OH why me ?????, I feel very downbeat today, I know why, stress & totally disappointed with a loved one, feeling guilty that I feel this way, but I WILL NOT go back to my " comfort"......online slots, no I won't do it, I am ironing instead........oh the joys of family !!!!! & housework, but it is better than wasting my money that was not mine to waste in the first place, onwards & upwrds, I will get there ,I KNOW I will,
See ya later, love you all,
Lulu21 xxx
just heard "the other woman,the other man" sung by Gerard Kenny, metaphorically ,I suppose , gambling is "the other man", whether literally or metaphorically ,they have both nearly ruined my life, I have deceived a man who is way too good for me (O.H.), yet he forgives me again & again, I am not worth his love or trust, but I won't let him down again, deceit has broken my heart,yes,it was exciting & enjoyable in many ways at first,but when guilt consumes you & you realise that "your God has feet of clay",it makes me love & appreciate the 1 man who has always been a constant in my life since I was 17, Sorry Darling, I will not hurt you again.xx
Hi lulu
I think you will be doing yourself a disservice by attempting to beat this using your willpower alone. This forum is beneficial and there are a lot of knowledgable people on here willing to help you but you are going to need as much help as you can get. Most of the compulsive gamblers in recovery that I know have used GA or counselling. I know that when it came to gambling, my will had absolutely no control over my gambling. Try GA for a month or so. It can't hurt. 🙂
:)))
True Wal
Many think they can stop on their and and i'm sure some can, but there reaches a point in every illness when it gets too much
Hi Lulu
I've been reading this thread and your other thread. It's great that you're finding this forum helpful. Please do keep up your online diary. But it will be much harder if you don't take any other measures to help you stop. You've had some great advice from forum members - self-exclude from all your gambling accounts, install blocking software, try GA or perhaps try counselling again. If it's practical, perhaps look at handing your finances over to someone else so you don't have access to your bank accounts for online gambling.
And as other posters have said, being a carer is stressful so I hope you have access to financial, practical and emotional support that may be avaialble to you for that situation. I'm sure you're aware of Carers UK but in case you're not, their website is http://www.carersuk.org.
If you want to talk through any of these options please call us on the helpline - 0808 8020 133 - or chat to us on the NetLine. We're here 8am to midnight every day.
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