Hello everyone
After 6/7years of gambling hell I blocked my accounts, confessed all to my husband and since January we have slowly rebuilt our lives, my money was my own again and it felt good. This is why I am so ashamed to admit that last week I started on online slots again thinking that the odd £25 would be ok, well 5 days later I have spent all my wages before any direct debits have come out and have now not got any money to pay the bills eat or get petrol. I feel sick and I can't believe I'm back to feeling out of control and worthless again. It's like a self destruct button I just had to push. I've had hardly any sleep for 4 days and I'm at work now feeling like a zombie. I don't know where to go from here. I've told my husband who is supportive but bewildered and disappointed with me. I can't see anyway out of this mess And the worst thing is the feelings are so familiar.
Hi
Yes we all know that gut wrenching sinking feeling. Its Horrible but you must not let yourself sink and dwell on it too much. You now need to deal with it by realising you have entered a relapse stage and will relapse if any door is open. Painful as it is you must learn from it and your partner needs to know that the addiction is gripping and it is a form of mind control and mental illness
It is hard to understand how it can be so powerful but those are the tricks of the mind seeking its own gains.
You need help from your husband, gamcare, this forum and counselling. Your partner will be bewildered but you both now need to treat this addiction with the fear and seriousness it deserves.
You must now take ultimate pride in blocking from everywhere and fast. Gadgets will amost certainly need to be handed over and you have to consider yourself a compulsive gambler, way out of control with an addiction.
There is no shame in reaching out for help. How you are feeling now is what gambling does.....thats what it does as most people lose chase and keep losing
There are all sorts of psychological reasons why you do it. Right now you must fight this properly, block everywhere and have no access to getting in online. While your mind heals any urges cant be acted on and eventually you will wonder why you ever did it.
Ring gamcare as many times as you like because the one to one voice is helpful and theraputic.
The only way out of your mess is proving yourself again with all the help and monitoring you can get. You ideally need to be living on a sandwich allowance for a long while and providing receipts. Its not about treating you like a baby.....its about saving your quality of life. It will actually be a huge relief that people care enough to help you
Its tough words but I speak the truth. There is no room for half measures as what you have been doing will completely ruin you given a further chance.
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
Thank you I appreciate your response. I agree with your comments I cannot be trusted with money of my own. I am going to give control of all our finances to my husband. I've blocked myself and I have only a basic phone.
Joydivider wrote:
Hi
Yes we all know that gut wrenching sinking feeling. Its Horrible but you must not let yourself sink and dwell on it too much. You now need to deal with it by realising you have entered a relapse stage and will relapse if any door is open. Painful as it is you must learn from it and your partner needs to know that the addiction is gripping and it is a form of mind control and mental illness
It is hard to understand how it can be so powerful but those are the tricks of the mind seeking its own gains.
You need help from your husband, gamcare, this forum and counselling. Your partner will be bewildered but you both now need to treat this addiction with the fear and seriousness it deserves.
You must now take ultimate pride in blocking from everywhere and fast. Gadgets will amost certainly need to be handed over and you have to consider yourself a compulsive gambler, way out of control with an addiction.
There is no shame in reaching out for help. How you are feeling now is what gambling does.....thats what it does as most people lose chase and keep losing
There are all sorts of psychological reasons why you do it. Right now you must fight this properly, block everywhere and have no access to getting in online. While your mind heals any urges cant be acted on and eventually you will wonder why you ever did it.
Ring gamcare as many times as you like because the one to one voice is helpful and theraputic.
The only way out of your mess is proving yourself again with all the help and monitoring you can get. You ideally need to be living on a sandwich allowance for a long while and providing receipts. Its not about treating you like a baby.....its about saving your quality of life. It will actually be a huge relief that people care enough to help you
Its tough words but I speak the truth. There is no room for half measures as what you have been doing will completely ruin you given a further chance.
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
Very relevant advice
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