meeting instead. My recovery is my top priority.

Have a safe weekend with the football starting . don't get involved with sweepstakes in work

Really struggling this weekend with my urges.
The football has been a trigger.

I've spoken about it in meetings and was told it will pass if I give it time.

Don't want to throw away my 40 days in recovery but this is so difficult

Sorry to give you a different experience other than your meeting, but my urges don't really pass stephen. Sometimes its a real ball ache!!! So what do i do? I deal with it through positive recovery activity, so meetings, counselling, speak to my sponsor and others who know a bit more than me. Most important Stephen, give yourself a break. Its clear your trying. Tri

I gave into my urges. The money saved over the 40 days was lost.

Yesterday i lost my months wage in 4 hours.

I had no clothes. The trousers im wearing today are missing a button and my underwear is fallen apart.

Continued drinking this morning so dont feel the hangover from the gamblin yet.

I havent accepted im powerless over gambling, every month i think i can go in and win a loittle bit of money and walk out.

Anyways ive given up now on gambling and ive decided to give up on life. Not in the suicide way becuase im a coward. I mean i will not talk to anyone. Ive knocked the phone off. Im not speaking to anyone in work. Time will pass and eventually ill be dead. Cancelled my counselling already.

I wish people well. Dont give into the urges. look at my post to help you.

Chat room doesnt work on my computer. Dont know if many people use this forum anymore. If someone could give me a chat later would be appreciated. [email protected]

Hi Stephen. Chat is on tonight 8-9...it should work on your phone (it does on mine).

Why not give gamcare a call now? They'll be able to help...even if you just want to unload...they're very good. Sounds like you could do with a bit of support right now.

LB x

Thanks lb I was in work so was stuck.

Will try the chat room on my phone