Hi, I have been online gambling for 11 years now pretty much non-stop since my 18th birthday. It started of with online poker and then made its way into online sports betting. Over these 11 years I have lost countless amounts of money, put my parents through hell, lost friends, lost jobs and been generally lonely and on a slippery slope. Every month my wages would go in and within a day or two if I was lucky I would have lost all the wages and have to live the rest of the month without any money for food or to go out and do anything so I would be left sitting in my bedroom dying to get another bet on and then begging borrowing or stealing to get by. At 29 years old I basically have nothing to show for my life, a good education and 13 years of working and in debt, no real friends apart from my partner and can´t keep a roof over my head.
This month my wages went in as always on 31st July at midnight and by 8am they were gone and I now have no money for rent, or to pay back my mate who really needs it or go out with my partner anywhere. I have decided enough is enough. I have put locks on all my gambling accounts. I can´t live like this anymore. Its almost like a second life I lead. I have a great job, a loving family and a fantastic girlfriend. I am so close to losing all this if I cannot knock this evil demon on the head that I have let ruin my life for the last 11 years.
I have made half assed efforts in the past to give up but I am determined now that I have to sort my mess out. I have read a lot of posts in this forum under this topic and it is shocking how much I can relate to almost every one of them. I just hope we can all get through and get our lives back on track.
I look forward to being an active member of this forum and recovering from my terrible gambling addiction.
Regards
Luke
Hi Luke,
I can relate to everything you are saying. I do think being an active member here will help and like you it has taken me almost 11 years to reach out for a change. My last bet was also yesterday, so hopefully we can both start from here and move forward as it is a horrible existence when caught up in the cycle of gambling.
Sam
Good luck to you both Sam and Luke.
Luke at 29 you're still young you have plenty of time to create a better life for yourself you can start by fighting your addiction. Have you considered the 1-2-1 counselling that's avaliable through Gamcare?
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