Dont know how to stop.

Hi. I've had an issue on and off and I've gambled last year in person at adult gaming centers etc. I self excluded myself from my local for 12 months in December. 

But I have another that expired in March for over a km away. So I waited and 2 days before it was due to expire I was straight back in. I thought I was doing well. Some good sessions. 

Well one day I won at the AGC we have 3 within 300 yards of each other. 2, 24h and one all day. 2 are the same company.  Then my cycle was go from place A, then B then C. Ignoring everyone. But I felt okay. I wasn't. I lost and knew I had money so i lost £200 go cash machine. Then loose it, go back to cash machine. Hit my card limit. Transfer to another card and the cycle continues. Some days good some bad. Anyway the good times rolled. I walked out with profit removed link Then went to bookies, walked out with profit. Then next day walked out another bookies with profit. So I was buzzing. Paid bills, cleared stuff etc. It put me back up. Then the next few days/weeks I became numb and was in a venue every day. One day I had gone to the 24h at 8am and was there till 4am with an hour out for food. 

Eventually I've lost, lost and lost. Alongside this I've also being playing on several non-uk casinos. So each was basically funding eachother. 

I'm signed to Gamstop. (2023) My online non-uk are now closed. I've since got Gamban on all mine and even one of my sons tablets. So there is no gambling access. I banned myself with the AGC via smartexclusion. In April. My ability to gamble and how I can gamble has being tightened. Oh and on MOSES 

Rang gamcare in April and was referred to NECA for councilling. Was still playing at the next town Bookies. Got jackpot but still put it all back in. 

So in June I had a little cash. £20 turned to profit at a pub machine. Ended up putting profits back in. Two days later another pub and lost it. Then saw the words cashback on the card machine. Well that's it. I spent the first 2 weeks of June using cashback to get cash and ended blowing the lot. At one point I was up. But it went back in. I literally drained everything. Bill money the works. Maxed all my credit cards. 

Then cut them all up. Then reordered 1 card. Done it again. Then cut again. 

Trying to send money to my mum. Went to whitby this weekend and was at the pub machines. Then got 2 jackpots withing 5 spins of eachother and it went straight back in. 

Being paid today and literally £330 gone into pub machines. Pubs are the only place locally I can gamble now. I can't seem to steer clear. 

Oh and the place I have my councilling is 30 miles at the seaside and an excuse for me to take money to gamble on the 500 fobt. I can't seem to stop this cycle. I've got everything in place and I'm still going to used all my funds and constantly in the red. 

I could've cleared the debt I have 10x over by now. Makes me so depressed. I'm in this cycle with fobt and now go to pubs I've never being in just to gamble.