Can't stop can't take much more

Day one of quitting it starts today just want this horrible feeling of chasing the money back to go, can't think straight

Hi pol2013

You are at the right place mate. We are in the same boat, trying to chase our losses and being wounded each time after trusting a lie that we will get back what we lost. My issue has been with roulette too and carry the same horrible feeling as you do. Little by little by distrusting the lies that goes on in our heads about winning our losses back we will get back our lives and more importantly not sink further towards self destruction. Keep strong mate.

Thanks for the reply means alot, I just don't no were to turn, I can't explain how I feel, I've lost alot of money in my time but never felt like i do now, I have a few days of work this week and going to go fishing for a couple of nights I'm just hoping I can sort my head out as it's effecting my work I can't get the loss out of my head, knowing I have my 1200 overdraft and a few 100 quid in my account is eating me away, I could just break my bank card in half which I should of done a long time ago but something is stopping me it's like I wanna lose the money so can't even think about gambling, so wish I could speak to my gf as I no she could really help me though this, I've never been scared or embrassed about saying I have a problem as all my family and friends no of it but just the thought of telling my gf makes Me wanna cry I feel like I'm letting her down she says I'm perfect but does she really no the real me a gambling losser, who would wanna spend there life with someone like me, I also have a daughter I'm just not a fit dad anymore no role model for her 🙁

Thanks for the reply means alot, I just don't no were to turn, I can't explain how I feel, I've lost alot of money in my time but never felt like i do now, I have a few days of work this week and going to go fishing for a couple of nights I'm just hoping I can sort my head out as it's effecting my work I can't get the loss out of my head, knowing I have my 1200 overdraft and a few 100 quid in my account is eating me away, I could just break my bank card in half which I should of done a long time ago but something is stopping me it's like I wanna lose the money so can't even think about gambling, so wish I could speak to my gf as I no she could really help me though this, I've never been scared or embrassed about saying I have a problem as all my family and friends no of it but just the thought of telling my gf makes Me wanna cry I feel like I'm letting her down she says I'm perfect but does she really no the real me a gambling losser, who would wanna spend there life with someone like me, I also have a daughter I'm just not a fit dad anymore no role model for her 🙁

Hi Pol2013, I know how you feel, its awful. I am addicted to sports betting now, with Roulette etc i was always using this online and in shops, you just have to realise that the Roulette is completely fixed and we can not win no matter what we do. I had a friend who one time seen me using the machine in a shop. He had £1.00 in his pocket and put it in and won £36.00 as put it on zero. He then withdrew it and walked home, without placing another bet on it. We can never beat Roulette as it is fixed as everyone loses on it, nobody wins. If you think your GF would be great about it you should tell her, i couldnt tell my GF but it will ruing you in the end up if you dont

Thanks for the comment, yeah I've seen that done before with one of my friends and that's were.it all started for me to be honest, it's a cruel game just wish they would do something about them something more surcure to stop addicts like ourself playing them, when I lost that money yesterday a guy lost 200.next to me and as he was going out said to the staff he is self excluded and wants his money back and they didn't care so what chance do we have when they can't even do there job propley and ask us to leave before we even bet?? Well day 2 without roulette urges are taking over my head but will fight it, it's not gonna win me over

The best think at this point I think is to hand over all access to your finances to a trusted friend/family member. I have given my cards and everything to my wife and only have a daily cash allowance with me. This helps a lot. The other day I had this horrible feeling looking at my extremely overdrawn bank account and was really desperate to win my money back. However after I realised that I had no money with me except £10 cash allowance I found the urges wither away dramatically to my surprise. Had I gambled with £10, the most that I could lose was £10 anyway. And something told me that £10 was not enough to win back the £29,000 that I had lost. So that kept my urges in check. It was disappointing initially but as I was approaching home in the tube that evening, I slowly started feeling much better and happier for not gambling.