With the football season in full swing, it has been another tough day. I am a Leicester fan so watched the match earlier on TV & then found myself just browsing today’s matches and picking out winners and then constantly checking the scores. I am almost torturing myself mentally.Â
With 40k of debt to pay off (10k of loans & 30k of credit card debt) paying over £1000 a month to the debts is a harsh reminder of how bad it had got after 10 years of addiction. I should be living a comfortable life with an extra grand in the bank but the devil got hold of me, despite for 20 years happily only have £5 each week on footy.Â
I find myself constantly wishing I could fast forward time to put this behind me and move on. As I write this and understand I have a serious addiction & huge debts…. I still miss having a bet, I miss the buzz. For 10 years my life was reaching for my phone as soon as I wake up to check the fixtures, I would pick a single match and then place thousands on it. The odds would be 1/3 or something like that, it’s crazy that I would happily risk losing 1k to win £300. It’s just madness how your mindset changes when addiction takes over, it isn’t even about winning when you are an addict, it is about placing a bet, the thought of you missing out when you don’t have a bet on.Â
Despite every day being like day 1, I am determined to beat this and become debt free.Â
Stay strong king, you got this!Â
Your doing greatÂ
King u got this its a slow proccess u will eventually get their my advice to u is continue doing what your doing iim seeing alot of peoole managing 5/10 years and getting sucked in one thing i learnt no matter how many years your free it only need one chance at my local Ga i remember guy celebrating 26 years bet free and i thought he was crazy still going Ga now i understand the time is irrelevent if he has to go Ga for the rest of his life to function as a normal human being it a small price to pay the issue with this addiction what i have personally leant as humans we tend to move on unfortunately with this addiction it doesnt care how long u have been bet free they very fortunate one are able to with little concequences most people one lapse ends up with financial disaster and i am one of those people
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