Hi Everyone
Embarrassed to type this out but I have realised I have a problem with gambling at 28 years old. I have OCD and have finally come to terms with my addictive obsessive behaviours. I have been gambling on and off since I was 18 and it seemed to get worse when drinking.
I think the worst of it was last night, lying to my partner telling her I’m on my 1st lot of deposits when really it’s 100s more, starting an argument to almost get her off my back so I can just keep gambling.
I realised yesterday that it doesn’t matter if I win or lose. The winnings are never enough and the losses are devastating. Even yesterday.. I got lucky and I ended up not in a negative balance but i still didn’t like the person I became when i was so desperate to gamble.
Im signed up to gamstop but i used friends betting accounts. I have deleted all the passwords i have, told them about my issues with gambling and asked if they could please just not bring betting up with me anymore. Im going back in to therapy this week also. And I have signed up to Gamcare so it blocks access to the sites
Thank you for reading this if you get this far and I hope all of you find the support you deserve.
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